This time, I did collapse.
This time, my brain just shut down, and I let the bliss carry me away.
Sometime later, I blinked my eyes while I slowly focused on the trees above me. I know I didn’t pass out, but my mind had gone elsewhere for a little while. The girls were talking above me.
“I’m not sure if I should be jealous,” Adrienne was saying. “He didn’t react like that when I kissed him.”
“It wasn’t so much of a shock,” Dawn replied. “He does that every now and again when stuff happens he’s completely unprepared for. It’s just been such a long time since I kissed him that it takes his brain a minute to get unscrambled. See, he’s coming around.”
I sat up and Adrienne smiled at me. “You suitably stunned yet?”
“What’s going on?” I croaked.
My girlfriend grinned and arched her eyebrow at me. “What, are you complaining with the direction things are turning?”
“No, no. Not at all.”
Dawn looked at me with an oddly mischievous look in her eye. Then she turned to face Adrienne and smiled wickedly. “I don’t think he’s quite where we need him to be yet.” Then she crooked a finger at my girlfriend and curled it in a ‘come-hither’ gesture.
Adrienne giggled and leaned forward, then the two stunningly gorgeous blonde teenagers came together face-to-face, mashing their lips against one another and starting to french kiss madly with plenty of tongue.
This wasn’t happening. This was such a 180-degree twist from everything that had come before that this wasn’t possible. It couldn’t be real. I was dreaming. I was fantasizing. This wasn’t happening.
And this time, my eyes rolled up in my head and I DID pass out.
When I came to, the girls were sitting side-by-side, chatting unintelligibly. My brain was not yet fully active and while I could hear their giggling voices, I couldn’t quite process what they were saying.
My eyes flickered open and I inhaled sharply, filling my lungs. And the girls stopped talking before moving over me until I saw both their faces looking at me sideways from above.
“Morning, sunshine,” Dawn grinned.
“How ya feeling, Tiger?” Adrienne added.
“What is going on?” I whimpered pitifully from flat on my back.
The girls both grabbed my shoulders and hoisted me up to a sitting position. Dawn then planted her face before me, searching into my eyes. Then she sat back and nodded. “He’s ready now.”
If Dawn wanted my mind to be a complete blank, where anything was possible, then she was right. I was so confused and dazed she could probably convince me the sky was purple with orange polka dots.
Adrienne leaned in to check my eyes and then nodded as well. “Okay. It’s your show. Go ahead,” she told Dawn.
My best friend smiled and reached out, grabbing one of my hands with both of hers. She took a deep breath and then began. “I followed you last night, Ben. To Felicia’s cabin.”
I inhaled sharply and flung my gaze to Adrienne, who regarded me coolly. You could now add panicked to the list of states my mind was cycling through, and if it weren’t for her nuclear kiss just minutes ago, I might have broken down crying and apologizing profusely. But she HAD kissed me, and buoyed by that knowledge I waited patiently to see where this went.
“I heard everything, Ben. And while in the end you didn’t do anything and you turned her down, Felicia was right about one thing.”
My lower lip quivered before I asked, “What?”
“You HAVE had plenty of chances to shut her down. You don’t have to flirt with her. You don’t have to lead her on. I’ve seen other girls at camp flirting with you without things every getting even close to that point, which indicates a couple of things.”
Adrienne jumped in. “One, you DO want to nail her, which isn’t so surprising. I’m still glad you didn’t though, Tiger.”
Dawn sighed. “But two, we’re losing you.” Her voice was one of infinite sadness, echoing that hole in our hearts that I knew both Dawn and I felt inside. It resonated within me and as if we were cosmically linked, I felt the same sadness I saw on Dawn’s face.
“If you’d slept with her, Ben, I’d have lost you,” Adrienne said quietly, adding her own anguish. “We made a deal, not fidelity, but honesty, remember? I didn’t even realize how close it was. I was only worried about Dawn and her seducing you away from me that I never stopped and realized just how frayed our relationship was getting. Even though I didn’t want you to be depressed, I didn’t realize that your depression from being apart from Dawn could make me lose you just as much as you ending up with her. And while I knew Felicia wanted you, I didn’t realize how much you were holding onto her as just… something happier than what the two of us were giving you. She’s not the problem. She’s just an indicator of how fucked up things have gotten that you’d even think of banging her behind my back.”
“I never would have slept with her,” I said firmly, looking Adrienne in the eyes.
“I know that’s what you told her, Ben,” Dawn said softly. “That’s what you told her verbally like three times. But things were closer than you think. You were very vulnerable, Ben. If she’d pushed just a little harder… hell, if she’d just gotten her mouth on your dick, you would have gone through with it.”
“Dawn, I—”
“It’s okay, it’s okay,” Dawn shook her head. “In the end, nothing happened. But it made me realize how stupid I’ve been shutting you out. I was so consumed with jealousy over Adrienne and my own personal torture that I didn’t realize how I was making the situation so much worse. My hatred of your relationship kept me from talking to either of you. My stubborn unwillingness to find a way to be your friend in some different way kept us apart. It’s my own fault things are the way they are and the reason all three of us are unhappy.”
“Dawn, we talked about this,” Adrienne put in. “It’s not all your fault. I’m the stubborn one. I wouldn’t give you an inch of opening into Ben. I could have trusted him and let you go on that hike in the beginning. I could have encouraged him to interact with you, or at least not have scared him into thinking I’d get pissed if he so much as looked at you.”
“It’s my fault,” I sighed. “I’m the one in the middle and it’s my job to show you both how important you are to me and that you’re not threats to each other.”
“We know that, Ben,” Adrienne nodded. “We know that now.”
“You do?” I was surprised.
“After Felicia’s,” Dawn took over. “I went to find Adrienne and we talked. We talked a lot. And we put all our cards on the table. I want my best friend back. I want the man I can share every single secret of my life with. I want the man I trust above all others in the world.” Then her voice turned husky. “And I want to make love to you, Ben. I want to feel you throbbing inside me while you crush my tits with your chest. I want to look into your eyes as you cum deep inside me, reminding me with every spurt how much you love me.”
My jaw dropped and I looked at Adrienne, who just smiled. Then Adrienne stated, “And I want my lover, my master, my friend. I want to put myself in your hands and know that you’ll always be there for me, ready to catch me if I fall. I want the support of you and your family, holding me and enveloping me in the love I never had. And I want the man I’ve come to depend on, for strength and protection and love.” Then it was her turn to husk, “And I want you to hold me down and fuck me until I see stars. I want you to tie me up and use me as you will, spunking in my ass and then making me lick you clean. Because in the end, you’ll have reminded me that even when I was completely at your mercy, it was only mercy and love that you really gave me.”