The doctor looked a little mollified. ‘Make sure she’s kept warm at all times, and quiet. Saline draughts until the fever breaks, and then a light diet for the first week. After that, as much nourishing food as she can take. You’ll find she’s rather pulled by it – convalescence can be slow. But in a month or six weeks – I think in two months’ time you may find she is quite herself again.’
‘I understand.’
The doctor looked at him curiously. ‘You know the army is leaving tomorrow? She mustn’t be moved, of course.’
‘No, of course not. I shall speak to the Commander-in-Chief.’ He frowned a moment in thought. ‘If he won’t allow me leave, I shall resign my commission,’ he said finally. ‘I can’t leave her now.’
When the physician had gone, he discovered a sense of relief inside him at the thought of resignation. He was very tired, more tired than he had realised, and the thought of letting go was very pleasant. Everything told him it was time to step out of the current of events, and rest a while.
Anne was very ill – so ill that many times Kirov thought the doctor must have been mistaken in his diagnosis. Her temperature climbed, sinking back a little during the middle of the day, and then rising again towards evening, when she would sometimes become delirious. She complained at first of aching limbs and a severe headache; then she developed an exhausting cough, and her throat became too sore to speak.
It was Adonis, oddly enough, who took charge of the nursing. The innkeeper’s wife inclined to the burning-noxious-vapours-and-swallowing-live-insects school of medicine, which had flourished in the previous century: and Pauline, though willing enough, knew nothing of the business, beyond what her grandmother had once told her – that sick people should lie with their feet higher than their heads so that the infection could drain out of their ears.
This didn’t strike Kirov as very helpful, and he was relieved when Adonis sent her away kindly but firmly, saying that she was not robust, and should not be exposed to the sickness, or he would have two of them on his hands. Pauline was at first scandalised that he, a male, should propose taking care of her lady; but once she learnt that the innkeeper’s wife was to perform the more intimate tasks for her, she relented; and seeing how skilled Adonis was at nursing, she soon ceased to regard him as a male creature at all.
It was Adonis who prepared saline draughts and herbal infusions, and who persuaded the delirious patient to drink them; it was he who propped her up on pillows when she found it hard to breathe, bathed her hands and face with rose-water, and mixed a soothing syrup for her throat. Most of all, it was he who calmed Kirov’s fears by telling him again and again that she was doing very well, and that it really was just an influenza; and dealt, successively, with his master’s fears of smallpox, scarlet fever, diphtheria, and, when the cough began, consumption.
At the end of a week, the fever broke at last, leaving the patient with all the symptoms of a heavy cold, cough and sore throat, which even her distracted lover could believe she might ultimately recover from. It was as well that she did show this improvement, for on the 26th of September the cavalry of the French advance guard, who had several days before realised they were following a party of Cossacks on a wild goose chase, discovered at last where the main Russian army had got to. They began advancing southwards, and Prince Kutuzov, not seeing any need to gratify them by giving battle, gave the order for another withdrawal, towards Kaluga.
This left Podolsk in a rather exposed position, and after a brief consultation between them, Kirov and Adonis agreed that it would be more dangerous to remain where they were than to remove Anne to a safer place.
‘Now the fever’s broken – as long as she’s well wrapped up, and put in a coach of some sort–’ Adonis said.
‘Yes, I agree. But where can we go? We don’t want to travel too far, but we need to be safe.’
‘Somewhere out of the way – off the main roads. I’ll make enquiries, Colonel.’
His enquiries produced a small house on the side road from Voronovo to Kolomna belonging to a local dvorian, whose finances had become so perilous in the hard years leading up to the invasion that he was willing not merely to rent it but even to sell it, and to remove himself at a moment’s notice to the home of a married sister in Tarutino. The deal was rapidly concluded, and Anne was wrapped in a large quantity of warm clothing, and placed in a telega hired for the purpose, and they removed to Litetsk on the same day that the first French company came clattering into Podolsk.
Although only ten miles further on, Litetsk was much more isolated, standing on an unfrequented road, and sheltered from casual view from the road by an exceedingly overgrown park and almost impassable drive. It was very unlikely that any French patrol would even use this road, and still less so that they would think of leaving it to penetrate the tangle of the driveway for any reason.
The four of them settled in, to light the fires, screen the draughts, and make themselves comfortable. The move had exhausted Anne, who was suffering from the usual debilitation of influenza. She slept a great deal, and when awake had no energy for anything but to lie looking at the fire. For the others, the sense of security of Litetsk was enhanced by the knowledge that there was nothing they must or even could do until Anne was well again; after strenuous effort and worry, the reaction caused a depth of relaxation in all of them amounting almost to lethargy.
Nikolai spent his days sitting in a chair by the fire. When Anne slept, he dozed and daydreamed, going over the events of the past, taking stock, repairing the thousand tiny lesions in heart and mind that a full life and an active career had left. He was very tired, and for the first ten days at Litetsk he rarely stirred from his chair; eating and drinking with infantile docility whatever Adonis put before him; caring nothing about the progress of the war; retiring early to bed, to a deep and dreamless sleep.
As Anne grew stronger, and was able to sit up and take notice, so Nikolai recovered too. She was still very weak and pulled, and a little of any activity sufficed her. He sat with her and read to her, played cards with her, but mostly just held her hand and talked to her. At first they talked randomly, of neutral subjects; but they both had a great deal of mourning to do, and there were shocks they had sustained whose effect had been, through necessity, deeply hidden. The time came when it was right for those events to be relived, for the pain to surface and be suffered and dealt with.
They talked of the flight from Moscow, and of Basil’s death, and then of Borodino, and of Sergei. Their grief over Sergei’s death was compounded by the knowledge of his deep and ineradicable unhappiness; and for Kirov, by the knowledge that his son had died without forgiving him, without reconciliation. Speaking of it now, for the first time, with Anne, he knew that there were layers and layers of suffering still to be realised. Anne might grieve for Sergei, mourn the waste of so promising a life; but Kirov’s anguish was of a different order. This was only the beginning for him of knowing that his son was dead.
Moving backwards through pain, they talked of Vilna, of Anne’s marriage, of Pyatigorsk, of Natasha, of Irina. There was a day when Anne was able at last to weep, and once begun, she could not seem to stop. Nikolai took her in his arms, and she cried on his shoulder until his jacket was soaked through, cried until her head ached, cried herself into a fever again. The next day she was prostrated, and Adonis was for the first time really worried, thinking she was suffering a relapse. But on the day after that, she was herself again, and plainly on the mend. As the physical fever had burnt out the infection, so the fever of weeping had burnt out the grief.