After so many false starts, now at last I had found my place. I would be with Gar, the one man in all the world whose company I could tolerate, the two of us moving endlessly across empty landscapes where no human had ever been before, away from society, away from humankind, out where only nature could rasp my naked nerve-endings, and against nature in perfect safety I could howl my rage away.
The day I got out of prison, the message came from the Union Commission: Gar had been killed. He was dead.
Killed? By what? By whom?
I went to the UC embassy, and there I first heard something of the unique nature of Anarchaos. "It was the colony killed your brother," a UC man told me; a statement I was to hear often.
But I wanted more. I read tape after tape at the library, soon exhausting all that had been written about that filthy little planet, and then I read the sources of its social structure—Bakunin and the rest. And Rohstock, in his Voyages to Seven Planets:
"Life on Anarchaos Is Itself sufficient punishment for any crimes its citizens may perform; there is, therefore, no other."
I was not satisfied. No one could tell me anything, no one
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could do anything. The identity of Gar's killer, his motive, even his method; I couldn't get a single fact. But I had my passport, and my traveling expenses had already been paid, and there was nothing to keep me on Earth, so I armed myself with an arsenal which was taken from me at Valhalla, and I went to Anarchaos.
When they took my weapons away at Valhalla, I knew I would have to kill. I required weapons on Anarchaos, for purposes both of protection and persuasion, and I knew from my reading that the only way to get weapons on Anarchaos was to take them from someone else. The realization that I would be forced to kill at least one Anarchaotian did not bother me in the slightest, possibly because of my previous experience at the task but more probably because of the oft-repeated theory that, "The colony killed your brother." *
Not that I was prepared to admit the theory as fact. Whatever guilt others might share—the colony, the founders, the UC, die corporations—finally it must come down to the one, or two, or three, who had in fact comitted the one specific murder of Gar Malone.
Ultimately, I myself wasn't sure what I planned to do. Learn, to begin with, and once I knew I could decide. Deep inside me the fury coiled like a snake, like a mainspring, but I kept it in control. Mindless rage would get me nothing. I had to be cold, mind rather than emotion; I had to be a machine gathering data.
When the data was gathered, it itself would tell me what to do. What to do with the man who had killed Gar. Or, if it turned out that those were right who said the colony was his killer, I would again know what to do—then, not now. For now I knew only that I had questions to ask.
And the first man of whom I would ask them was Colonel Holbed Whistler, the Wolmak Corporation's manager at Anarchaos, the man who had been Gar's final employer.
this way, mr. malone."
I had stepped from the elevator into a wide, shallow, featureless, low-ceilinged tan room in which blank closed brown doors were spaced at regular intervals in every wall. The
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voice—feminine—had come from my right, where I saw a tall and slender blonde woman holding a door open and smiling an invitation to me to enter.
I had been frisked a second time by tihe inside guards before being put into the elevator, so I now spread my arms out and said, "Don't you want to search me for weapons?"
She laughed gently, a musical political sound, and said, "No, I don't think so. They're very thorough downstairs."
"So they are."
I walked toward her, and she stepped aside to let me precede her through the doorway into a pale green corridor which curved away to the right. There were no windows here, nor in the tan room before it, so that nothing—the room, the corridor, the blonde woman—was tinged with that unhealthy red light. The indirect lighting here was colorless; I could have been back home on Earth.
The corridor was wide enough for us to walk abreast, so I waited for her to close the door and join me, noticing that she had a kind of beauty I hadn't expected to find on Anar-chaos, a smooth bland impersonal beauty that bespoke plastic surgery, social position or at least pretension, a background on Earth or on one of the oldest of civilized planets.
Her clothing encouraged the impression. The saying is that even the most advanced worlds are a year to three behind Earth fashions, and the outer worlds and more recent colonies are as much as a generation behind Earth styles of apparel, but the dress this woman wore would have been perfectly in style on the Earth I'd left five days ago. It was tailored to her body, emphasizing, as it was meant to, her best features, blending with her face, her hair style, her jewelry in a way that could be achieved nowhere other than Earth.
She turned, saw the attention I was giving her, and smiled
companionably. "You like me?" \
"Very much. I hadn't expected anyone as beautiful as you."
She was pleased, and honest enough to show it, saying, "Ah, you're as gallant as your brother."
"You knew Gar?"
"I thought of him as one of my dearest friends." The plastic face expressed regret. "It was terrible, what happened."
"What did happen?"
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She became brisk. "Oh, the Colonel is the one to talk to. Come along, he's waiting for you."
We started together along the corridor, which continued to curve to the right and which appeared to be spiraling upward. I wasn't entirely sure whether we were going up a slight slope or that was merely the four per cent additional gravity I was feeling. I asked, and she said, "Oh, yes, we're going up. The elevator can't go any higher; the tower's too narrow for the housing up here. It's only a little distance."
I said, "What's your job here?"
"My job?" She seemed amused, I suppose at the bluntness of the question. "I'm sorry, I should have introduced myself. Jenna Guild, the Colonel's personal secretary."
"Rolf Malone," I said.
"Yes, I know."
I said, "Did you know Gar while he was here? Or from before?"
"Here. This is where I met him. At the elevator, in fact, where I just met you."
"How long have you been here?"
"Four years. Why?"
"I'm surprised at that dress."
Surprise made her laugh with a sound like a tinkling of small bells, much more pleasant than the political music of that first laugh I'd heard from her. "There are ways," she told me. "Ways to do anything. If you're connected with someone like the Colonel."
The spiraling corridor ended at last in closed double doors, against which Jenna Guild rapped just once. After the slightest of pauses, the doors slid apart into recesses in the walls, and we stepped through into a great luxurious room, all stuffed and carpeted, with furs everywhere and soft divans, different areas of the room at different levels; the whole was dominated by an incredibly broad curving window stretching around a full third of the wall space, through which could be seen a breathtaking view of the city, and of Hell at two o'clock in the sky.