“Yeah. I want to test things out. We’ll fly into Boise, have a nice dinner, and come back-” He broke off and cocked his head. “You’re afraid.”
“Don’t be ridiculous.” She wasn’t afraid of anything. Well, except maybe admitting she was afraid. “It’s that I can’t just take off. I have stuff I have to do. Thanks for asking, though,” she added politely, and turned away. She wondered how fast she could run back to the kennels…
“Lilah.”
Damn. “Yes?”
“It’s just dinner.”
And a flight to get there. “Boise is hours away, Brady.”
“Not by chopper.”
Holding her breath, she turned back. “Another time, okay?” With a smile that hopefully didn’t give her away, she started moving, forcing herself to walk not run.
“Which terrifies you more,” he called to her. “Going up in the Bell or going out on a date with me?”
Ah, hell. She pivoted to face him. He looked good, so damn good. She wanted to lick him from head to toe. “Look at me,” she said, gesturing to her work clothes of Carhartts pants, a long-sleeved tee layered with a short-sleeved one, both covered in animal hair. “I can’t go out like this, there’s no way.”
“Why not?”
“Why not?” She spread her arms. “Because I’m a mess.”
“So go home, grab some girlie clothes or whatever you need, and let’s go.”
“Girlie clothes?” she asked with a choked laugh. “Where am I supposed to get them, the feed store?”
“Hell, Lilah.” He rubbed his jaw, looking sorry he asked. “Wear a potato sack for all I care-it’s just dinner. And anyway, I like you how you look.”
Crap. Crap that shouldn’t melt her right down to a puddle of goo. “Fine. I need ten minutes.”
“No problem.”
She stared at him for a beat, then whirled and ran home to stare at her closet. In spite of complaining that she had no girlie clothes, she had plenty. He’d just knocked her off her axis is all. She wriggled into a denim skirt and knit top. She shoved her feet into cute boots and thought she looked a little bit like a country bumkin trying to play dress up. If he laughed at her, she’d slug him, she decided and ran back, half hoping he’d left. But nope, he was there, waiting.
He smiled at the boots.
“If you laugh at me, I-”
“I’m not laughing at you,” he said, rising to his full height with easy grace, and he was right. That was definitely not laughter in his eyes, but something that nearly singed her skin.
“You look beautiful,” he said with such simplistic candor that it rendered her speechless.
“You shouldn’t do that,” she finally managed. “You shouldn’t use sweet words like that. Act like my company means something to you. Like you want-” She cut herself off from saying “more.” “Not if you want me to remember what this is between us.” And what it isn’t.
He looked at her for a long moment. “Nothing was set in stone,” he said softly, and boarded the chopper.
Twelve
L eft standing alone, Lilah looked upward. Blue sky, not a single cloud. Of all the times not to have a summer storm on the horizon.
There was a very slight breeze but definitely not the monsoon she could use right about now.
Do it, she told herself. Get on, or you’ll regret it. So with that little pep talk out of the way, she took a deep breath and boarded. Oh God. She white-knuckled herself into the seat next to Brady, ignoring him watching her. “Let’s get this over with,” she said.
“You do realize it’s supposed to be fun,” he said, handing her a headset so that they could communicate over the noise while in the air.
She decided there wasn’t a polite response to that so she went the route of Thumper’s mother and said nothing at all.
He laughed, the sound soft and sexy, and reached over to squeeze her hand with his. “Don’t worry,” he said, flipping switches on the instrument panel in front of him. “I’ve seen a guy do this once or twice.”
“Oh God.” She closed her eyes.
“Are you going to look at all?”
It was weird, hearing him both in her headset and also outside of it. Brady, in stereo. “I don’t know yet.”
She felt more than saw him shake his head. “Here we go,” he warned a minute later.
The roar of the engine, the rotation of the blades, the sheer terror of the sensation of going straight up into the air had her gripping the arms of her seat so tight her fingers went numb. She forced herself to breathe, but nothing could make her look as her stomach landed in her toes at that weightless feeling as they got air.
“You breathing over there?” he asked.
“Yes.” Barely. “And don’t talk to me. Fly the helicopter!”
“I can do both. Open your eyes.”
“You’re awfully demanding.”
“Yes, and as I recall, you like that. Now, Lilah.”
She sighed and opened her eyes, finding that they were very high off the ground. She’d had no idea how it would feel, but it looked as though there were nothing directly below her. All she could see was straight through the glass, which meant everything in front and around her. She gulped at the mix of vulnerability and excitement and studied her pilot.
His sunglasses were silver mirrored frames and gave nothing of his thoughts away. Though piloting a helicopter appeared to take all his limbs-both his hands and his feet were occupied-he was completely in control, aware of everything going on around them: the sky, the instruments, the ground, her. Her eyes were drawn time and time again to those hands, those long fingers moving precisely and surely, in perfect control, just like when they’d been in his bed and he’d handled her much in the same way he was handling instruments…
Turning his head, he met her gaze, the very corners of his mouth barely tilting up. “You okay?”
No. “Yes.” He was far too sexy. She needed a distraction for herself. “If you don’t have a home base anywhere,” she said, “where do you keep all your stuff?”
He went brows up. “Where did that question come from?”
“It was either that or ‘Are we there yet?’”
That got her an almost smile. “I don’t tend to keep much stuff.”
“Why not?”
“Is that your favorite question, ‘why’?”
“Yes. Right after ‘Are the donuts two for one today?’”
He laughed. “The why is simple. My life hasn’t really been my own for years now. When and if that changes, I’ll figure out where ‘home base’ is.”
“But why isn’t your life your own?”
The chopper dipped and she gasped and grabbed the armrests on either side of her hips. “What was that?”
“A pocket of air.” Utterly unconcerned, he made an adjustment to the instruments. “I’ll take us up a bit higher for a smoother ride.”
Oh God. They were going even higher. Be Amelia Ear-hart, she told herself, but it didn’t work. Maybe because things hadn’t ended so well for Amelia. Choosing not to think on that too deeply, she pulled out her cell phone.
“You won’t have reception up here,” he said. “Nor would anyone be able to hear you.”
“I need to text everyone my good-byes.”
A big hand settled over hers. “In the seat behind you, grab my bag.”
When she’d done that, he reached over and pulled out his camera. He flicked off the lens cover and turned it on. Then he set it to auto mode.
The moron-proof button.
“Go for it,” he said.
She stared at him. “You want me to take your picture?”
“I want you to take pictures of whatever you want.”
The Canon was digital and obviously expensive. She brought it carefully up to her face and looked through the lens at the admittedly amazing view. “Is this a distraction technique?”