All eyes turned toward MacKenzie as Marcioni fell silent.
Slowly he stood up, his eyes cold and lifeless. "You will never understand," he said, his voice distant, almost mechanical. "I did this to show everyone, to show everyone" His voice trailed off.
Stepping away from his desk, MacKenzie stalked out of the room. Singh watched him leave, saying nothing as the door closed behind MacKenzie.
"We are adjourned until 0800 tomorrow," Singh said quietly.
Justin felt as if he would collapse in his chair and he barely had the strength to stand as Singh walked out of the room. Marcioni came up to Justin and extended his hand.
"I knew from the beginning, son, that you were right. You might not believe this but maybe even the Old Man felt that way as well."
"He sure didn't seem that way."
"Well, he was caught in a bind. A lot of powers beyond what you see here were playing the game out."
Marcioni fell silent as Colson, head lowered, hurriedly walked past them. Justin was tempted to say something but the hunted look in Colsons eyes stilled him. Kicking a beaten dog came to mind and he knew that as long as Colson lived the bitter revelations in this room would haunt him.
Marcioni looked up as Thorsson approached. Smiling, Marcioni extended his hand.
"You were a darn good cadet and an even better officer," Thorsson said, eyes beaming.
"Thank you, sir. Just trying to do what was right, as you taught us."
"Well now, I think this young cadet here needs a little rest, so how about if I walk him and his friends over to their quarters. I think it's safe to assume that all charges will be dropped against them and they will receive a full and honorable exoneration."
"Full and honorable at the least," Marcioni replied. "I think some decorations are in order once all of this gets sorted out."
Thorsson put his hand on Justin's shoulder and led him to the door. As they stepped out into the corridor Justin saw a flurry of activity down at the end of the hallway. A marine, his uniform disheveled, came running up the corridor. Grabbing another marine he darted back down the hall and around the corner.
"Something's wrong," Thorsson said quietly.
Justin started forward but Thorsson put out a hand, stopping him.
"It's not your responsibility now, let it go."
"I still can't believe he killed himself," Justin said.
"I can," Thorsson replied, leaning against the wall of the lounge and nursing a scalding cup of coffee. The burn out of Mars' orbit had finished half an hour ago and Thorsson had called the crew of Somers forward to the lounge to talk things out.
The ship was heading back to Earth, with a stop at the Academy to drop off the cadets and Thorsson. Hemenez had been placed in acting command of the ship until its return to Earth Base One, with Seay as acting second pilot. Rumors were already spreading that, given the "bad luck" name of the ship, and its age, chances were the old Somers would never sail again, at least under USMC colors, and would be sold off as a high-speed transport.
"What happened to the Captain, sir?" Livollen asked.
"He was already far over the edge of paranoia when you people came aboard and for that I must apologize. Let that be a warning to all of you young officers, when an old hand like O'Brian here brings you a warning, you darn well better sit up and take notice."
O'Brian nodded his thanks from the corner of the room. He, of everyone involved in the incident, had wound up taking the hardest punishment, the dark swatch on his shoulder indicating where his stripes had been pulled off for his outbreak in the courtroom.
"Not the first time," O'Brian announced cheerily when Justin tried to console him. "Hell, young sir, you might be pulling my stripes yourself someday."
The days after the end of the trial and the full exoneration announced for all cadets, enlisted personnel and officers who had resisted MacKenzie had gone by in a confusing whirl. As Thorsson had implied, heads had rolled over the incident, and were still rolling. Zhing had taken early retirement, Lewis had resigned, and Singh had suddenly been recalled to Earth for an "administrative review." It was rumored as well that there had been an overhaul in the Office of the Director Service Personnel, with sharp questions being asked about the review process that promoted captains and gave them command.
As for the press, Justin found he simply couldn't understand it. On the one hand he was being hailed as something of a hero, especially by the Mars press and the pro-separatists leaders. That in turn had created something of a backlash in conservative quarters, with some wondering if the service had gone too soft and Justin was being overly praised for his actions. Before Singh had left he had called Justin in and suggested that in the long run his career with the service was now dead no matter what any court might say. He had led a mutiny, and regardless of the justifications that stigma would always surround his name. No officer would ever fully trust him in the future.
Thorsson in turn had laughed at Singh's comments, replying that Singh was a generation on the way out.
"Concerning Captain MacKenzie's suicide," Thorsson continued, "it was tragic, but in a more traditional sense it was, perhaps, the only avenue left to him. It was a shame that marine guard was wounded trying to disarm him; there was a time when a man went quietly to his office, wrote a letter of apology, and then ended it."
Justin looked at Thorsson in surprise for implying support for the idea of suicide.
"Just talking about an older time, which MacKenzie's mind functioned in," Thorsson said. " MacKenzie's world came apart long before you people ever set foot aboard his ship. I wonder if having so many of you young cadets around might have triggered something buried deep within. A memory, a fear from when he was young. Be that as it may, once the unraveling started it couldn't be stopped, sort of like when you crack open an intricate machine and all the little springs start leaping out. No matter how hard you try you can't get them back in and trying to fix it just means more leap out.
"He built a justification for what he did and I think he actually believed it. It is a rare person who will do evil, knowing they are doing evil. Such characters belong in bad fiction; they rarely appear in real life. Most such people somehow believe they are doing right no matter how twisted they are. Even Hitler. He did not look in a mirror, cackle and say he was evil. No, in his twisted mind he believed he was doing right. Even the men and women of the Black Cell who destroyed most of New York and Moscow early in the 21st century thought they were doing right, even though millions died.
"No, I'm not connecting MacKenzie to those nightmares of humanity, all I'm saying is that he was disastrously disturbed. In that courtroom I could see it in his eyes when the recordings started to play. Poor Mr. Colson was revealed as a liar, and MacKenzie as a failure of a captain who did not follow the most basic steps of trying to analyze Colson's lies before acting. I don't think he even saw that in many ways he had set Colson up to be the initiating spark of his desires for vengeance. Once that was revealed, the way he seized Matt no longer seemed like a captain heroically defending his ship, but rather the actions of a bully out of control. His treatment of Hemenez and Zhing was deplorable and again looked more like a bully trying to have his way rather than a captain attempting to reach the truth. I dare say that if those recordings were ever reviewed in more detail there might be some darker aspects of MacKenzie revealed. I hope they are just simply destroyed.
"So, in that moment I think MacKenzie realized what he was and the internal collision of those two sides was played out. When he left that room there was only one answer for him find a gun, which tragically happened to be in the holster of a marine, and end it."