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“Now, darling”: MYWAR, p. 309.

“a sense of [emotional] deadness”: JD, pp. 364–65.

her allegiance to Frank was difficult for him: JD, p. 367.

“if the ability to think of people”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 319.

“You will always be a sexual

being”: JD, p. 352.

“You have no equals at any age”: JD, p. 371.

“happiness of a kind I had never known before”: JD, p. 358.

recover her reason: MYWAR, p. 299.

“She’s very American looking”: MYWAR, p. 291.

“What is magnificent”: MYWAR, p. 316.

volunteered as artist’s models: Author interviews with JMB, March 23, 2004, and Don Ventura, March 19, 2004.

assuming that she was supposed to keep her legs crossed: 100 Voices, Don Ventura, apparently referring to the Tonight Show Starring Johnny Carson broadcast on August 11, 1967, p. 244.

“When you’re with Patrecia”: JD, p. 302.

“I hated the calculations”: MYWAR, p. 315.

“I cannot stand people with ‘acts’”: TPOARC, RPJ, January 30, 1968, p. 283.

She was disturbed by their friendship: TPOARC, RPJ, February 14, 1968, p. 287.

“man-worship”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 326.

“When, if not now?”: MYWAR, p. 299.

“We don’t want people to think”: MYWAR, p. 313. In 1966, Larry Scott left New York for California. Almost three years passed before he learned of his wife’s affair with NB. According to Iris Bell, who became friendly with Scott in Los Angeles, until then he ruminated about his broken marriage. He told Bell that “he would go off on his business trips. Then he would come back [to New York] and not understand what was going on in his marriage.” After one such trip, “he brought back a necklace for Patrecia and made a sexual overture. She was very cold. He talked to NB about that. NB said, ‘Well that’s how women are. You have to give her time to get back into the same mood with you,’” Bell recalled. “Larry was telling me about how much he loved Patrecia and how he had no understanding of why his marriage had fallen apart. It wasn’t until much later that I realized that while NB was talking to Larry this way, he was having an affair with Patrecia. Larry said that NB was never able to help him understand why his marriage fell apart.” At least until 1967, Scott displayed separate framed photographs of his ex-wife and of NB in the bedroom of his Los Angeles apartment. He learned about the affair between NB and Patrecia in the fall of 1968. He died in the 1990s (author interview with Iris Bell, March 8, 2004, and author correspondence with Al Ramrus, March 4, 2007).

“We’re just incompatible”: MYWAR, p. 313.

he could barely tolerate the strain: JD, p. 359.

Once separated and living apart: Author correspondence with BB, June 27, 2008.

when he begged for time: TPOAR, p. 336.

The Psychology of Self-Esteem: This would be published, sans introduction, in 1969, after AR had broken with him, under the auspices of a publishing company founded for this purpose by Objectivist Ed Nash. The book has never been out of print.

a work of genius: JD, p. 370.

“Just wait until [Ayn] writes the introduction”: “The Liberty Interview: Barbara Branden,” p. 57. In 1996, NB told an interviewer about the introduction, which was never written: “I believe that was owed me, after all the work I had done fighting for her work and all the compliments she had paid my book” (“Interview with Nathaniel Branden,” p. 7).

four hundred thousand dollars: Ayn Rand, “To Whom It May Concern,” The Objectivist, May 1968 issue (published October 1968), p. 450.

affordable on paper: A year later the NBI business manager Wilfred Schwartz was able to sell the lease to a new tenant for a premium of $55,000 (author correspondence with BB, June 27, 2008).

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Rand had told Nathaniel not to bother her: Author correspondence with BB, September 17, 2008.

was only mildly put out: “To Whom It May Concern,” p. 452.

“I felt we were really in trouble”: Unpublished taped interview with Barbara Weiss, conducted by BB, September 25, 1983.

“Patrecia’s involvement”: JD, p. 370.

expected it to open: TPOAR, p. 342.

considered Patrecia: Files from 1967–68 on NBI Theater, Inc., and on production budgets, schedules, etc., for the aborted production of BB’s adaptation of TF, courtesy of MSC; author correspondence with BB, June 27, 2008.

FIFTEEN: EITHER/OR (THE BREAK): 1967–1968

“Pity for the guilty”: Rand, The Romantic Manifesto, p. 131.

a book-length essay: Ayn Rand, Introduction to Objectivist Epistemology, The Objectivist, July 1966 to February 1967; republished as a paperback original by the Objectivist Press in June 1967. An expanded paperback edition is available from Plume.

Never among her popular works: As of mid-2008, the paperback edition had sold about 146,000 copies, according to ARI.

352n. In Ayn Rand’s view: “Introduction to Objectivist Epistemology,” part 1, The Objectivist, July 1966, p. 103.

and a fiery, farsighted speech:“The Wreckage of the Consensus,” April and May 1967, reprinted in The Objectivist, April 1967, pp. 241–45, 257–64.

352 Marital counseling having ended: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 327. In notes to herself, AR recalled that it was NB who asked for the “psychotherapy” she provided; TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 327. BB recalled that the sessions were an example of AR’s increasingly compulsive tendency to “psychologize;” “It’s a Dirty Job, But …”

placed their active relationship on hold: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 327.

He rationalized, improvised: TPOAR, p. 338.

he knew “years ago”: TPOARC, RPJ, November 27, 1967, p. 243.

“I feel real fear”: TPOARC, RPJ, November 27, 1967, p. 241.

Also, although he said he wanted: TPOARC, RPJ, February 14, 1968, p. 287.

“business, theatrical business”: TPOARC, RPJ, November 27, 1967, p. 242.

“in a man of Branden’s rationality”: TPOARC, RPJ, November 27, 1967, p. 241.