relied on a small group of therapists: Author interview with Roger J. Callahan, November 4, 2003.
an investor: Partnership agreement, courtesy of MSC.
surrendered his license: Ellen Plasil, Therapist (New York: St. Martin’s, 1985), p. 221.
“There were those who were extremely hypocritical”: Author interview with Don Ventura, March 19, 2004.
“unreal” and “utterly impossible”: Albert Ellis, Is Objectivism a Religion? (New York: Institute for Rational Living Press, 1968), p. 288.
“Am I unreal?”: MYWAR, p. 317.
later described Rand: Author interview with Albert Ellis, September 12, 2003.
he published a short book: The book was Is Objectivism a Religion?
“the excess of a virtue”: BB to Barbara Weiss; taped, unpublished interview with Weiss conducted by BB, September 25, 1983.
“One of the most astonishing phenomena”: “A Strange Kind of Simplicity,” p. 8.
Man Also Rises: AR, p. 101.
“He gave me, in the hours of my own days”: Introduction to the twenty-fifth-anniversary edition of TF, p. viii.
“physical alienation”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 324.
The letter itself appears: Author interview with NB, April 3, 2008.
thought it was as diplomatic: TPOAR, p. 340.
“You bastard!”: TPOAR, p. 340.
“Face twisted in hatred”: MYWAR, p. 334.
“Everyone else profits from my
ideas”: TPOAR, p. 341.
His paper was the worst: TPOARC, RPJ, November 27, 1967, p. 244.
rebuffed the offer as offensive: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 317.
365 accused him of immorality: TPOAR, p. 341.
“I can’t predict”: TPOAR, p. 341.
“pretentious, presumptuous”: TPOARC, RPJ, January 30, 1968, p. 283.
“girl next door”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 12, 1968, p. 369.
“Appalled by Ayn’s terms”: TPOAR, p. 342.
Rand expressed hope: TPOAR, p. 342.
But if he didn’t, she would ruin him: MYWAR, p. 334.
“NB’s mind worked excellently”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 12, 1968, p. 367.
gave Barbara the assignment: TPOARC, RPJ, July 13, 1968, p. 378.
“I do believe”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1967, pp. 324–25.
“filthy soul”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 8, 1968, p. 351.
At times, she wept in grief: MYWAR, p. 337.
a fascinating conjecture: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 337.
“ought” to do: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 341.
“at least to the extent”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 322.
She was too much for Nathaniel Branden: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 323.
Since she was also the mirror: TPOARC, RPJ, July 8, 1968, p. 361.
“a real Objectivist hero and
creative genius”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 324.
“But I am too much for the role-playing imitation”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 323.
The first was the publication: TPOARC, RPJ, March 20, 1968, p. 295.
“our relationship became”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 323.
The second turning point: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 325.
“wheeling-dealing” … “intangible pleasure”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, pp. 312, 339.
general rubric of role-playing: TPOARC, RPJ, March 20, 1968, p. 295.
Inexplicably, she didn’t question: TPOARC, RPJ, January 30, 1968, pp. 280–81.
“notary public” souclass="underline" TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 328.
“a sexual urge”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 8, 1968, p. 351.
In mid-July: MYWAR, p. 339; TPOAR, p. 342.
“I know what this must mean to you”: TPOAR, p. 342.
So did all communication with Nathanieclass="underline" MYWAR, p. 341.
cut Branden out of her wilclass="underline" “Affidavit of Services,” Probate Proceedings, Will of Alice O’Connor, a.k.a. Ayn Rand, New York County Surrogates Court, November 16, 1983, p. 2.
“I intend you to be my heir”: TPOAR, p. 343.
“afraid to say it”: Author interview with JMB and Dr. Allan Blumenthal, March 3, 2004.
“How could [Ayn] have failed”: TPOAR, p. 344.
“Get him down here”: TPOAR, pp. 345–46.
backstairs romance: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 344.
“even if I were eighty years old”: Author interview with NB, August 10, 2004. That AR was sexually without age appears originally to have been his idea, as when he told her, “You will always be a sexual being” and “You have no equals at any age;” TPOAR, p. 346.
371 As she spoke, her eyes were glaring: TPOAR, p. 346.
more effectively than her enemies: MYWAR, p. 343.
“If you have an ounce of morality”: MYWAR, p. 345; TPOAR, p. 347; also, cited in an unpublished letter from Florence Hirschfeld to AR, early 1969, courtesy of Florence Hirschfeld.
“I believe that he has been attempting to cure himself”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, pp. 347–48.
“To say ‘I love you’ “: TF, p. 388.
out of weakness: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 320.
the period that followed: The final confrontation with NB took place three days before the opening of the 1968 Democratic National Convention in Chicago and as Soviet Russia began to crush the Prague Spring movement for individual liberty in Czechoslovakia.
She gave no hint of her sexual history: TPOAR, p. 349.
“I have broken with Nathan”: OHP, Hank and Erika Holzer, February 9, 2006.