I made a slow tour of the production layout, with Miles at my heels. No automation here. This was basic production equipment, every machine tended by a craftsman who kept his gauges handy. I looked at D4D that was about ready to go through the guarded door. It was an assembly of beautifully machined components, roughly the size and shape of those peck baskets I hadn’t seen for years.
We went back to Miles Bennet’s office. The closed door cut the noise level. He shrugged and shook his head.
“Close tolerances, it looks like,” I said.
“There’s one tapered hole we got to drill through about two inches of special alloy that’s got to have the degree of taper dead nuts to a fifty thousandth, so we have to pour plugs and project them to check it out. Mirror finish. If you tried to use a trial plug the molecules would set up and you’d never get it out.”
I whistled with genuine awe. “What has to be that close?”
He looked at me with haunted eyes that shifted quickly. “Make your own guesses, Gev.”
I guessed out loud. “You’ve got a lot of parts machined out of light-weight alloys, so lightness is a factor. But there’s good tough steel in there too, designed to give maximum crossbracing with minimum weight. And there’s areas where you’re using non-conductors. And some handy little pockets and casings and slots for one hell of a lot of electronic equipment. Damn it, Miles, if that stuff that goes in there is miniaturized, you’d have more than you’d need for one big fuse, and that’s what it looks like, sort of, except for that hemispherical cavity and...”
I stopped suddenly. A fat, reinforced tube led to the cavity. A triggering device with explosive charge could slam a fat slug of rare material into the heart of its sister material affixed in the hemisphere, and achieve critical mass in the simplest possible fashion.
Bennet saw my expression and said, “I wish I never started to think about it, Gev.”
“But you can’t be sure.”
He did not seem to hear me. He frowned down at the back of his fist. “Figure on a minimum of at least three safety devices and circuits prior to final arming, and figure a couple more after that, and then figure you’d have to have a couple of in-flight safety controls that couldn’t be jammed. Then, once it’s on course, ideally it would have a self-contained navigational circuit, not susceptible to any outside influence, that could make final course correction.”
“But you can’t know it’s the right guess, Miles.”
“And the thing you’d really want is top security, because no matter what the ingenuity of man can devise, another man, knowing the precise design, can bitch up when it comes time to use it.” He looked at me with an odd expression. “I keep dreaming about them, Gev. A hundred of them, all in flight at once, all arching down at sixteen thousand miles an hour. But they’re never going the other way. They’re all coming at us.”
“Not if we can lob just as many back.”
“And if everybody is sure they’ll work.”
Miles walked me out to the doorway to C Building. “It can wear you down,” he said. We looked at each other and looked away. It was a feeling like a shared guilt, as though we had helped each other murder the innocent in some shameful way.
This had been going on while I was sunning myself on the Florida beaches. I got out of there. I got out fast, but I couldn’t go quite fast enough to get away from myself. I didn’t go back to Mottling’s office. I turned in my passes and got into the car and drove away from the north end, away from smoke and sidings and chemical stinks. There was a man I should see. The only other Dean left in the direct blood line. Alfred, my father’s brother.
I had a quick lunch in town, and walked to the Arland Athletic Club. After my Aunt Margaret died many years ago, Uncle Alfred sold the gray stone castle my grandfather had built. A grocery chain tore it down and put in a supermarket. Uncle Alfred moved into the Arland Athletic Club, a big downtown club in an ugly red-brick building.
They told me at the desk that they’d call Mr. Alfred Dean from the card room. I said I knew where it was and told the unfamiliar desk clerk that I had a nonresident membership. I bought cigarettes from him and went on through to the card room. There were six men playing a cut-in game of bridge. Uncle Alfred saw me at once. He held up three fingers and pointed to the lounge. He was playing a hand. I went into the lounge and took a magazine from the table. When he came through the door a few minutes later I tossed the magazine aside and stood up.
I remembered him as having a sharp, almost birdlike manner, startlingly young eyes and a zest for life. He had written me several times, urging me to go back into the firm. His letters contained a wry awareness of his own life of idleness. He said the business bored him and he was no good at it.
There was no jauntiness in his walk, none of the dapper briskness. He looked old, worn and aware of defeat. It hurt me to see that his head shook with a perpetual palsied tremble.
“Buy you a drink, Gevan,” he said, steering me toward the bar. We took a table. We ordered. I saw his eyes suddenly fill with tears. It shocked me. He knuckled his eyes with a child’s gesture and gave me an embarrassed smile. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me lately, boy. I get as silly as a girl.”
“It’s good to see you, Uncle Al.”
The drinks came and he picked his up. “To Ken, God rest his soul.”
We drank to that. He did not speak as distinctly as in the old days. “Cut to the same pattern, we were, Kenny and me. He never got up on his hind legs and quit. God knows he must have thought of it often enough. You quit, and you were the one shouldn’t have. I remember the day I had to tell your grandfather I was walking out of the plant. But he had your dad. And that was enough. You could run it without Kenny. Kenny and me — too gentle or something. I don’t know.”
“What’s going on at the plant, Uncle Al?”
“My God, he was mad at me that day. You should have heard him.”
“What about Mottling, Uncle Al?”
“Mottling? Oh, him and that colonel fellow and Kenny’s wife. Wrong group to be running the place, Karch says. Says Mottling isn’t sound. Walter Granby is the one we want. Mottling lives right here, you know. Right here in the club. Room on the top floor. He pats me on the head. Patronizing.” For a moment there was a flash of the old Uncle Al, that dapper, spirited man.
It was as Walter had said. Maybe you never feel old on the inside. I remembered a trip, a long time ago, going to New York on the train with Uncle Al. I was about twelve. It was exciting, eating in the dining car and watching the world go by the windows and thinking about New York and what we would see. It was after Aunt Margaret died. We went to the club car after we ate, and Uncle Al had a drink that came out of a little bottle, and I had a ginger ale. When I finished it, he told me to go back to our seats while he stayed there. I thought I’d been bad or gotten on his nerves. An hour later I went back to look for him, and he was talking to a woman. She looked like the women on the posters in front of the movies, and she had a deep laugh, like a man’s.
New York was so big and busy I didn’t feel like twelve any more. I felt six years old. We had a suite in the hotel. It was an old-fashioned place where Uncle Al always stayed, and they all knew him.
We were there three days and it wasn’t like I thought it would be. He would call the woman he met on the train, and then we would eat dinner and he would buy me something and tell me what time to go to bed and I would go back up to the room and he would go out. He’d sleep until nearly noon and I would go down early to the coffee shop and get breakfast. In the afternoon he would take me someplace. To the top of a building, or a museum. He acted tired and cross during the afternoons.