I'd let myself be seduced by Ryan even when Ben and I were officially “together”. Yes, I'd stopped him from having sex with me. But well before that fateful Halloween night, I'd let him kiss me and feel me up on more than one occasion. It was something I could have stopped... should have stopped ... well before it got out of hand.
And then when Ben finally declared himself ready for me, declared himself over Adrienne, over Paige, over Cadence, and all the rest of his temptations, I'd been the one to get cold feet and drag things out. I was sure he wasn't ready yet, and a little unsure whether I was ready.
I knew Ben used to see me as the perfect girl, an angel descended from the heavens made especially for him. Maybe he still thought so. But I wasn't perfect, and had never been perfect. But for him ... for my Ben ... I would try.
Ben, bless his heart, had actually managed to go without sex for more than four weeks. He really, REALLY loved me; and it showed. He was truly ready for me, and while I was still unsure, I had to make it work. I would show him I could be the girlfriend he always wanted me to be. I didn't know how I'd get there yet; but I KNEW I couldn't lose him again.
I would NEVER lose him again.
Because here we were, together again. And now that I finally had him back, I could FEEL it. In my heart, that piece of me that had gone with him was back, filling the void I'd had inside me since I was ten years old. In my body, the great void in my pussy where Ben — MY Ben — belonged, was live and real and throbbing deep inside. Ben completed me. ‘You complete me, ‘ I told him with my eyes.
Through everything I'd experienced in my twenty years on this planet, Ben had been my destiny. It wasn't just because my parents thought it would be cool. It wasn't because both sides wanted mutual grandkids. It was because of who we'd been together for our entire lives. He was my playmate, joined at my hip until we were ten. Even when we separated, he still became my first and only true love. Even though we were both dating other people, he'd been my best friend here in Berkeley. I hadn't lost my dream. I'd forgotten it for a short time, but the dream was real and coming true. We'd found each other again. Now that I had him back, I was never going to lose him again.
It was two years later than we'd first planned, but Ben and I were finally together again. And this time, we would last forever.
“Cum for me,” I crooned, staring deeply into my Ben's big brown eyes. “Cum for me.”
Immediately, his neck muscles tightened and his jaw clenched with exertion. Some girls would say that a man is ugliest right when he's about to cum. Me, I rather like the way Ben looks right before his orgasm. I can see him losing control. I can see the pleasure overwhelming his senses. And I know it's because of me.
His hips surged, his pelvis ramming against my body so hard that I was jerked back a couple of inches up the mattress. A low groan tore uncontrollably from his throat. And a second later, I felt the warm jets of his liquid love splashing against my insides.
That was all it took for me. The orgasm exploded inside me from everywhere. I felt it in my vagina, where his meaty cock stretched my walls ever so slightly as it expanded with ejaculation. I felt it in my clitoris, where his pelvic bone was rubbing me so perfectly. And I felt it in my head, a mental high of knowing my Ben, my true love, my soulmate, was cumming deep inside me.
Eons later, we were both finished and gasping for breath. Ben leaned down and tenderly kissed me. And after pulling back, a broad smile crossed his face as he twisted our hands around, bringing my right wrist up to his lips.
Then, he kissed the silver bracelet that I'd been wearing ever since the night we got back together. It summed up my feelings perfectly:
Ben Forever.
BEN
“Hurry uuuup!” Eden whined from her spot in the van.
“Yeah!” Emma chimed in, now sitting in one of the middle bucket seats. “We're ready!”
“Shut up!” Brooke screeched.
I just rolled my eyes. Even though the twins were fourteen now and Brooke was almost in college, my little sisters could still be annoying brats when they wanted to be.
Brooke turned to hug DJ. “See you at camp?”
“Can't wait,” DJ grinned, hugging her best friend firmly and patting her back.
When they released, Brooke sank back down on her heels and came over to me. “So, big brother. Think you can survive a couple more months without me?”
“I've managed so far, haven't I?” I arched an eyebrow. “Maybe I should be worrying for my health AFTER you and DJ get to Cal.”
“Drink plenty of fluids, big boy.” DJ meandered over with a sultry look and patted my chest before returning to stand with her parents.
Brooke just grinned and then got back up on her tiptoes to hug me. And in a more serious voice, she whimpered, “I've missed you. Feels like I barely saw you this weekend after so much time apart.”
“Don't worry,” I told her. “This last summer will fly by so fast you'll be moving into the Berkeley house before you know it.”
Brooke pecked me quickly on the cheek. I patted her back and then gently let her back down. She flashed me a little smile and then turned to hop into the van as well.
“Safe trip, Beth,” Deanna Evans hugged my mom.
“Drive safe, Michael,” Jack Evans shook my dad's hand.
Our parents stopped to hug me one last time before climbing into the van as well. And then the Evanses and I waved goodbye while the van backed out of the driveway and then turned down the street.
Mrs. Evans sighed and then looked over at me, Dawn, and DJ, frowning. “You'd have thought Dayna and Brandi could have spent ONE night at home.”
I chuckled and Dawn shook her head. “They're adults now, college graduates. Can you blame them for wanting to really be on their own in their new apartment?”
Mrs. Evans sighed. “Promise me you'll check in on them and report back to me,” she told Dawn.
My beautiful girlfriend giggled and rolled her eyes. “Sure. Well, at least Ben's going to have to go over. The girls are already drawing up a list of things they want him to fix, upgrade, or tweak.”
“I suppose,” Mrs. Evans conceded. “And Adrienne's settled in with Felicia?”
“Yep,” Dawn nodded.
“I still can't believe you guys became friends with Felicia Clarkson.” Mrs. Evans smiled.
“I still can't believe Adrienne gave you her CAR.” Dawn elbowed me in the ribs.
I shrugged. “Well, I DID drive the Mustang more than she did. And it's not like she really needs it in the city.”
“Not like she can't afford another one...” DJ mumbled. “Or a Lamborghini...”
Dawn just giggled and hugged me. I thought of that last time I'd seen Adrienne. It wasn't like I wouldn't be seeing her again soon. But having her living with Felicia and no longer with me felt like we were still going through a great separation. I probably would have taken things a lot worse if Adrienne hadn't picked up her right hand and shown me that she was wearing a thin gold band around her fourth finger, topped with a small diamond amidst a gold leaf flower. She was wearing my promise ring.
“Where did you... ?” I had gasped in surprise.
“It's not the ‘Tiger's Pet' collar,” Adrienne blushed. “But I think it's a little more appropriate for public wear.”
“How did you find it?” I'd stashed it in a corner somewhere, locking the ring away after our breakup and forgetting where I'd put it myself.
“Silly Ben. I know everything, remember?” Adrienne had giggled before pulling me to her for a parting nuclear kiss.