All she had been able to think about for the past month was how Ramsey had lied to her. She hadn't thought that they had a shot in hell of getting back together. Of course she missed him terribly. They had been together for a year and it's not like they had broken up because she wasn't interested anymore. She was definitely still interested, if last night was any indication of that. And she knew that she had to tell Ramsey about what had happened especially now that they were back together. They hadn't been together when it had happened, but the longer she held it in the more it would look like she was hiding it from him. The last thing she wanted to do was put herself in the same situation as Ramsey. They wouldn't have broken up at all if he had just been honest about what had happened with Parker…among other things. She just needed to be honest about what she had done in New York.
But the thought of breaking free of the bliss that she was currently in with him made her cringe. They were so happy right now. But with Adam coming into town later today, she knew that she had to break the news sometime soon. She didn't want him, or Chyna for that matter, to find out from someone else.
Lexi pushed her hands back through her hair and let her eyes fall back closed. This was going to be more difficult than she thought. After all the years of deception with Jack, her stomach knotted up immediately at the thought of telling Ramsey this one thing. He would forgive her. She was sure of it. She just couldn't keep herself from freaking out about it. It was an occupational hazard from years of lying.
Lexi bolted upright in bed at that thought. Speaking of years of lying, today was the day. She couldn't believe that it was here. This whole week…this whole year had been leading up to this very moment. As much as she had tried to avoid today from happening, life had caught up with her.
Jack was going to get married today.
Her stomach rolled even more at the thought. Today was the big day. She had managed to get through a bachelor party, afternoon brunch, bachelorette party, and a rehearsal dinner with only a few minor mishaps, but today was going to be much harder than that. Jack would officially be off the market after today.
She had been in such a state of bliss when she had woken up that it hadn't even crossed her mind that the wedding was today. Ramsey had made her completely forget about Jack. She hadn't thought that it was even possible. When they had been together, there had been times when Jack wasn't considered. She knew that he wasn't important to their relationship, but he had always still been there. After all, Jack was marrying his sister. Jack would be Ramsey's brother-in-law. That thought was hard to get rid of after knowing Jack for so long.
Yet here she was the day of his wedding…the day that she had been dreading for a consistent year, and she hadn't even thought about it. She had slept better than she had in months. She had actually slept in. When she had woken up, she felt content and satisfied. She was pleased just to find Ramsey next to her. Not even one measly thought had passed through her head about Jack since her and Ramsey had worked things out.
Lexi smiled letting the tension release from her shoulders. This was a good feeling. She could make it through the day feeling like this. The thought alone that someone could make her happy enough to forget Jack's wedding day was good enough for her.
The only thing she needed to do now was to tell Ramsey the one secret she was carrying around. It was only fair after everything he had told her. Lexi took a deep breath and released it slowly. She could handle this.
As she hopped out of the bed, Ramsey walked back into the room. "What are you doing out of bed? I brought you your coffee," he said holding up a steaming olive green mug.
"Oh thanks. I was just going to check on you," she told him.
"Well food will be done soon. I just knew you would want this first," he said handing the coffee over. She smiled and took a sip. This really was heaven. "Now that you're up, how about we eat in the kitchen?"
"Alright," Lexi said tugging on a pair of Ramsey's boxers and a spare black t-shirt that fell to her knees.
"Sexy," he said kissing her on the mouth.
Lexi followed him downstairs determined to bring up what had happened in New York. She knew he wouldn't be happy, but it wouldn't be fair for her to hold it in. She plopped down into a chair at the dining room table and crossed her legs Indian style. "Hey Ramsey, can we talk?" She hated how cliché she sounded, but she didn't know how else to bring it up.
"Oh God, I left you alone for ten minutes and you want to break up again," he said with a crooked smile. She could see that he was nervous at the statement, since every time they had spoken recently had ended up in a major argument or a breakup. She couldn't blame him. Especially because what she was about to tell him wasn't great news either.
"No no, nothing like that," she quickly amended. She had no intention of breaking up with him. That was the last thing on her mind. She had been so happy this morning that all she had wanted to do was forget the past month, and move on with their lives. She liked how well they worked together, and couldn't imagine giving that up so easily. As long as all of his secrets were out in the open, they could work it out…well after she got this last one out of the way. "I like how things are now so…open…honest."
Ramsey nodded. Lexi wasn't sure if he was just agreeing with whatever she was saying or not. He seemed sincere, and the sex last night had been unbelievable. It really must have taken a weight off of his shoulders to have her know the whole story. "Me too. I shouldn't have hid so much from you. I just didn't know how to tell you everything."
"I understand that," she said thinking of the secret she was about to reveal. There wasn't exactly an easy way to say that she had slept with someone else. Either way he wasn't going to be pleased. She was hoping that the fact that they were back together would deter the majority of the backlash.
"It must have been the same way with Jack," he said hesitantly meeting her eyes.
"Yeah…I suppose," she said after thinking it over. She still hadn't been thinking of Jack. This was a very strange day for her indeed. A second time where she was so lost in Ramsey that she didn't even think of Jack. She couldn't remember that last time this had happened. She was even telling him something that correlated on some level to what had happened with Jack, and he hadn't even crossed her mind.
"So what is it we have to talk about?" he asked more at ease now that he knew that she didn't want to end things all over again. Lexi met his gaze and admired the man standing before her. She hated what she was about to do. She hated to wipe that beautiful smile off of his face…to make him doubt her. She had to do it though. If she didn't do it now, then it could hurt them so much more later. Lexi opened her mouth to tell him.
A knock at the door startled both of them out of the conversation they were about to have. Lexi cursed in her head. She hated whoever was at that door for their terrible timing. She couldn't believe how many times this had happened. Just when she was about to reveal everything to him, she had finally gotten up the courage and picked the time to tell him, someone else interfered. She wished he wouldn't answer the door, but she knew that was out of the question.
Ramsey shrugged. "This can wait?" he asked as he went to answer the door. Lexi groaned hating that she had to wait, but agreed that nothing could be done.
"Hey bitches!" Chyna cried as soon as the door swung open.
Lexi gasped in surprised. Did she say she would hate whoever was on the other side of the door? "Chyna!" she squealed running and hugging her best friend. It felt like an eternity since she had last seen her even though it had only been a week. As her arms circled her tiny frame, Lexi realized just how much she had missed her crazy best friend. "I didn't know when you were getting here."