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My lawyer says “The court will believe her rather than you which they always do in cases like this when the evidence isn’t entirely in your favor. Besides, even if they’ve doubts you weren’t lying, to most people the man’s supposed to fight back. Please, whatever you do from now on, stay clear of her.”

I drop charges, she drops hers, I’m ordered by the court to send her a certain sum of money every week if I’m going to live apart, and I move into a hotel, start looking for an apartment and, because of the notoriety our situation got, my boss asks me to look for another job. Month later Melanie calls and says “Thanks for this week’s check.”

“You’re welcome.”

“It’s nice speaking to you again.”

“It isn’t for me.”

“I want us to get back together, what do you say?”

“That last time was the last time of all the times and I never want to see or speak to you again,” and hang up.

She calls back. “I promise the past won’t be repeated. I got it all out of my system. I love you, need you, want you — please. Don’t you even still like me a little bit and think of me or my body some? Don’t you ever want to hold me again or want me to wrap myself around you at night like I used to and cuddle you to sleep?”

“Sometimes I think of you. I’ll be honest. And not just think of you negatively. There were good times, yes, but when you got the adrenaline going till you turned into some horrible beast — well what do you think I am, permanently insane? Next time you’ll kill or maim me to where I’ll never again be able to stand. No. Definitely not.”

“What can I do to make you change your mind and see how much I changed?”

“Nothing.”

“Please. I can hear it in your voice. What? Tell me. For you I’ll do anything.”

“Two things for sure, though even then I can’t promise I’ll come back. One, tell the district attorney’s office you did assault me those last few times and that I didn’t strike you first. That way they won’t think I’m making up stories and my boss and clients won’t think I’m a little crazy. Then, if you beat me again, the city can also send you away or fine you or whatever they do to repeated offenders.”

“No. They’ll get me for perjury for swearing out untrue charges against you and maybe throw me in jail.”

“Two, you have to start therapy right away. Group and individual both. And also go to a religious adviser every week to declare that you beat me repeatedly and nearly killed me last time and to keep going till they tell me you worked it out.”

“I can’t. People will think the worst things of me. It’s crazy for a woman to be called a husband batterer. Society won’t tolerate it. They’ll say I’m wicked or insane and give me drugs or put me away. They’ll also think I married a queer. A whimpering milquetoast. I don’t want them to think that. I don’t want them to think I married a man who can’t stand up to anyone.”

“You have my two stipulations.”

“I can’t meet them.”

“Then that’s it then, goodbye.”

“But I swear I won’t hit you again. Sweetheart, please, I love you, come home right now. I’ll make it nice. I’ll bathe you, make your favorite foods, take care of you in every way, do everything you want me to, take gladly all your commands.”

“I don’t want to command. I just wanted our relationship to be natural as possible, no fakeries or postures, can’t you see? Beating isn’t natural. Getting things out of your system is, but not like you do. Yours is vicious. Sadistic. You don’t even stop when I’m down. No, first work out your problems or at least show me you’ve begun to by telling the district attorney’s office and going to that therapy thing for a month. Only then I’ll come back.”

“If you don’t come back now I’m really going to get mad.”

“What, break my neck?”

“Yes.”

“There, see? Oh, I wish I had a recording of this call. Forget it,” and I hang up.

Hour later she knocks on my hotel-room door. I say through the peephole “Go away or I’ll call the desk.”

“What’ll you say: ‘My wife wants to get into my room’?”

“Yes, I’ll say that. Also that you want to murder me, that you tried it before and nearly succeeded and that I want protection from you.”

“You don’t need protection. I only want to speak gently to you.”

“No.”

She kicks the door. I say “Save your energy, I’m not opening up.” She bangs her shoulder against the door. I say “I’m calling them so you better leave.”

She’s still banging. A paint seam runs down the entire middle of the door and the wood seems to be buckling. I call downstairs.

“Manager? Then assistant then, listen. There’s a woman at my door who’s my wife, all right, but we’re legally separated and she’s trying to get in my room to kill me, I’m not kidding. She won’t go away. She’s busting down the door now. Get up here. 6G. She’s a very big woman and I just recently got out of the hospital from a serious beating from her and I’m not allowed to get excited and certainly not to fight back.”

They come upstairs. She yells “Let me go. He has someone in there — a prostitute, that’s why I’m here.”

“That true, Mr. Ridge?” a man says through the door.

“Absolutely not.”

“I myself saw him accost her on the street before and ride the elevator up with her. I’m reporting this hotel for allowing whores in it.”

“She’s lying. I’ve no one. She’s just trying to get in the room to attack me. Call the police, Fifth Precinct, Sergeant Abneg if he’s in or any of his associates and ask them if they don’t have a file on us about this beating thing.”

“Could you open the door so we can see for ourselves? If you do have a woman in there, for one thing it’s a single room and she’s not a paying guest, and for another, if she is a prostitute then we’ll have to ask you and the woman in there to leave. We don’t allow that in this hotel.”

“I told you. My wife just wants to get in here.”

“Then we’ll have to open the door ourselves. Sergio, the passkey.”

They get the key in a minute and open the door. I’m at the other end of the room with a chair raised over my head ready to bring it down on her if she makes a move toward me. She screams “You whoremonger,” and rushes at me. I bring the chair down. It hits her shoulder and she falls and gets up, drops again and while the two men are keeping me from hitting her again with the chair, she gets up and grabs an ashtray off a table and smashes it against my head. I go down.

“Ma’am,” one of the men says.

She kicks me in the jaw. I hear the snap and know it’s broken. She kicks it again and again and I go out. Next thing I know I’m in an ambulance driving through the city, a doctor leaning over me holding open one of my eyes.

I press charges against my wife from the hospital bed. The policewoman I speak to says “Your wife claims you had a prostitute in your room.”