“Excuse me,” he said as he set her down on her feet, slowly. Without another word, he turned and walked away, not looking back once. If he had turned around, he’d have noticed the panic flare in Natalie’s eyes. He would have noticed how she immediately closed herself off.
Sure, he felt the eyes of all the adults in the room on him. Screw it! He didn’t care. It was time to drink an ice-cold beer, and then maybe he’d kick his own ass for acting like such a damn fool.
chapter
8
Natalie snuck away from the gym. Parents were beginning to arrive to pick up their children, and she couldn’t face them right now. She had to get away from here, had to get away from the eyes that she knew were upon her.
Not once in her life had she shared a kiss with a man in a public place—not that she’d shared many kisses in her twenty-three years, but she had shared a few. But those had been nothing to prepare her for the feelings assailing her body from the simple touch of Hawk’s lips on hers.
Although almost in a daze, she made it to her classroom. She put on her new thick coat and slipped on her boots. The walk home took only about ten minutes, but it would be enough to clear the cobwebs from her head.
Once outside, she cringed when she saw Maggie approaching her. The woman made eye contact and there was no possible way to get out of this mess. So, with her heart pounding, and snow falling down upon her, Natalie waited for Hawk’s mother to approach. She could only hope the woman hadn’t witnessed the kiss. But her luck was never that good.
“Are you leaving already, Natalie?” Maggie’s smile was sweet and inscrutable.
“Yes. I have to get my lesson plan ready for tomorrow.” Natalie answered Maggie’s smile by pasting on the most convincing one she could manage.
“I bet you’re so overwhelmed right now. A new teaching job, and then thrown into doing this pageant at the same time. You poor thing.”
Natalie’s shoulders relaxed. Maggie might not have seen the kiss. Thank goodness! “Yes, it’s a bit overwhelming, but it’s always much nicer to be busy than to have too much time on my hands.”
“That’s always been how I feel. How long will the lesson plan take?”
It was an innocent question, one that didn’t raise any suspicions for Natalie, so she answered honestly. “Only about an hour or so, but I really need to go to the grocery store, too. I tend to forget to shop until I’m out of just about everything, and a person can only live on ramen noodles and microwave mac and cheese for so long.” She didn’t add that her other staples were frozen pizza and corn dogs. Maggie was the type of woman to be horrified by that sad fact.
“Oh, darling. You can’t eat like that. I insist you come to my place for dinner tonight,” Maggie told her.
Natalie’s anxiety instantly reappeared. “I promise you I wasn’t fishing for a dinner invitation.”
“Of course not, dear. But I won’t take no for an answer. I’d be hurt if you refused.”
“But . . .” Natalie tried to think quickly. Yes! She had it! “I don’t have a car,” she nearly shouted.
“That’s no problem at all,” Maggie said as she took out her cell phone. “Hawk, darling. Where did you disappear to?” Maggie was silent for a moment as she listened to her son. “Perfect. I need you to stop by Natalie’s house in one hour and pick her up. She’s coming over for dinner and doesn’t have transportation.” Silence again and then, “Thank you, son. I’ll see you in a little while.”
Maggie hung up and gave Natalie a big grin. “It’s all settled, then. Hawk will pick you up. We’re having a nice big pot roast. See you tonight.”
Maggie headed away, leaving Natalie standing there with her mouth gaping. The one person she’d wanted to avoid for the next century was now going to be showing up on her front porch in an hour. Tears threatened, but Natalie wouldn’t cave in to them.
This was just another bump in the road. No big deal. After all, it was only a little kiss. From what she’d heard about Hawk from the other teachers, he was quite the playboy, and kissing was almost a pastime for him.
He’d probably forgotten all about it by now. That’s what kept her going as she trudged home and slipped inside. No lesson plan was made as she sat on her couch and watched the clock, the hands seeming to move so much quicker than normal.
When the doorbell rang exactly on time, her heart gave a little lurch, and she was still no closer to figuring out what she was going to say to Hawk. Keep it light. She could do this.
Of course, that all flew out the window the second she opened her door and found Hawk leaning against her rail, his cheeks slightly flushed from the cold, his dark eyes carrying a sparkle in them, and his lips instantly turning up when she caught his eye. Before she could utter a single word, he opened his mouth.
“I decided I liked that kiss a whole hell of a lot. I’ve also decided I’m not going to fight the attraction I feel for you. If I thought you didn’t feel the same way, I’d back off, but that small hitch in your breath and that look in your eyes tell me there’s something between us, something strong. And I want to explore it further.”
The way he spoke was casual, as if they were discussing nothing more significant than what was for dinner. But the look he shot her was anything but casual. Hunger burned inside her, and Natalie knew she was in serious trouble.
“I think this is a very bad idea, Hawk,” she whispered.
He took a step closer, and for the life of her, she couldn’t back away like she needed to.
“You know, all the best things in life happen because of bad ideas,” he said, his words a promise that sent a shudder right through her.
“We don’t know each other.”
“No one knows each other at first. Finding out all of the things that make you tick—that’s where the fun comes in.” He reached out a hand and cupped her cheek.
“The teachers here love to gossip, Hawk. Really love to gossip.”
“Aw, heck, Natalie. Don’t you want to know me for yourself?” he countered.
“It’s just that you’re a popular topic around the school. Every eligible woman in Sterling would love to be the one to wear your wedding ring.” Then a slight smile tilted her lips. “Well, to be fair, you’re neck and neck with the Whitman men.”
“Oh, honey, I’m much better than any of the Whitman boys,” he said with a laugh.
“You and the Whitmans were described to me as royalty in this small town. There’s been a lot said about none of you settling down, but even more said about your character and how you love your family and neighbors. I think this could be too complicated. I’m not interested in settling down.”
“Good. Because I’m not ready to settle down, either. But there’s nothing wrong with taking a beautiful woman out. There don’t have to be any expectations.”
“Well, I also heard you don’t date women in your hometown.” She was trying desperately to stand firm, but failing epically.
“You’re not from here, so we’re okay.”
“I think we’re far from okay, Hawk.
But he wrapped an arm around her and tugged her close.
“I have the remedy for that,” he told her, as he bent forward and kissed her for the second time. Natalie didn’t even try to pretend she didn’t want it. Maybe it would be for the best if she just held on and enjoyed the ride.
chapter
9
Natalie had ended up playing Othello with Hawk until about midnight. Then he’d taken her home, given her a scorching kiss on her front porch, and gone away with only a wave. She hadn’t heard from him for the next two days. Was this his idea of keeping it casual?
She hated that she felt unsure about herself, hated that she was even thinking about Hawk as much as she was, and hated that her plans seemed to be coming unraveled. It was too soon. Entering into a serious relationship was way down on her checklist, and she couldn’t stray from that list. Not that Hawk wanted to get serious. He’d even said that. So she was worrying for nothing, right? Right!