The usual translation... scum of the earth. I looked at Tommy, asking
“You told him that?”
And what else? Tommy lowered his eyes, grabbed a short, knocked it back. I turned back to Stapleton, said,
“And that’s your concern, how?”
He laughed, shoved a stool with his boot, said,
“Lighten up, partner, just be grateful we’re not in Belfast.”
Then he supped noisily at his pint, looked up, asked,
“Blake, didn’t those turncoats pretend to be Protestant to save their property?”
The Catholic gentry had converted to the Protestant faith in an effort to retain their lands. It was widely believed that they continued to practice as Catholics.
The most famous story involved Sir Thomas Blake. On his deathbed, he asked for a Catholic priest and his Protestant relatives refused. When the funeral reached the graveyard, the Catholic tenants barred the Protestants from entry. Widespread violence was the inevitable result.
I was reared Catholic but of course, lurking in my history was the Blake inheritance. Going to Trinity, joining the British army seemed to prove the old adage what’s bred in the blood, breaks out in the bone.
I had no reply to that, leastways none that came without violence, so I said to Tommy,
“You ever sober up, give me a call.”
And walked out.
Could hear Stapleton’s derisory laughter behind.
I had no idea what to do about Tommy; I laid it out for Siobhan and she said,
“Do nothing.”
That’s what I did. The music shop was staring to develop. We’d brisk trade in secondhand stock. Mike, the guy I worked for, did the boring stuff, kept the books, did invoices, and I got to stock the cool guys, Cash, Strummer, Tom Russell. Was drooling over an early Tom Waits album when I heard,
“Music pays?”
Turned to face Tommy, he’d cleaned up, his clothes, anyway. Wearing a new crisp white shirt and a full-length suede jacket. He’d made the effort. Hard to clean up the eyes, so he was wearing tinted glasses. I said,
“What, you’re modelling for Gap?”
A light sheen of perspiration on his brow, the morning coke blues. He asked,
“Want to get a drink?”
Couldn’t help it, I looked at my watch and he asked,
“How tight is your timetable?”
An edge to it and I said,
“Eleven o’ clock, bit early for it.”
He looked over his shoulder, said,
“I checked with your boss, he can spare you, for like, twenty minutes, I’ll time you, how would that be?”
We’d never fenced like this before, had been through highs, lows, like any close relationship, but never hit this level of sniping, I said,
“He’s not my boss.”
Tommy shrugged.
“Whatever, you coming or not?”
Truth is, I didn’t want to go. The months he’d been away, I got used to the relative calm. Sure, my nature wanted to cut loose but not as fiercely as before. I realised how much work Tommy was. The constant veering, reeling from crisis to half-baked resolution and the mountains of dope, the killer hangovers. I’d begun to admit, what I never would have acknowledged, Tommy was a pain in the ass. I grabbed my jacket and we were out of there. Tommy gave a nod to the Galway Arms and, reading my face, said,
“They do coffee... and hey, maybe herbal tea.”
They’d just opened and we caught a corner table, large window to our left. A blast of rare sunshine illuminated us, giving an appearance of cheerfulness. I asked,
“Get you?”
“Coffee... black.”
I knew the owner and he said,
“Your shop is doing mighty.”
Irish hyberbole at its finest but what the hell, it wasn’t noon yet, I could hack it, said,
“Not too bad alright.”
This covers everything from franchising to bankruptcy. He poured the coffee, asked,
“You have any of the Clancy Brothers?”
I had no idea, said,
“Sure, I’ll put them aside for you.”
I reached for my wallet and he waved it away with,
“Ary, a drop of coffee, won’t break the bank.”
The odd moments, you meet a human being, you feel life might be liveable. Back at the table, Tommy was trying to light a cig, I emphasise trying. He’d got the thing in his mouth, had a lighter but the next link in the chain seemed to have eluded him, I snapped,
“You take off the shades, you might see what you’re doing.”
Sounded even harsher than I meant. I’d leaned on shades, getting a hefty helping of scorn on there, he said,
“Can’t.”
“What, they’re glued to your face?”
No disguising my anger now, out there like a palpable force. You watch your closest friend go down the toilet, you better be agitated. As if to show me, he raised the hand with the lighter and it shook like the stage in Riverdance. I grabbed the lighter, feeling his hand slick with sweat, said,
“Gimme the bloody thing.”
Fired him up. He took a massive hit of nicotine and I was thinking of Ginsberg’s “Howl”... “I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness.”
Wanted to howl myself, Tommy said,
“I’m sorry, bro.”
“Hey, no big thing.”
But it was.
He stood and I thought he was going to bolt, God forgive me, I’d have been relieved and I certainly wouldn’t have followed, he said,
“Gotta pee.”
He was gone, like ten minutes. My cup was empty, his coffee had died, got that shiny top like a rancid pool. I was on the verge of going for him when he returned. First thing I noticed, the shades were off and his eyes were... not alive but electrified. And he was Mr. Affability, slid into his seat, said,
“That’s better, you know me Steve, mornings are not my strong point, takes me a time to catch up with you guys.”
This said in a rush, the words nearly colliding, tumbling out of his mouth like pistons. Then I saw the traces of white powder on his left nostril. What to do, let it slide, act like this was hunky dory. Did I? Did I fuck. Reached over, used my thumb to wipe it, said,
“Missed a bit, want to snort it?”
He lifted his cup, drank the cold brew, no shake visible, said,
“You didn’t used to be so tight assed.”
“You didn’t used to be so seriously fucked.”
Silence then as the pieces of our friendship danced and dipped, trying to move us from a veritable split. I asked,
“What’s with this Stapleton?”
Tommy shifted his position to escape the sunlight, said,
“He doesn’t like you.”
“Gee, that’s worrying.”
“I’m serious, Steve, he really doesn’t like you.”
“Hey, I heard you, alright?”
I looked at my watch, becoming addicted to the gesture, Tommy went,
“I owe him big.”
“Pay him off, just get rid of him.”
Shaking his head,
“It’s not simply money.” He took a deep breath, then,
“We’re going to take down a bank.”
“What, are you nuts, in Galway? They have the army doing security and hey, hello, those guys are seriously armed.”
As if he didn’t hear, he said,
“We always have a third guy but he’s... am... indisposed.”
I let it sink in, waited for more and when it wasn’t coming, said,
“Oh no, you’ve got to be kidding, you think I’d get involved?”
His head was down and in a low voice, he said,
“I said you’d help.”
“You stupid bastard. Go tell them you were mistaken.”
Now he leaned across the table, grabbed my arm, pleaded,