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at the deanery is also real. The archdeacon in his victory is very

real. There is a true savour of English country life all through

the book. It was with many misgivings that I killed my old friend

Mrs. Proudie. I could not, I think, have done it, but for a resolution

taken and declared under circumstances of great momentary pressure.

It was thus that it came about. I was sitting one morning at work

upon the novel at the end of the long drawing-room of the Athenaeum

Club,--as was then my wont when I had slept the previous night in

London. As I was there, two clergymen, each with a magazine in his

hand, seated themselves, one on one side of the fire and one on

the other, close to me. They soon began to abuse what they were

reading, and each was reading some part of some novel of mine. The

gravamen of their complaint lay in the fact that I reintroduced

the same characters so often! "Here," said one, "is that archdeacon

whom we have had in every novel he has ever written." "And here,"

said the other, "is the old duke whom he has talked about till

everybody is tired of him. If I could not invent new characters, I

would not write novels at all." Then one of them fell foul of Mrs.

Proudie. It was impossible for me not to hear their words, and

almost impossible to hear them and be quiet. I got up, and standing

between them, I acknowledged myself to be the culprit. "As to Mrs.

Proudie," I said, "I will go home and kill her before the week is

over." And so I did. The two gentlemen were utterly confounded,

and one of them begged me to forget his frivolous observations.

I have sometimes regretted the deed, so great was my delight in

writing about Mrs. Proudie, so thorough was my knowledge of all the

shades of her character. It was not only that she was a tyrant,

a bully, a would-be priestess, a very vulgar woman, and one who

would send headlong to the nethermost pit all who disagreed with

her; but that at the same time she was conscientious, by no means

a hypocrite, really believing in the brimstone which she threatened,

and anxious to save the souls around her from its horrors. And as

her tyranny increased so did the bitterness of the moments of her

repentance increase, in that she knew herself to be a tyrant,--till

that bitterness killed her. Since her time others have grown up

equally dear to me,--Lady Glencora and her husband, for instance;

but I have never dissevered myself from Mrs. Proudie, and still

live much in company with her ghost.

I have in a previous chapter said how I wrote Can You Forgive Her?

after the plot of a play which had been rejected,--which play had

been called The Noble Jilt. Some year or two after the completion

of The Last Chronicle, I was asked by the manager of a theatre to

prepare a piece for his stage, and I did so, taking the plot of

this novel. I called the comedy Did He Steal It? But my friend the

manager did not approve of my attempt. My mind at this time was

less attentive to such a matter than when dear old George Bartley

nearly crushed me by his criticism,--so that I forget the reason

given. I have little doubt but that the manager was right. That

he intended to express a true opinion, and would have been glad to

have taken the piece had he thought it suitable, I am quite sure.

I have sometimes wished to see during my lifetime a combined

republication of those tales which are occupied with the fictitious

county of Barsetshire. These would be The Warden, Barchester

Towers, Doctor Thorne, Framley Parsonage, and The Last Chronicle

of Barset. But I have hitherto failed. The copyrights are in the

hands of four different persons, including myself, and with one of

the four I have not been able to prevail to act in concert with the

others. [Footnote: Since this was written I have made arrangements

for doing as I have wished, and the first volume of the series will

now very shortly be published.]

In 1867 I made up my mind to take a step in life which was not

unattended with peril, which many would call rash, and which, when

taken, I should be sure at some period to regret. This step was

the resignation of my place in the Post Office. I have described

how it was that I contrived to combine the performance of its duties

with my other avocations in life. I got up always very early; but

even this did not suffice. I worked always on Sundays,--as to which

no scruple of religion made me unhappy,--and not unfrequently I

was driven to work at night. In the winter when hunting was going

on, I had to keep myself very much on the alert. And during the

London season, when I was generally two or three days of the week

in town, I found the official work to be a burden. I had determined

some years previously, after due consideration with my wife, to

abandon the Post Office when I had put by an income equal to the

pension to which I should be entitled if I remained in the department

till I was sixty. That I had now done, and I sighed for liberty.

The exact time chosen, the autumn of 1867, was selected because I

was then about to undertake other literary work in editing a new

magazine,--of which I shall speak very shortly. But in addition to

these reasons there was another, which was, I think, at last the

actuating cause. When Sir Rowland Hill left the Post Office, and

my brother-in-law, Mr. Tilley, became Secretary in his place, I

applied for the vacant office of Under-Secretary. Had I obtained

this I should have given up my hunting, have given up much of my

literary work,--at any rate would have edited no magazine,--and

would have returned to the habit of my youth in going daily to the

General Post Office. There was very much against such a change in

life. The increase of salary would not have amounted to above (pounds)400

a year, and I should have lost much more than that in literary

remuneration. I should have felt bitterly the slavery of attendance

at an office, from which I had then been exempt for five-and-twenty

years. I should, too, have greatly missed the sport which I loved.

But I was attached to the department, had imbued myself with a

thorough love of letters,--I mean the letters which are carried by

the post,--and was anxious for their welfare as though they were

all my own. In short, I wished to continue the connection. I did

not wish, moreover, that any younger officer should again pass over

my head. I believed that I bad been a valuable public servant,

and I will own to a feeling existing at that time that I had not

altogether been well treated. I was probably wrong in this. I had

been allowed to hunt,--and to do as I pleased, and to say what

I liked, and had in that way received my reward. I applied for

the office, but Mr. Scudamore was appointed to it. He no doubt

was possessed of gifts which I did not possess. He understood

the manipulation of money and the use of figures, and was a great

accountant. I think that I might have been more useful in regard

to the labours and wages of the immense body of men employed by

the Post Office. However, Mr. Scudamore was appointed; and I made

up my mind that I would fall back upon my old intention, and leave

the department. I think I allowed two years to pass before I took

the step; and the day on which I sent the letter was to me most

melancholy.

The rule of the service in regard to pensions is very just. A man