“Wait,” said the figure again.
“And what would you have done?” demanded Kells.
“How the hell should I know?” I said. “I’ve been too busy dodging White Sashes and assassins and Nicco’s people to have time to consider tactics. Besides, I’m just a Nose-all I’m supposed to do, apparently, is listen to whispers and report. Angels forbid I get a clear idea of-”
“Wait!” The word exploded out of the depths of the cowl as if it were echoing up from a cave. Kells and I both stopped and looked at the cloaked man. He pointed at me. “You mentioned ‘that damn journal,’ ” he said, his voice back to its normal coffee-dark tones.
“So?”
“Who told you it was a journal?”
Shit. “What?”
“No one’s ever called it anything but a book, but you just said ‘journal.’ ”
I stared at him.
“You have it, don’t you?” he said.
I looked at Kells. He was watching me carefully, waiting, his eyes narrowed. At my look, his head gave a shake so subtle, I almost missed it from a foot away.
I looked back to the cloaked figure.
“I don’t have it,” I said, “but I think I know where it is.”
“I’m sure you do,” said the dark figure. “Now go and get it.”
“Why?” I said.
“What?”
“Why is it so important to you?” I said. “Why should I make sure you get it instead of someone else?”
The dark cowl regarded me for a long moment. “I don’t explain myself to minions.”
Minions?
“Screw this,” I growled.
Before Kells could react, I was past him, my left hand scooping up one of the lighted wine goblets. I slipped over the corner of the desk and deposited myself in front of the walking cloak.
“Enough games,” I said as I reached up and grabbed his cowl, shoving the candle forward and pulling back on the hood at the same time. “If you think-Angels!”
The cowl didn’t move. Even though the edges of the hood crumpled and shifted in my hand like regular cloth, the cowl itself refused to shift back from his face. It was like trying to push over a brick wall wrapped in wool.
Worse, though, was the darkness inside the cowclass="underline" it didn’t shrink from the light. Instead, a veil of gray-black shadows confronted me, shifting and rolling as if it had a depth greater than the hood that held it. I thought I caught a brief hint of chin here, a wisp of nose there, but I couldn’t be sure. Somehow I knew that, even without the candle, my night vision would be useless-there was no piercing this darkness.
My stomach went cold and small.
The man in the cloak didn’t move, didn’t react at all. He simply whispered something, a word too low for me to hear. Then I was flying across the room, my ears ringing from the power he’d spoken. I hit the far wall, bounced off it, and met the floor face-first. I stayed where I landed.
I heard a voice, felt hands on me when I didn’t answer. I wanted to respond but just… didn’t have the focus. Blinking was an effort at the moment.
I was put in a chair. I felt water on my face. That helped. Blinking became easier-then moving.
Then the pain came. I began to groan, caught myself, and gritted my teeth instead. Like hell I’d give him the satisfaction.
I lifted my head. Kells was prowling before the desk, anger and concern mixing freely on his face. Behind him, now seated in the big chair, was the cloaked man.
“Explanation enough?” said the latter.
There was only one explanation-for the cloak, for the darkness, for the glimmer, for Kells’s reactions-and I didn’t like it.
I’d known there was a Gray Prince involved; I simply hadn’t considered that everything that pointed at one could just as easily point toward two. They did tend to keep track of one another, after all. And there was only one Prince this one could be. Hell, he’d been wearing his identity like a badge, and I’d been too dense to notice.
“Shadow,” I croaked. “You’re fucking Shadow.”
The Gray Prince’s cowl dipped in acknowledgment. “Just so.”
Chapter Twenty-two
A Gray Prince-the Gray Prince, by some accounts. Nastiest of the nasty. Talking to me. Crap.
And the other Gray Prince-along with Iron Degan-was on the other side of the war, with Nicco. Which put all of us lesser Kin in the middle between them.
Double crap.
“All right,” I said softly, “I’m impressed.” I hoped Shadow took the tremor in my voice as a sign of fatigue, but I wasn’t counting on it. “But you still haven’t answered my question: Why do you want the journal?”
Kells stopped his pacing before his desk, but I didn’t look at him. I was focused on the shifting darkness inside Shadow’s hood.
“You owe me an answer,” I said, leaning forward in my chair.
“I owe you?” said Shadow.
“The way I see it,” I said, “I’ve been dancing to your tune since the beginning of this whole mess. Tracking Larrios, fighting Sashes, getting the journal-it’s all been for you, hasn’t it?”
The cowl dipped once.
“And Fedim-that was you, too, wasn’t it?” I said. “You’re the one who gutted him in his shop and got me in trouble with Nicco in the first place.”
Another dip of the cowl.
“So yes, I think I’ve earned something,” I said. “I don’t like being used, even if it is by one of you.”
“You talk as if you haven’t gotten anything out of it,” said Shadow.
I laughed bitterly. “You mean besides beatings, blood, and seven years’ worth of work in Nicco’s camp down the sewers?”
“I mean a dead assassin floating in your bedroom.”
That caught me up short. Shadow had been watching over me? I glanced over at Kells but got no help. He looked as surprised as I was.
“Task was out of your league,” said Shadow. “Just as the next Blade would have been. And the one after that, if you somehow managed to live that long. I simply took the liberty of sending a message on your behalf.”
“On my behalf, or yours?” I said.
“Does it matter?”
“It matters if it made things worse,” I said. “It matters if people think I have the resources to find and float Task on my own. What the hell am I supposed to do when they send someone even better after me and you aren’t around? Angels! Couldn’t you just leave her with her throat slit in an alley and send a fucking note?”
“Has anyone put a Blade on you since?”
“That’s not the point!”
“That’s precisely the point!” said Shadow. “My removing the Blade sent a message: You have backing. My backing. And no one has tried for you since. So, say thank you and tell me where you hid the journal.”
“I’m not yours,” I said, “backing or not. So like I said-why do you want it?”
Shadow’s hand formed itself into a fist. “You aren’t as indispensable as you think, little Nose.”
“Yes, he is,” said Kells. I looked over to find his arms crossed and a hard expression on his face. “Drothe is my man, not yours, and I’ll decide if he’s dispensable. You and I may have a deal, Shadow, but it doesn’t mean you can use my people however you please. You said yourself you’re playing catch-up with Solitude in Ten Ways-you’re the one who needs my organization. If you want something done, you go through me, or it doesn’t happen. The same goes for my people-you ask me. Understood?”
I bit my tongue, not because I wanted to kiss Kells for what he was doing-I did-but because he had just told me who the other Gray Prince was-the one who had Iron Degan in her pocket and had strolled through my dreams to warn me about the journal. Now I had a name to put to the face and the voice: Solitude.
For his part, Shadow sat silent for a long moment. Then he dipped his cowl ever so slightly. “Of course,” he said. “My apologies if I overstepped.”
“Tell Drothe what he wants to know.”
“Very well,” said Shadow, turning to face me. “You want to know why I want Ioclaudia Neph’s book? Because Solitude wants it. Because she’s wanted it for a while. And because if she considers it to be that important, I expect I’m better off with it in my hands than in hers.