“It might help, though, right?”
“It might,” she said with a nod. “But, then again, depending on what is divulged, it could be harmful instead.”
“Not what I wanted to hear, Helen.”
“You would prefer that I lie?”
“I didn’t say that.”
“Then stop complaining.”
“Yeah, right, and you believe that miracle will happen when?”
She offered a thin smile. “Never.”
“Uh-huh. Well, at any rate if we’re talking about a living, adult sibling, then I’m sure the police would be interested too.”
“Undoubtedly, given what you have told me.”
“Either way, I thought maybe I would see if she’d be willing to talk to both of us when she arrives.”
“That certainly would not hurt.”
“To be honest, I’m not sure if she will, but I’m going to try to talk her into it. Just do me a favor?”
“What is that?”
“If she agrees, try not to mention anything about the Lwa possession or anything else that went on last night, okay? It probably wouldn’t be a real good thing to lay on her.”
She gave me a knowing nod. I knew that from my own sessions with her, at the very least, she was fully aware of the score when it came to my in-laws.
“I believe that information would be covered under doctor-patient confidentiality anyway, Rowan,” she said. “You need not worry.”
“I honestly hadn’t ever expected to be having this conversation,” Maggie said, shifting in her chair. She had calmed considerably since the phone call, but I could tell there was still a nervous streak underscoring her tone.
Looking at my mother-in-law, it was easy to see from which parent Felicity had inherited her looks. Maggie was slight, just like my wife, and sported a shoulder-length coif of chestnut hair, although it was rapidly giving itself over to grey. Still, it softly framed her smooth, delicate features and bright eyes to form a pleasing and deceptively youthful visage. In fact, discerning her true age simply by looking at her would be no easy task. A box of hair dye from the corner store would instantly shave off a dozen years. And, though she was still extremely pretty, she had been an absolutely stunning sight in her youth. In fact, I had seen hard evidence of it from old family photos.
“It’s okay, Maggie,” I replied. “I think that pretty much goes for both of us.”
“Yes, I suppose that would be true, then,” she agreed. “Although for different reasons, I’m sure.”
“If it would make you more comfortable, I will be happy to leave you two alone to talk,” Helen offered.
“No,” Maggie replied hesitantly. “I think it may be important that you hear this.”
“Yes, I will admit that any insight you can provide is most welcome, however, Rowan can fill me in later if you wish.”
“No. You should hear it from me.” My mother-in-law paused, and her tenuous composure faltered for a moment as she suddenly blurted, “Is my daughter going to be all right?”
“Yes,” Helen replied. “She is going to be just fine. She has simply dealt with far too much strife in a very short period of time.”
It was the truth. It was just missing all of the gory details.
“Maggie,” I started. “I hate to sound impatient, but I’m really looking for answers here, and I got the feeling when we were on the phone that you just might have one or two.”
“It’s understandable, Rowan. You’ve dealt with more than your share of this, and we’ve given you little support where that is concerned.”
“That’s not important right now. I’m hanging in there.”
She grew quiet and looked down at her hands where they were resting in her lap. Her right was absently fiddling with her wedding set, twisting the rings in a circle. Every now and then she would pull them up the length of her finger, almost to the tip, then slide them back on and begin twirling the interlocking gold bands yet again.
“I suppose I should give you a bit of background if this is to make any sense,” she said as she looked up, casting her glance between Helen and me, though her fingers continued to toy with the jewelry of their own volition. “To begin with, and this you may already know, Rowan, I am an identical twin.”
I nodded. “Felicity mentioned it, and I think I’ve seen a picture or two in the photo albums.”
“Yes,” she replied. “She may also have told you that, Caitlin, my twin, passed away many years ago. In fact, Felicity was very young.”
I simply nodded.
“Actually, the story the children were told was that their aunt was killed in an accidental car crash, but, that is only partially true.”
She stopped and stared off into space for a long moment then shot us both an embarrassed glance before lowering her eyes to her lap once again.
She continued. “That was nineteen seventy-two. One would think I could have come to terms with it by now.”
“If you have been hiding painful details for all this time,” Helen offered, “then it is unlikely you could actually come to terms with the event, as you have not allowed yourself to do so.”
“Yes,” Maggie replied without looking up. “I suppose you are correct. But it was necessary. We simply didn’t feel a need to burden the children with the embarrassing truth.”
“You said Felicity was very young. Austin isn’t that much older,” I observed. “Would they have even understood?”
“I don’t know,” she replied. “But they both adored Caitlin. Especially, Felicity. I believed then that our decision in sheltering them was correct, as I would now were it not for this turn of events.”
I nodded then offered, “But, they aren’t children any more, Maggie. They grew up.”
She looked up at me with a soft smile that held a small hint of pity. “Yes, Rowan, they are still children. I know it sounds cliche, but they always will be, no matter what their ages. But, one must be a parent to truly understand that.”
“I’ll give you that,” I replied.
Any other time I would have taken the comment as a diaphanously veiled reference to the fact that so far, neither Austin nor Felicity had produced a grandchild. Of course, I had a valid reason for the assessment because we had all heard the contentious remark several times in the past, though I’m certain they would prefer a set of genes in their pool that didn’t belong to me. However, I could easily tell by her tone that this time she was sincere in what she had just said, and no goading or malice was intended.
After a pause I asked, “So, your sister wasn’t killed in a car crash?”
She took in a deep breath and visibly gathered herself before continuing. “Yes, actually, she was. However, it wasn’t an accident. She deliberately drove her car onto a railroad crossing, and waited.”
“How can you know she did it on purpose?”
“Trust me, Rowan, she did.”
“Was your sister being treated for depression?” Helen asked, obviously picking up on something in my mother-in-law’s tone that I had missed.
Maggie nodded affirmation then added, “Not that it was doing any good, obviously. Her prescriptions more or less kept her from functioning normally. She couldn’t think clearly, and all she ever wanted to do was sleep. She hated it. Caitlin just reached a point where she simply refused to take them.”
“Given that it was nineteen seventy-two, they were most likely tranquilizers,” Helen said as she jotted a note and then looked up. “Was she ever hospitalized?”
“Briefly. That made for its own embarrassment in the family.”
“Mm-hmm,” Helen hummed with a nod.
“Why would that be embarrassing?” I asked.
“The culture,” she answered with a shrug. “Our generation, the way we were raised. Our parents were not particularly supportive of her for a number of reasons. They felt she had brought the depression on herself, and that she had disgraced the family.”
“Because she suffered from depression?” I asked, unable to fathom such insensitivity from family.
“There were other reasons, Rowan.”