I went inside for the shotgun and the flashlight but when I came back out Maeve had made her way back through the thicket and into the ghostly yard, all color gone to shadowy gray, the nightslip wadded into a diaper she held to herself with both hands. I suppose it wasn’t this child’s first. She walked through the yard. What dogs hadn’t gone with her stood around with heads held low, she something terrible and holy, lumpy stomach smeared with blood. She went to the lake’s edge to wash herself and the slip, soaking and wringing it till she fell out and I had to go save her and take her into the house and bathe her myself and put her to bed. Her swollen little-girl’s bosoms were smooth and white as the moon, the leaky nipples big as berries.
I couldn’t sleep and went out into the yard, slipped out of my jeans and into the lake. I thought a swim might calm me. I was floating on my back in the shallows looking up at the moon so big and clear you could imagine how the dust would feel between your fingers. My blood was up. I thought I heard something through the water, and stood. It was coming from across the lake, in the thick bramble up on the steep ridge, where a strange woman had moved into an empty cabin some months back. I heard a man one night up there, howling and saying what sounded like a name, I couldn’t tell what it was.
I’d seen her in town. She carried herself like a man, with strong wiry arms, a sun-scorched neck, and a face hard and strange as the wood knots the carvers call tree spirits. I heard she’s an installer for the phone company.
When I stood up in the water I could hear a steady rattling of branches and a skidding racket, something coming down the steep ridge wall. I waded back toward the bank, stopped and looked, and she crashed out of the bushes overhanging the water, dangling naked from a moonlit branch. She dropped into the lake with a quiet little splash.
I saw her arms rise from the water and wheel slowly over her round, wet head and dip again beneath. She made no noise. She swam around the curve up into the shallows, stood up, and walked toward me and never took her eyes off my own. When she got close I started to back up a step but she grabbed hold of me with a hand that had sharp, callused edges on the finger pads and the palm. I hadn’t even realized I’d swelled up. She grinned and looked down at it, gave it a little yank, then let go.
She sighed and looked back across the lake. I turned my eyes from her saggy little fanny and skinny legs. She had a lean rangy skinned-cat body, and a deep little muttering voice.
“My name’s Callie. I’m your neighbor,” she said.
“I know it.”
She said, “Who’s the little girl you’re taking care of?”
“My niece,” I said. She was my younger cousin, but I had told her to call me uncle because it sounded more natural. I said, “She’s had a hard life.”
“Mmm,” she said, and we were quiet for a while. “Well, the world ain’t no place for a child these days, is it?”
“It is not,” I agreed.
“Must be hard on a man,” she said.
“I don’t know what you mean.”
“I mean being alone out here with a pretty little girl.”
“She’s my niece, I’m not that way.”
She looked at me and then at the house for a minute.
“Why don’t you come on up to the ridge sometimes and pay me a visit?” Her thin lips crooked up and parted in a grin. “At least till she’s not in the family way anymore.” She raised a hand and walked back into the water and swam around the curve into the cove and out of sight. I sat down on the bank. There was a sound and I turned my head to see Maeve up from bed and standing unsteady on the porch, fiddling with the little blue headphones radio, which she didn’t at the moment seem to understand how to use. Then in a minute she had them on again, and just stood there, swaying a little like she might fall over. I went up and carried her back to her bed, pulled the sheet up over her. She kept the little blue headphones on, not paying me any attention.
I fed her some antibiotics left over from when I’d had the flu, and in a short time she recovered. She was young. Her old coon hound never came back, nor the others that went out with him, and I had a vision of them all devouring one another like snakes, until they disappeared.
NOW THAT SHE WASN’T carrying, she roamed the canyon with the strays. She ate raw peanuts from a sack I had on the kitchen counter, and drank her water from the lake down on her hands and muddy knees. She smelled like a dog that’s been wallowing in the lake mud, that sour dank stink of rotten roots and scum. I finally held her in the bathtub one day, took the headphones off her head, and plunged her in, her scratching and screaming. I scrubbed her down and lathered up her head and dunked her till she was squeaky, and plucked a fat tick out of her scalp. But when I tried to dress her in some of Greta’s old clothes, shut up in plastic and mothballs all these years, she slashed my cheek with her raggedy nails and ran through the house naked and making a high, thin, and breathless sound until she sniffed out the old rag she wore and flew out through the yard and into the woods buck naked with that rag in her hand and didn’t come back till that evening, wearing it, smelling of the lake water again, and curled up asleep on the bare porchboards.
When I went to the screen door she didn’t look up but said from where she lay hugging herself, “Don’t you handle me that way no more.”
“I had to clean you, child.”
“I can’t be touched,” she said.
“All right.”
“That woman at the big store said you was my daddy.”
“But you know I’m not, I’m your uncle.”
“And I don’t want no daddy,” she said. “I just come out of the woods the day I come here, didn’t come from nowhere before that.”
“All right,” I said, though my heart sank when she said it, for I wanted her to care about me in some way, but I don’t think that was something she knew how to do. I convinced her to come back inside, sleep in her bed. As long as I kept my distance and made no sudden moves toward her and did not ever raise my voice above the gentle words you would use with a baby, we were all right. But it was not a way any man could live for long and I wondered what I could do — send her back to Sebastian’s place, where she was but chattel? I feared one day she would wander into the woods and go wild. I might have called the county, said, Look, this child, who has wandered here from my uncle’s house, is in need of attention and there is nothing more I can do.
Who would take in such a child but the mental hospital down in Tuscaloosa?
I FIGURED SEBASTIAN THOUGHT she’d been sucked up into the twister and scattered into blood and dust, until the afternoon I heard his pickup muttering and coughing along the dam and then his springs sighing as he idled down the steep drive to the house, and then the creaking door and I was out on the porch waiting on him. He stopped at the steps and nodded and looked off across the lake as if we were lost together in thought. Uncle Sebastian was old and small and thin and hard as iron and he had the impish and shrewd face of all his siblings. His face was narrow and his eyes slanted down and in and his chin jutted up so that if you viewed him in profile his head was the blade of a scythe and his body the handle. He blinked in the sun and said, “We been most of the summer fixing up the house after that tornado back in the spring.”
I said, “Anybody hurt?”
“Well, we thought we’d lost little Maeve.” And he turned to me. “Then I hear tell she’s showed up over here, staying with you.”
“Where would you hear that?” I said, and he said nothing but I saw his eyes shift just a fraction up toward the ridge where the crazy woman’s house was perched.