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“Yeah.”

“Okay then. We’ll go when it’s safe, I promise.”

“Wyoming, right? Are the big and little bears there?”

“What?”

“Bears,” said Lacie. “You know, like in cartoons, or in the movies.”

“Yes, more like in the movies,” Sophie agreed. “There certainly are. But I’ll protect you. Mostly they stay in the back country, I think.”

“Oh. Mommy?”

“Yes?”

“What is the world like?”

Sophie did not know how to answer this. She hugged her daughter closer, kissed her hair. But she could not yet speak. When she opened her mouth and was almost ready to try, to say something simple and profound, Lacie turned in her arms. Mother and daughter stared at one another, noses almost touching. Lacie frowned and nuzzled Sophie’s free and bandaged hand.

“I miss Silas already,” said Lacie.  “I felt him, knew him, it was like he was amazing. I could tell, mommy, he loved you.”

And that was when Sophie began to cry.

Lacie brushed the tears away with her fingertips, drawing them off and drying them in her own hair. It was the most adult, almost ancient, gesture that Sophie had ever seen in a seven-year-old child.

“You loved him, too,” said Lacie, dropping her eyes from Sophie’s to study the tears, the proof that her mother was truly there. “Didn’t you? Like grandmamma.”

“Yes, Lacie,” said Sophie, her voice on the verge of breaking open. She took in a deep breath. “I loved Silas so very much, just like grandmamma.”

“I miss daddy so much,” Lacie whispered. There were no tears. Her face took on a serene cast as she pulled away, tilting her head, considering Sophie lying there. To Sophie, her daughter appeared to be trying on some big spirit-thing she’d inherited and didn’t know quite what to do with, like she was trying on adulthood to see what it might feel like. Then young-ancient-timeless Lacie smiled, Tom’s lopsided and mischievous smile, and ruffled her mother’s hair. “I’ll protect you, too,” she said, matter-of-factly. “And mommy?”

“Yes?”

Lacie beamed. “Will you get me a glass of water?”

Sophie kissed her daughter upon the cheek, catching mostly blonde ringlets as she rose. She brought back a bottle of water, of course, not a glass. The cistern water was somewhat gray, with little flecks floating down inside it. But that didn’t matter. Nothing else mattered but those eyes, that mouth, that unbreakable radiant spirit in gaze and smile. Oh, Tom. If only you could see her now, she is a wonder. “Here you go.”

A sip, a pout. A one-handed hug of practiced ease, the sensation of girl fingers on mother’s neck and cheek. A kiss, that endless joy which Sophie had believed she would never feel again. “Don’t cry, mommy.”

“I can’t stop,” whispered Sophie. “I’m so happy.”

VI-9

Canticle of the Matriarch

(Sophie closed her diary in elder years with this cryptic, unknowable yet poignant poem addressed to Lacie.)

Daughter mine, live strong And be one with fearless understanding. Step into the light As a woman, as an aging child. Lead your people into the sun And rescind your voice of tears.
Suffer not unnecessary mercy, And yet be ready With my heart in you to meet Those who look on high to you in reverence With kindness and not the blade.
Do not kill, my love, unless You must slay to save a life. Do not leave sanctuary to dominate Those blinded ones beneath you, but only To bring more lost souls into your fold, And into purity.
Gather. Teach. Rebuild. Harvest. Reap. Nurture, mentor, dare the valor of difficult peace.
Reach out your hand to those who still believe, Forgive our bitter yesterdays Of all their foolish rinds And dreams of treason.
When you understand these words, Pass them on to your beloved And to his enemy.
And so, although I pray You will never need to read this, I write this all for only you, My love forever, my little one, my Lacie
From the unending nightmare, From the fire. Give me shelter That I might endure the storm, Give me the strength To pray my daughter will prevail.

VI-10

The Chronicle of the Storm Years

(Although inscribed well over a century after the passing of Sophia Ingrid St.-Germain, the reader may find the following words which were etched upon the inner metal “cover” plate of the preserved diary materials — a chronicle cut directly into the metal by some varying series of sharp implements — to be of considerable interest. It appears that the line of Shoshone Geyser Clan matriarchs continued unbroken, almost to within a century of the present day. What transpired to sweep the Clan from history in the 2200s is still unknown to us at this time, and this is one of the key mysteries which has caused me to break for the only time in my life with the sacred Covenant and to urge the UTAS Loremasters to bless, to purify and to aid the next year’s oversea expedition to U.S. Province 44, “Wyoming.”)

(I, for one, prefer to believe that the Shoshone people spread far across the Americas during the Age of Resurgence in exodus over the endless grasses, harvesting the power of the wind, relearning the secrets of earthly energy as a direct result of their geyser religion; and, I pray, that they forsook the black lore of the Weapons of White Fire forevermore. I realize that this theory has by many been branded as a heresy to our people, due to its obvious conflicts with the Orthodox Chronicle, and the resultant questions which must assail the Lore-Mastery Bloodline as portrayed in our own holy histories. Nevertheless, the preliminary evidence of the Yellowstone matriarchy recovered from Shoshone dig site 84 is compelling.)

(There must be so much more to learn, and I pray that I may offer my own life to the further discovery of this serendipity, in revelation. For I know now who I am. ~A. S.-G. C.)

~

The inscription upon the mantle of the Shoshone holy book is as follows:

STORM YEARS AND ON
WIND IN CHRONICLE
These are the wise women, Let the echoes of their lessons Guide us into the sun Upon the Second Wind, Let their spirits ever be known To the echoes yet to be born From our own children, The unsung voices yet to soar:
~

(I) For seven years: Sophie of the High Shelter, daughter of Annabel, who by her own courage and the power of the One came to us from the fire, and the ashes. She who created the Wind Echo of the Second Shelter, our home.

~

(II) For nine years: Gracie Mae of the Houston, daughter of Lakesha, whose eyes were kind and whose hands were filled with healing.

~

(III) For one and fifty years: Lacie, daughter of Sophie of the Poisoned Hands, who shared with us the last revelations of the Lost World of the light machines, who by brave heart and silver tongue allowed us to make peace and to befriend the Jackson Lake Clan, our warriors.