"Fool woman. Very well, Giles." She surveyed him thoughtfully. "Do you think you can manage to call me Desdemona with a straight face?"
"Probably not." His eyes gleamed with humor. "When you came blazing into Wolverhampton, it occurred to me that Othello may have had a point when he strangled his Desdemona. The thought has returned once or twice since then."
"That is a ridiculous and unworthy comment." She tried to look severe but found herself succumbing to undignified hilarity. What a silly chit Dianthe must have been, to find Giles boring.
'True," he agreed cheerfully. "Is that why you're giggling?"
"I am a widow of mature years and serious pursuits," she stated. "I do not giggle." Then she hid her face against his shoulder in a vain attempt to muffle the sounds of her lie.
Chapter 22
Robin was right about the number of humorous stories he knew. By the time they were ready to retire, Maxie had laughed so much that she could scarcely remember the black anxiety she had felt when trying to look toward the future. Arm in arm, they climbed the stairs, Robin carrying a candle and Maxie holding up her red velvet skirts so she wouldn't trip and break her neck.
He accompanied her into her room and lit the bedside candle, then turned to go to the adjoining chamber. The candlelight cast strong shadows across his face, illuminating the chiseled planes. In his flowing blue velvet robe, he looked like a medieval lord who had stepped out of the past. He was the most desirable man she had ever seen, and she wanted to untie his sash and bare his beautiful body and pull him onto the bed.
Without conscious thought, she placed her open hand on the triangle of skin exposed by the loose folds of his robe. His heartbeat accelerated beneath her palm as raw sexual tension" pulsed between them.
Mouth dry, she asked, "Whose turn is it to be sensibler?"
"Mine, I think." He touched her hair, letting the shining strands spill over his wrists. Then he lifted her hand and kissed her fingers before releasing them. "Remember, I'm just next door. If you have a nightmare, call and I'll be right here."
"I know." Forcibly repressing the impulse to risk a goodnight kiss, she stepped back and began braiding her hair for bed. "Pleasant dreams."
After he closed the connecting door, she removed her robe and slid between the fresh sheets. Yet despite the comfort of the bed, sleep eluded her. The reason had nothing to do with her disturbing sense of a dark future. It was simply that the fourposter was too wide, too cold, too empty.
She rolled onto her stomach and pummeled the pillow irritably, using the excuse of making it more comfortable. Though it might be wise to avoid greater intimacy with Robin, wisdom made a poor companion for the night. The very difficulty of being without him reinforced the knowledge that she was following the right course. Damn, damn, damn.
An hour of tossing and turning brought her no closer to sleep. Scowling, she sat up and pondered. Perhaps if she opened the connecting door between the bedchambers, she would feel closer to Robin. Less alone.
She slipped off the high bed and padded over to the door, shivering a little in her light muslin shift. It was raining again, and the air had a raw chill that reminded her of a New England November. Quietly she opened the door and listened, hoping to hear the comforting sound of Robin's breathing over the steady drum of rain on the windowpanes.
She heard him, but the sound was not comforting. His breathing was choked and shallow, like that first night when they had slept on bracken pallets on a north country moor. He had claimed a nightmare then, but he had had none since.
The bed creaked as his weight shifted. Then he began to talk in a language that was not English, his flexible tenor laced with anguish. She frowned and entered his room. He was speaking a German dialect. Though she did not speak the language, she recognized the words das Blut and der Mord. Blood and murder.
With a harshness that would have woken her even through a closed door, he suddenly cried, "Nein!
Nein!" and lashed out frantically at some unseen threat.
Alarmed, she scrambled onto the wide bed and laid a hand on his shoulder to wake him from the nightmare.
He exploded under her touch, rolling over with blinding speed. Before she could even speak his name, he seized her shoulders and forced her down into the mattress. His torso was bare and damp with perspiration and his breath came in wrenching gasps as he sprawled full length on top of her, his forearm pressed across her throat so hard that she could scarcely breathe.
She was terrifyingly aware of the trained strength in his taut body. If she struggled, he might throttle her or break her neck. Trying to lie absolutely still, she drew as much air as she could through her constricted throat, then said sharply, "Robin, wake up! You're dreaming."
For a dreadful moment the pressure on her throat increased, cutting off further speech. Then her words penetrated through his nightmare. Blindly he whispered, "Maxie"
She managed to say, "Yes, Robin, it's me."
He flung violently away from her to lie on his back, his fair skin ghostpale in the darkness. "Christ, I'm sorry," he said hoarsely. "Are you all right?"
Gratefully she drew a deep breath into her lungs. "No damage done." She sat up and leaned toward the night table to light a candle, then turned back to Robin.
To her horror, she saw that he was shaking so hard that the mattress vibrated. She wrapped her arms around him in an instinctive gesture of comfort.
He responded with a desperation that threatened to bruise her ribs. She drew his head against her breasts as if he were a child. Thinking he might have fallen victim to malaria on his travels, she asked, "Are you having an attack of fever?"
"No." His voice trembled with the effort of trying to sound composed. "It was only a nightmare."
She stroked his head. "There is no such thing as 'only a nightmare.' The Iroquois understand that and say that dreams and nightmares come from the soul. What was disturbing your rest?"
After a silence so long that she began to wonder if he would answer, he replied in a voice so thin it was nearly inaudible, "The usual-violence, betrayal, killing men who might have been my friends in other times."
His bleak tone was chilling. She thought of the farmer who had discovered them in his barn. Robin had conversed knowledgeably about the war in the Peninsula without ever actually saying that he was a soldier. Yet she now realized that he hadn't denied it, either. "You really were in the army?"
"I was never a soldier," he said with bitter humor. "Nothing so clean as that."
"If you weren't a soldier, what were you?"
"I was a spy." He lay back on the pillow and wiped his face with a shaking hand. "For a dozen years, from the time I was barely twenty. I lied, I stole, sometimes acted the assassin. I was very, very good at it."
She felt the shock of surprise that comes when a fact is utterly unexpected, yet so clearly right that it cannot be doubted. "That explains a great deal. I thought you were a common, garden variety thief or swindler."
"It would have been better if I had been a common criminal. I would have caused less harm." Distorted faces began to crowd around him, images of those he knew, plus a blurred legion of unknown others who had died because of information he had passed on. His shaking worsened, and he wondered with despair if it was possible for a body to shatter into pieces.
It was the worst panic spell yet. He wished Maxie were not here to see his weakness, yet he could not stop himself from clinging to her as a lifeline in a sea of shattering emotional turbulence.
Before the images could overwhelm him, she spoke again, her low voice pulling him from the drowning pool of pain. "A thief works only for gain. I can't believe that you became a spy for simple greed."