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He hasn’t punished me in a while, and I kind of miss it because no one has ever pushed my boundaries the way he has.

“I’ll try, Master.” I give him a wink, resisting the overpowering urge I have to steal a kiss from his wet lips.

His fingertips graze up my hip until he reaches a nipple, which he wastes no time twisting between his thumb and middle finger. Leaning down, he draws the tender bud into his mouth and then moves to the other. My head dips back, brought forward again the second his massive erection presses against my thigh and sends a shiver down my center.

Dane’s hand glides down my slick thighs and up to my core, slipping a wet finger between my seam before pushing it inside me.

I reach for the shower wall, gasping and silently pleading for him to keep going. He’s notorious for teasing, giving samples and previews, and leaving me desperately hungry for more. Only when I can hardly stand it anymore does he reward me.

My hips grind against his hand, responding to his every touch. I almost faint when he lowers himself to his knees and brings his tongue to my clit. With fists pounding the tile wall of the shower, I whimper and exhale.

It’s my tell.

“You can come now,” he says, his lips moving against my sex.

I want to grab fistfuls of his lush, dark hair, but I know I’m not allowed, so I grab my breasts instead. I need something to cling to that’s not a toy or a strap or an inanimate object. I ride the wave all the way to the end until I nearly collapse on the shower floor. Dane pulls me up into his arms, placing me back under the warm, running water.

Maybe it’s the steam getting to me or maybe it’s my post-orgasmic brain fog, but I fall to my knees and take him in my mouth. I don’t ask permission. I don’t think about it. I just act.

He doesn’t stop me, in fact, his cock throbs in my mouth, growing larger as my tongue circles and swirls every inch of him from shaft to tip. A delicious bead of pre-cum hits my tongue, and I know for a fact I’ll be sucking him dry this morning.

I grab the base of his cock, my tongue dancing across every groove and vein as I pull him into my mouth over and over. It’s different this time. It’s just us. Naked. In a gorgeous tiled shower. No toys. No props. No straps or restraints. No need to worry about choosing my words carefully or asking politely.

Dane grabs a fistful of my hair and releases a guttural groan, thrusting his hips into my mouth. I suck harder and move faster, wordlessly begging for that explosion. He tugs my hair hard, bursting into my mouth at the same time. I swallow every last drop and wipe my mouth, rising with a satisfied smile.

The second our eyes meet, the party ends. He doesn’t thank me. Doesn’t give me a verbal pat on the back. He simply lathers his body with soap, washes and rinses his hair, and steps out of the shower.

THIRTY-THREE

DANE

 “Did you enjoy your stay in Nashville?” We climb into the back of my limo Sunday afternoon as my driver, Bronson, hoists our bags into the trunk.

“I did.”

She was quiet most of the way back, her nose buried in that same damn book. I’m convinced she was pretending to read it the entire time.

Bronson climbs in the front and pulls away from the tarmac. By the time we’re merging onto the interstate, she’s spent the better part of the last several minutes staring out the tinted window on her left.

The Saturday morning shower changed things.

I’m not a vanilla man. I don’t prefer vanilla exchanges. I’m not sure why I allowed what I allowed. I wasn’t quite sure what to say or how to act afterward. A mixture of warmth, pleasure, and powerlessness smacked into me like a runaway freight train, and I couldn’t process it at the time.

I still can’t.

“We’ll do more business trips together,” I tell her.

She nods.

After we’d left for the conference Saturday, she spent eight hours manning a booth, and I spent eight hours giving presentations and personally hosting our keynote speakers. We crashed that night after ordering room service and watching some historical drama on pay-per-view.

Now here we are.

Back in Salt Lake City.

Everything around us is exactly the same, but everything about us has changed.

When Bronson drops her off at her car outside Townsend Tower, I climb out with her. Not only do I intend on giving her a proper goodbye, but I need to make sure she’s okay.

And also, I need to know that we’re okay.

Bronson pulls her bag from the limo trunk and wheels it to the back of the Discovery.

“I’ll see you Monday.” I stand before her, but her gaze is fixed at my feet. “Bellamy, look at me.”

We meet nose to nose and eye to eye.

I’m losing her.

I can feel it.

And the fact that I can feel it means something.

Everything about the ache in my chest that appears when I imagine my life without her in it, tells me she’s not just my submissive anymore. But I’m not exactly sure what she is, and I’m not entirely positive I need to go flinging labels on things and making heartfelt declarations just yet.

I don’t scare easily, but damn if the thought of opening up to her makes my stomach churn.

I cup her chin, lifting her mouth just enough. Pressing my lips against hers, I run my tongue along the seam of her mouth until she opens for me. Our tongues mingle, and my fingers dig into the soft underside of her jaw.

It’s a passionate kiss: the kind of kiss lovers might exchange. Fear sinks its gnarled teeth into me, convincing me that if I don’t kiss her here and now, like this, I might never see her again.

She pulls away, a definite first, and slips away, her heels clicking toward her ride.

“Thanks for everything,” she says, climbing in.

“See you Monday.”

***

I don’t see her Monday.

Instead I receive a text at eight o’clock that morning, asking if she can take the day off to hunt for apartments.

I give her permission and almost offer my assistance, changing my mind when I know she’ll just turn it down. She wants to do it all on her own, and I respect that.

Relief comes the second I see her Tuesday morning.

“Find a place, did you?” I ask after leading her to my office.

Her hands wrap around a mug of tea, and her glazed expression piques my curiosity.

“Everything okay?” I ask.

“I found a beautiful apartment on Hickory Street south of Campus Town,” she says. “Two bedrooms. Big windows. Tall ceilings. A fireplace even.”

“Wonderful.”

“They won’t rent to me because I don’t have any credit history.” She takes a careful sip of tea, her eyes fixed on the murky brown liquid. “Called a few other places. They all said the same thing. I need someone to co-sign.”

“Bellamy,” I say.

“Yes, Dane. I’ll accept your help, but only because I have no other choice.”

“It doesn’t make you any less brave or any less resourceful,” I remind her.

“My father pulled me aside last night after dinner.” She places the mug on the edge of my desk and only then do I notice she’s trembling. “He told me he suspects that my sister has lost her innocence and that his only option is to send her off to marry a virtuous man who can lead her back to the path of righteousness.”

My eyes flick to the ceiling and back. It sounds exactly like something one of the church elders back at the compound would say.

“He knows of a man in South Dakota with five other wives. He’s a wealthy man with a penchant for correcting women who’ve strayed a bit from their paths. He and my father have been speaking for a few weeks now, and my father is absolutely convinced that this is the only option he has to save my sister.” Her bottom lip quivers. “She’s eighteen, Dane.”

“Now. It happens now. Go get her. Bring her back. You two are living with me until further notice.” I rise, but Bellamy doesn’t move.

“I’m supposed to drive her to South Dakota sometime this week. I don’t know when, but my father made it clear that he expects me to drop everything the second he gives me the go ahead.” She shakes her head. “It was so hard to sit there and act like I agreed with everything he was saying. I know it was all an act, but I still feel sick about it.”