“Stop. Just stop and listen for a second while I try to explain. I’m just going to flat-out say that I’m emotionally messed-up. I’ve discovered that. And I think I’ve let myself get taken advantage of one too many times because of that. Second, third, fourth chances were in my repertoire. I swore I wasn’t going to give out any more, but then you happened,” Lexi told him.
She glanced out across the full parking lot, trying to collect her thoughts. She knew she was rambling, but he needed to hear it. He needed to know what he was up against.
“I’m giving you a second chance even though I told myself I was done with chances. You fuck up, and you’re done. That’s what I wanted to do when I went back to New York, but I couldn’t. So, prove me right. No more lying.”
“Okay, Lexi,” Ramsey said. He actually looked uncomfortable.
Had she ever seen Ramsey look uncomfortable? She sure as hell couldn’t remember a time when she had.
She hadn’t meant to explode like that, but she hadn’t been able to keep it in. Didn’t he know how much easier this all could be if he would just tell her things? It wasn’t hard to be like, Hey, I’ve invited two people to have lunch with us. She wouldn’t have cared—unless, of course, those people were Bekah, Jack, or Parker. Then, she would care. But she didn’t think he was that stupid.
“Okay then,” she said awkwardly.
Ramsey reached out for her hand and threaded their fingers together. “Hey,” he whispered, pulling her into him. “I didn’t mean to upset you.”
“I know.”
“This is new for me, too. If we want this to work, I know we both have to put in the effort in the relationship. I’m willing to work on it, and I’ll listen when you call me out when I fuck up…like you just did.”
Lexi giggled. “Yeah, I guess I overreacted a bit.”
“You’re just being the adorable woman I fell in love with. I wouldn’t want you any other way.”
He brought her hand up to his lips and kissed her knuckles. Lexi smiled and glanced away from his entrancing green eyes.
How did he always wash the anger right out of her like that?
“I’m going to try your everything route,” Ramsey told her. He turned her chin, so she was staring up at him again. “I’m going to tell you everything until it’s so annoying that you’ll beg me to stop.”
“I don’t think I’d ever beg you to stop,” she said huskily.
Ramsey chuckled and shook his head. “Right now, I want to take you back to my apartment and fuck you into tomorrow. I think I’ll start with you on top and then from behind and then maybe the stairs…”
Lexi flushed all over, her body heating at his words.
“And then, I think I’m going to clean you up in the shower and not keep my hands to myself,” he murmured into her ear.
“Okay, okay!” Lexi took a few stutter steps backward and cleared her throat. “Maybe…maybe not everything.”
Ramsey laughed boisterously. “You’re already asking me to stop!”
“You know what I mean. I can’t be turned-on all the time when we’re together.”
Ramsey arched an eyebrow, and with that one look, he asked, Why not?
“I just want you to tell me everything that you might think about keeping from me. After yesterday, I’m pretty sure that has nothing to do with our sex life.”
“All right, Lexi,” he said, closing the distance between them again. “I’ll do whatever I can to make this right.”
“We can start with, who is meeting us for lunch?” She stared up into his handsome face and sighed.
She sure hoped he meant what he had said. She couldn’t go through this all over again. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.
“I meant for it to be a surprise, but I see that surprises are going to be…difficult.”
That was one word for it.
“I’ve invited my new development team for the medical wing of Bridges.” He scratched the back of his head in that cute way she had grown accustomed to. “I, uh…thought you’d want to meet who I’ll be working with for the next year as we build and staff the new wing.”
Fuck. Of course, he was trying to do something sweet for her. Well, as long as that team doesn’t include Parker.
“That…sounds nice,” Lexi said.
“I should have told you. No more surprises from now on.”
“You’re so funny.” Lexi rolled her eyes.
“Okay, okay. I’ll be more attentive to your feelings,” he amended with a kiss to her lips. “Can we go back inside now?”
“Yes.” She felt sheepish for blowing up on him like that, but she was glad that she had stood her ground. She refused to let her cycle continue.
They walked back up to the front of the restaurant just as her name was being called. They were ushered inside to a big red booth. Ramsey took a seat after Lexi, and she held his hand as they ordered drinks and waited for his new business associates. She wasn’t sure what to expect or why he was springing all of this on her so quickly. They had just gotten back together, and they weren’t even official yet or anything. While she was glad that he wanted her to know everything happening in his life, she wasn’t sure how ready she was for the next big step.
“They should be here any minute,” Ramsey said with a megawatt smile for her.
“So, what does the development team do exactly?”
“They mostly make sure we get the project off the ground in the time that we desire. Since my father really wants this medical wing up and running and fully functional within the year, he hired a private company to do a lot of the logistical work.”
Lexi’s mouth popped open. “Within the year? I thought that you didn’t even think this was ever going to get off the ground.”
Ramsey sighed. “My father called me this morning, and after he finished lecturing me about walking out of Bekah’s wedding, he let me know about hiring this new team.”
“When did you have time for a phone call?” Lexi asked.
She was seriously going to have to break him of the habit of hiding things. They had been sleeping together all day and all morning. There had barely been enough time for her to sleep, let alone think of checking her email.
“I woke up before you did.” He shrugged. “Anyway, he wanted me to speak with them this morning, but I told him I wouldn’t be available. I don’t think he’s going to like the discretion he put into my contract.”
Lexi giggled. “Probably not.”
“He said it had to be today though since the pair just flew in from New York.”
“Your dad hired people from New York for this?” Lexi asked, impressed.
“He wanted the best. That shouldn’t surprise anyone. So, yeah, here we are. I could have waited to meet them after you flew back home, but since they’re just here to consult this week, I thought I would start the process as soon as possible. Plus, I really want you to be involved in this, Lexi. I don’t want you to feel like you’re on the outside of anything I’m doing. Since I’m working with…Parker, I don’t want you to think this will mean anything different for us,” Ramsey told her, staring deep into her eyes for emphasis.
She sure hoped he was right.
“So, are we okay? I can include you on all of the planning now? After all, this was all for you.”
“Yes,” Lexi murmured. “I want to be involved. It’ll take some getting used to, but I want to be there for you.”
“Good.” Ramsey brought his lips to hers once more.
Then, drinks were placed before them.
“Are y’all still waiting for two more?” the perky blonde asked, leaning her hip against the table.
“Yes, they should be here any minute. Thank you,” Ramsey said dismissively. “Oh, I would guess that’s them.”
Ramsey pointed out a girl who walked in, wearing a black pantsuit with a pink blouse. Lexi couldn’t believe that the girl could wear black pants and a jacket in this weather. It certainly wasn’t cool enough back home, but here, it was atrocious. She was pretty and about average height without her heels, and she had super straight blonde hair. Lexi didn’t know how the humidity wasn’t making it frizzy. She contemplated asking the blonde for the secret.