He finished his meal and then the two of them watched television. Ogden had to wake his mother and tell her to go to bed. Once she was off, he went into what had been his father’s tying room, where the man had made trout flies for the last twenty years of his life. His mother had kept it clean but pretty much as it had been when his father was alive. He sat at the desk and switched on the lamp. He put a number 12 down-eye hook in the vise and began to wrap it with black thread. He would make something easy, some zug bugs. He tied on a little lead and imagined the nymph skipping the bottom of a riffle. His father had loved to catch trout, but for Ogden to simply have a trout take notice of his fly was reward enough. He wrapped the peacock herl around the hook and watched the bug take shape.
In the dream, ten cutthroat trout were facing upstream in a row in the Rio Grande. They were spaced evenly across the river just after its confluence with Arroyo Hondo. Their dorsal fins were exaggerated in size and stuck up over the rushing water. Ogden was in chest waders, standing in the middle of the Grande. The river up to his chin and his waders were full of water, but he felt stable, foot-sure, and steady. The current wasn’t pushing him at all. He was casting the largest stonefly nymph he’d ever seen at the end of crazily long tippet. The wind was whipping but didn’t affect his casts in the least. The big fly landed perfectly on the water, no splash at all, no drag from the line. The fly would just drift past the nose of a trout. And the fish would ignore it, almost with disdain.
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Ogden checked in at the station and then drove to Mrs. Bickers’s house to continue his so-called investigation. He stood in the middle of the parlor, slapping at his sleeves in the cold, and wondered where he should start. He watched his breath condense and float away from him and decided he should begin with a fire. He brought in wood and got a fire going. Still cold, he again sifted through the uninformative papers at the old woman’s bedside. He sat on the edge of the bed and then stood immediately. The bed was unmade and it felt like a block of ice. He had been sitting at the kitchen table with Mrs. Bickers, knowing that something was wrong. He wondered if she had been trying to tell him something that he had been simply too dense to understand. He should have gotten up and kicked in the bedroom door, but he hadn’t known enough to even consider it, much less do it.
He went to the desk in the parlor and sat. He found some trashy celebrity magazines and some back issues of Time and starts of letters that didn’t say much and the old woman’s address book. In the Bs he found three other Bickerses listed and one of those had been scratched out. The woman’s purse was on the floor beside the desk. Her identification revealed that her maiden name was Robbins. The bag also contained two hundred dollars and change. In the address book he found one Robbins, a Lester G. in Tempe, Arizona.
He went through the desk twice and found nothing out of the ordinary and nothing of any particular interest. There were some payment-due bills from the clinic, some through-the-mail insurance offers that the old woman had saved in a stack, and a deed to a parcel of land that was identified by quadrant number and all Ogden could determine was that it was in the county.
He went again into her bedroom and stood there awhile. He opened a dresser drawer. He moved her underwear around and looked behind her blouses. He searched behind her socks and stockings, nightgowns and sweaters. Nothing.
He walked into the room with the television and stood next to the open trapdoor. He looked at the space under the house and then lowered himself into it. He squatted and looked around in the dark a bit before switching on his little flashlight. The old woman’s impression was still in the dirt. He wouldn’t know a clue if it jumped up and bit him on his pecker. But he had known that something was wrong. He’d known and hadn’t done a single thing and now Mrs. Bickers, as objectionable and miserable as she was, was dead. Detective or not, he collected himself and scoured the ground for anything the other cops might have missed — a hair, a broken-off fingernail, a wad of gum, a signed confession with an address, anything.
The front door opened with a complaint from its hinges. Ogden stood and saw legs in tights.
“What can I do for you?” he asked. He pulled himself to sitting on the wood floor, brushed off his clothes.
“I’m Jenny Bickers,” the woman said. She was in her mid-thirties, maybe older. She looked around the room, at Ogden, and into the hole.
“I’m Deputy Ogden Walker.” Ogden stood.
“Where’s my mother?”
Ogden’s stomach fell hollow and cold against his back. The woman didn’t know.
“What’s wrong?” she asked.
It was a reasonable question. Ogden knew he had to provide an answer. “Miss Bickers, I’m afraid I have some bad news for you. Your mother is dead.”
The woman became unsteady. Ogden was berating himself for not suggesting that she sit first. She didn’t move.
“Where’s my mother? What’s going on?”
“You mother is dead,” he said again, realizing that there was no softening it. He reached out and helped the woman balance herself as she took a seat on the sofa.
Ogden stood beside her. “I’m very sorry.”
“Are you sure?”
“She was killed,” he said.
“Murdered?” the woman cried.
Ogden didn’t say anything. He sat next to her while she cried. He moved to put a hand on her shoulder, but decided that that might seem patronizing. He went to the bathroom and brought back some tissue.
“I don’t understand,” she said. Her face was twisted. She was beginning to hyperventilate.
“Take deep breaths,” Ogden said. He watched her for what felt like several minutes and then said, “We don’t know who killed her. I’m very, very sorry.”
She continued to try to breathe deeply.
Ogden resolved to say no more. He certainly wasn’t going to tell her how they believed her mother had died or that her cat had been crushed in the killer’s hands or that he had been sitting in the house with the woman minutes before she had been murdered.
“How?” Jenny Bickers asked.
“The sheriff will tell you everything. I’m going to call him now, okay?”
She nodded.
Ogden went to the phone in the parlor and called Paz. He told him that the old woman’s daughter had shown up and that he’d had to tell her the news.
“How is she?” Paz asked.
“What do you think? I didn’t go into any details with her. I’m about to bring her over.”
“Okay. How about you? You all right?”
“See you in a few.”
Ogden hung up and turned to Jenny Bickers. “I’ll take you to the station now.” He helped her up and they walked out.
“Murdered,” the woman said to herself as Ogden turned to padlock and tape the door.
Ogden repeated the word in his head as they walked to his rig. It was a bad thing, no matter how you said it.
Ogden walked Jenny Bickers past Felton and right into Paz’s office where she fell into a chair without an invitation. Paz wasn’t there, so Ogden stood silently by while the woman massaged her temples. It seemed her crying had given way to a headache.
Paz walked in and moved directly to the woman, very businesslike. “I’m Sheriff Paz.” He shook her hand. “I’m very sorry about your mother.” He moved to the other side of his desk. “Let’s see if you can help us find out who killed her.”
She sat up, squared her shoulders.
“Where do you live, Ms. Bickers?”
“Santa Fe.”
“And can you tell me when you last spoke to your mother?” the sheriff asked.
“Two days ago. Tuesday morning.”
“You come up often?”