Instead of joining her I dragged a hickory chair into the front hall and sat there, leaning against the wall, napping and standing guard in turns.
45
It was more sleep than watchfulness by four fifty-four that morning. I know the time because that’s what my phone read when I answered it.
“Leonid,” the caller said when I grunted, too groggy even to say hello.
“Breland?”
“What the hell is going on?”
“Are you safe?”
“Yeah. Yeah, I am. But I got up early and called my service. There was a message from Shelby Mycroft.”
“What did he say?”
“You don’t even know?”
“I ain’t gonna play twenty questions with you, man. Either say something or hang the fuck up.”
“Kent has been arrested.”
“Charged with what?”
“Conspiracy, murder, racketeering, and about a dozen other crimes.”
“So, what’s that got to do with me?”
“The chief arresting officer was Carson Kitteridge.”
“Oh.”
“So I’m going to ask you again — what’s going on?”
“I’m... not sure. I haven’t talked to Kit about this. Not at all.”
“It can’t be coincidence.”
“Maybe it is. But I promise you that I’ll look into it. Just as soon as the sun comes up.”
“Mycroft wants to see me. He wants me at his house.”
“Don’t go and don’t answer him.”
“I have to do something.”
“I’ll take care of it.”
“Leonid, Shelby is a powerful man. I can’t just ignore him.”
“You want to make your wife a widow, your children fatherless?”
Silence.
Exhaustion hovered over me like a demon bear. I think for a moment I nodded off even with all that was on my mind.
“I’ll get to the bottom of this arrest and get back in touch with you. But you and the family stay away. If you could see me right now, you’d know why.”
“How’s your family, LT?” the lawyer asked in a conciliatory tone.
“Breathing,” I said. “Sleeping too.”
Twill’s room was empty.
I removed my blue clothes, took an ice-cold shower in place of eight hours’ sleep, and donned an identical suit. After downing a press pot of French roast coffee I was on the street in front of my building by six.
There’s a coffee shop near Ninety-third and Broadway, Shep’s Schleps. It’s just a counter with a kitchen behind it that makes deliveries from six to six. There Shep’s wife, Nina, served me an egg-and-bacon sandwich with yellow mustard and raw onion while I read the sports pages of that morning’s Post. Baseball was in full swing. The Yankees had beaten the Mets, two games to one, in a Subway Series. Wladimir Klitschko failed to knock out David Haye but retained his heavyweight crown.
By six minutes after seven my anger had lowered to a reasonable level. I called Twill’s cell phone and got his answering service.
“This is Twill,” his voice said. “Leave a message.”
“Make sure you’re in the office at one,” I told the mechanism. “You already know what this is about.”
The brown brick apartment building was on Ninety-fourth a little east of Broadway. I searched the legend and pressed a little green button.
“Yes?” a woman said.
“Leonid McGill for Seldon Arvinil.”
“What is this about?”
“College business. I work for the security department.”
“What happened?”
“Is Mr. Arvinil at home?”
“I’ll get him.”
“Mr. McGill?” a man asked over the speaker maybe two minutes later.
“Mr. Arvinil.”
“I’ll be right there.”
I backed down the stairs to the middle of the sidewalk, wondering if Seldon owned a pistol. He might have. How many times had the jealous man been killed by the object of his rage? As I pondered this question a white man of slight build appeared at the front door of the brown stack of apartments. He was wearing a square-cut red-and-cream leisure shirt and blue jeans. His hands were empty so I waved instead of drawing my own gun.
“Mr. McGill?” he asked.
I pursed my lips and nodded.
“What is it?”
“Come on down here, man.”
Arvinil had tanned skin, bushy brown hair crusted a little with gray, and brown eyes. He listed back a bit and then, finding the courage somewhere, walked down the stairs without stumbling.
He faced me eye to eye.
He was three inches taller than I. I had forty pounds on him.
“Yes?” he asked.
“You know why I’m here?”
He winced in answer.
“She’s a child,” I said.
“No.”
“No what?”
“She’s young,” he stammered, “a young woman who is better than I deserve. But she’s a woman, not a child.”
“Just because a girl can have sex doesn’t make her a woman.”
“Why are you here, Mr. McGill?”
“Your daughter is only a couple of years younger than Shelly,” I said. When he remained silent I added, “What would she and your wife have to say about what you’re doing?”
“From what Shelly has told me about you that would be letting me off easy,” he said.
I preferred assassins in the night. Them I could fight and kill. Seldon was brave with no muscle, innocent with no excuse.
“Why?” I asked him.
“Has a young woman never made your heart sing?”
I suppose he expected me to think of the women I’d known, young and older. But what I thought about was the lie I’d let Shelly live with, the bullet holes in her wall. If she wasn’t out rutting with this graying history professor, she’d be wounded or dead and I’d be to blame.
The biceps in both my arms ached with violence and exhaustion. I realized that I couldn’t speak without attacking, so I turned and walked away, heading farther east.
46
When i reached the park it was not yet eight.
Somewhere above 101st Street, a few hundred yards in, there’s a huge pile of boulders that come together forming a grotto of stone. I climbed up the man-made hill and was happy to see that no one had been there for a while.
It was going to be a hot day but the morning air still held the chill of night. I hunkered down in the rocky crevice and closed my eyes. Sleep came on in an instant and I was transported to the comparatively peaceful time of my homeless, directionless adolescence.
My dreams were not indecipherable mysteries wrought from unconscious material. Instead they were of people I knew or wanted to know. Zella and Antoinette were there, also Johann Brighton and someone else, someone that might have sent killers to my paper-thin front door.
The path of my life appeared before me — hard and clear. I could, in the dream, turn around and take everything back. I could pass through time and decide not to help Zella or lie to Shelly. I could travel all the way back to the womb and be another person or no one at all. But I was too comfortable on that quartz plinth under the summer’s sun. As I was lying there my life seemed to have enough meaning to engender nostalgia — the greatest enemy of human logic.
I found comfort in that old hiding place. There I had temporarily escaped the evil machinations of an enemy set into motion by my own foolish acts.
My heart was a tin drum; my breath the sighs of a forlorn, slightly out-of-tune cello. But music, no matter how sad it becomes, is still a solace for the soul.
My dreams became incomprehensible and I smiled. New York faded from consciousness. I was all alone in a wilderness before Eden, before good or evil... ...and when I awoke I was completely refreshed. The medicine had worked. The fever, along with whatever infection that caused it, was gone from my body. Men were trying to kill me, but so what? I was reborn. A born-again agnostic risen from the ashes of faith.