"Try to."
"Would you mind if I trained with you?"
"You attempting some kind of humor, Private?"
"Nothing funny about killing, sir."
"Well, there's something funny with your head if you want to stuff yourself into one of those damn Jackets the day before we head out to die. You want to work up a sweat, go find a coed's thighs to do it in." Ferrell's eyes stayed on his laces. "Dismissed."
"Sarge? With all due respect, I don't see you running after the ladies."
Ferrell finally looked up. His eyes were 20mm rifle barrels firing volleys at me from the bunkers set deep in the lines of his tanned, leathery face. I cooked under the glaring sun.
"You tellin' me you think I'm some sort of faggot who'd rather be strapped into a Jacket reeking of sweat than up between a woman's legs? That what you're tellin' me?"
"Tha—that's—not what I meant, sir!"
"Right, then. Take a seat." He ran his hand through his hair and patted the ground.
I sat down as a gust of ocean wind blew between us.
"I was on Ishigaki, you know," Ferrell began. "Musta been at least ten years ago. Jackets back then were cheap as hell. There was this place near the crotch—right about here—where the plates didn't meet quite right. Rubbed right through your skin. And the places that had scabbed over during training would rub through again when you got into battle. Hurt so bad some guys refused to crawl on the ground. They'd get up and walk right in the middle of a fight. You could tell 'em it would get 'em killed, but there were always a few who got up anyway. Might as well have walked around with targets painted on their chests." Ferrell whistled like a falling shell. "Whap! Lost a bunch of men that way."
Ferrell had a mix of Japanese and Brazilian blood in him, but he came from South America. Half that continent had been ravaged by the Mimics. Here in Japan, where high—tech was cheaper than good food, our Jackets were precision pieces of machinery. Still, there were plenty of countries where it was all they could do to send their troops off with a gas mask, a good old—fashioned rocket launcher, and a prayer. Forget about artillery or air support. Any victory they did happen to win was short—lived. Nanobots spilling from Mimic corpses would eat the lungs out of whatever soldiers that were left. And so, little by little, lifeless desert spread through the lands people once called home.
Ferrell came from a family of farmers. When their crops started to fail, they chose to abandon their land and move to one of the islands in the east, safe havens protected by the wonders of technology. Families with people serving in the UDF were given priority for immigration, which is how Ferrell came to join the Japanese Corps.
These "Immigration Soldiers," as they were known, were common in the Armored Infantry.
"You ever hear the expression kiri—oboeru?"
"What?" I asked, startled to hear the Japanese.
"It's an old samurai saying that means, ‘Strike down your enemy, and learn.' "
I shook my head. "Doesn't sound familiar."
"Tsukahara, Bokuden, Itou, Miyamato Musashi—all famous samurai in their day. We're talking five hundred years ago, now."
"I think I read a comic about Musashi once."
"Damn kids. Wouldn't know Bokuden from Batman." Ferrell sighed in exasperation. There I was, pure—blooded Japanese, and he knew more about my country's history than I did. "Samurai were warriors who earned their living fighting, just like you and me. How many people do you think the samurai I just named killed in their lifetimes?"
"I dunno. If their names are still around after five hundred years, maybe… ten or twenty?"
"Not even close. The records from back then are sketchy, but the number is somewhere between three and five hundred. Each. They didn't have guns. They didn't have bombs. Every single man they killed they cut down in hand—to—fucking—hand combat. I'd say that'd be enough to warrant a medal or two."
"How'd they do it?"
"Send one man to the great beyond each week, then do the same for ten years, you'll have your five hundred. That's why they're known as master swordsmen. They didn't just kill once and call it a day. They kept going. And they got better."
"Sounds like a video game. The more you kill, the stronger you get—that it? Shit, I got a lot of catching up to do."
"Except their opponents weren't training dummies or little digital aliens. These were living, breathing men they slaughtered. Like cattle. Men with swords. Men fighting for their lives, same as them. If they wanted to live, they had to catch their enemy off—guard, lay traps, and sometimes run away with their tail between their legs."
Not the first image that sprang into your head when you thought of master swordsmen.
"Learning what would get you killed and how to get your enemy killed—the only way to know a thing like that is to do it. Some kid who'd been taught how to swing a sword in a dojo didn't stand a chance against a man who'd been tested in battle. They knew it, and they kept doing it. That's how they piled up hundreds of corpses. One swing at a time."
"Kiri-oboeru."
"That's right."
"So why do they bother training us at all?"
"Ah, right to the point. Brains like that, you're too smart to be a soldier."
"Whatever, Sarge."
"If you really want to fight the Mimics, you need helicopters or tanks. But helicopters cost money, and it takes money to train the pilots, too. And tanks won't do you a lick of good on this terrain— too many mountains and rivers. But Japan is crawling with people. So they wrap 'em in Jackets and ship 'em to the front lines. Lemons into lemonade."
Look what happened to the lemons.
"All that shit they drum into you in training is the bare minimum. They take a bunch of recruits who don't know their assholes from their elbows and teach 'em not to cross the street when the light's red. Look left, look right, and keep your heads down when things get hot. Most unlucky bastards forget all that when the shit starts flying and they go down pretty quick. But if you're lucky, you might live through it and maybe even learn something. Take your first taste of battle and make a lesson out of it, you might just have something you can call a soldier—" Ferrell cut himself off. "What's so funny?"
"Huh?" A smirk had crept across my face while he was talking and I didn't even notice.
"I see someone grinning like that before a battle, I start worrying about the wiring in his head."
I'd been thinking of my first battle, when Mad Wargarita tried to help me, when my mud—stained guts were burnt to cinders, when despair and fear streamed down my face. Keiji Kiriya had been one of the unlucky bastards. Twice.
The third time, when I ran, my luck hadn't been what you'd call good either. But for some reason, the world kept giving me another chance, challenging me to find a way to survive. Not by luck, but on my own.
If I could suppress the urge to run, I'd keep waking up to a full day of training followed by a day on the battlefield. And what could be better than that? Almost by default, I'd keep learning, one swing at a time. What took those swordsmen ten years, I could do in a day.
Ferrell stood and gave my backside a slap with his hand, bringing my train of thought to a screeching halt. "Not much point worrying about it now. Why don't you see about finding one of them coeds?"
"I'm fine, Sarge, I was just thinking—" Ferrell looked away. I pressed on. "If I live through tomorrow's battle, there'll be another battle after that, right? And if I live through that battle, I'll go on to the next one. If I take the skills I learn in each battle, and in between battles I practice in the simulators, my odds of surviving should keep going up. Right?"
"Well, if you want to overanalyze—"
"It can't hurt to get in the habit of training now, can it?"