In a fine silk nightgown beneath a peignoir of heavier silk, she stood by one window in the darkened room and gazed out at the moon-drenched night.
And waited.
Another hour passed before she heard the door to the room next to hers open, then close. She heard Gyles’s footsteps cross the floor. Heard him speak to Wallace.
She imagined Gyles undressing…
She turned her head, stared at the connecting door. Then she was crossing to it, reaching for the handle. If they were going to discuss anything, she wanted her husband fully clothed.
She flung open the door and walked through. “I wish to speak with you.”
Coatless, his cravat loose about his neck, Gyles paused, then he drew the linen free. “I’ll join you in a moment.”
She halted ten feet away, crossed her arms beneath her breasts, and looked him in the eye. “I see no reason to wait.”
Gyles took in the seething emotion in her eyes. He glanced down the room. Wallace was easing out of the door. Jaw setting, he looked at Francesca. “Very well.” His tones were clipped, cold. “What is it?”
Unwise words; her eyes flared. But the fact she reined her temper in left him even more uneasy. He’d seen her furious before; this time, she was burning with a cold flame-one to cut, rather than scorch.
“I am not a child.”
She enunciated the words clearly. His eyes on hers, he raised his brows, then let his gaze slide over her lush figure. “I wasn’t aware I had treated you-”
He shut up.
She laughed coldly. “Like an infant incapable of any degree of self-preservation? A lackwit unable to walk through the park without falling and causing herself some hurt? Or was it that you imagined I’d be attacked and ravished under the trees”-she flung out an arm-“there, in your own park?”
She wrapped her arms about her again, as if she was chilled by her own fury. Her eyes locked with his. “You have given orders that have made me a prisoner in this house-this house that is supposedly my home. Why?”
The simple question slipped under his guard and rocked him. He’d expected her to rail against his restrictions, not cut straight to his heart and ask why. He let seconds tick by, let his breathing slow, steeled himself before stating, “Because I wish it.”
She didn’t react-didn’t fling her hands to the sky and berate him. She studied him, her gaze steady and direct. Then, slowly, she shook her head. “That, my lord, is not answer enough.”
“It is, however, all the answer you will get.”
Again, she didn’t react as he expected. Her eyes widened; her gaze raced over his face, then she swung on her heel and walked back to her room.
The door closed, softly, behind her.
Gyles stared at the closed door. The coldness inside him deepened, intensified to pain. He’d thought he couldn’t get any colder; he’d been wrong about that, too.
He’d been wrong about so much.
So wrong in thinking that to love was a decision that was his to make. Yes, or no. It hadn’t been like that.
A sound at the main door made him glance that way. With a curt gesture, he waved Wallace away. He needed a few moments to get his armor back in place, to gird himself to suffer the cold. He’d felt fear before, but it had never been like this. Never this deep, this black, this icy. Every time she caused it to rise, it grew more powerful, more profound. He thought he’d vanquished it, or at least come of an age where he could manage it and triumph. The moment in the forest, replayed with greater intensity on the downs, had left him feeling victorious.
A hollow victory. If he was with her when danger threatened, all was well. He still felt the fear, but he wasn’t helpless against it, and he knew it. He’d proved it. He was who he was, in his prime; there were few dangers from which he couldn’t defend her. Protecting her encouraged the barbarian, fed his baser self.
But his true self had no armor against invisible foes, no ability to protect her from them.
Against all conscious direction, his true self had fallen deeply in love with his wife.
Dropping the cravat, he started loosening his cuffs. He’d felt the first chill touch when he’d lifted her mangled hat from Wallace’s salver. He’d tried not to notice, to pay it no heed, as if by doing so he could deny its existence. Then had come the incident of the dressing.
He been helpless to deny his fear. Ever since, it had ruled him.
Knowing that the dressing had not been poisoned made no difference; it changed nothing.
He was irrevocably in love with his wife. His world had come to revolve about her smile, and he could not face even the faintest possibility that she might be taken from him.
Wallace had returned. Gyles heard the quiet sounds of his valet-cum-majordomo hanging his discarded coat in the wardrobe.
The door to Francesca’s room opened. She came in, agitation flowing about her, whipping the skirts of her peignoir. Her hair looked wild, as if she’d run her hands through it.
Gyles flicked a glance at Wallace to see his majordomo sliding once more from the room. Inwardly bracing, he faced Francesca. “What now?”
Her face was pale. He didn’t want to meet her eyes, didn’t want to see the bruising in the green.
“Why are you doing this?”
Her voice was low, not sultry but shaking with suppressed emotion.
“Because I have to.”
“Why?” Francesca waited, her heart a leaden fist in her chest.
“Francesca…” Gyles sighed through his teeth, then he met her gaze, his eyes stormy, impossible to read. “You married me.” His voice was as low as hers but much harder, more forceful. “Even after that last meeting in the forest, you married me. You knew very well what you were marrying-you, of all women, knew that.”
“Yes. But I still don’t understand.” When he turned, she shifted so she could still see his face. She wasn’t going to retreat, to let him shut her out. Drawing in a strangled breath, she spread her arms wide. “What have I done to deserve this? Why are you treating me like a felon in your house?” That struck a nerve. He flicked her a sharp glance. “Yes,” she went on, “like a would-be thief, someone to be watched over at all times.”
“Everything here is yours-”
“No!” Her eyes clashed with his. “Everything here is not mine!”
Sudden silence enveloped them; they both stilled. Teetered on a precipice. Their gazes were locked. Neither breathed. She felt his will reach her, press her to draw back…
Into that stillness, with great deliberation, she let her words fall, “The one thing I want-the one thing I ever wanted from this marriage-is not mine.”
His face closed. He straightened. “I told you from the first what I would give you-have I reneged on anything I promised?”
“No. But I offered you more, more than we had bargained-and you took. Gladly.”
He couldn’t deny it. His jaw hardened but he said nothing.
“I’ve given you more than we spoke of. I’ve tried hard to be all you wanted in a wife-I’ve managed this house, acted as your hostess, done all I promised. And I’ve done more, given more, been more.”
She held his gaze, then more softly asked, “Now tell me, please-what have I done to deserve your distance?”
It was pointless to pretend he didn’t understand, that he didn’t know what she wanted, what she’d hoped. What she’d dreamed. Gyles held her darkened gaze and wished he could, but they’d gone too far for that. From the first they’d dealt directly, at a level of communication he’d shared with no one else, albeit a communication without words. They were attuned-aware of the other’s moods, of the subtleties in their thinking. She’d been transparent from the first. And he’d let her believe that she could see into his heart, into his soul, when in reality his heart was forever shielded and his soul was locked away where no one could reach.
For that-for all she had been and was-he owed her his honesty. “I never promised to love you.”