“Thanks. I’ll be here early to tend the animals, and then we’ll leave around ten?”
“Sure.”
West wanted to come up with more to talk about, to stay, linger over breakfast, take her upstairs and make love to her the way he had the day before. He’d hardly been able to sleep last night, he’d been so tormented by memories of her body.
Being with her felt like where he belonged, and the farther he was away from her, the more unsettled he seemed to feel.
But he needed to be at to his dad’s house. His mother was under more strain than she’d been willing to admit, and he didn’t like leaving her alone with his father for long.
“Well,” he said, ending their awkward silence. “I’d better get going.”
They said their goodbyes, and he left. Once at his dad’s, he found his mother looking even more tense than she had the day before.
She was in the front yard, her shirt stained with what looked like orange juice, attempting to wind up the garden hose.
“What’s going on?”
“After your father flung his juice at me over breakfast, he came out here and claimed he needed to wash the car. All he did was spray the cat with the hose.”
“Where is he now?”
“Inside, listening to the damn radio again.”
Damn? His mother had said damn? She never used profanity.
Ever.
“Mom, why don’t you take a break and let me handle this for a while.”
“I’m fine,” she said, sounding anything but.
“Why did he throw his drink at you?”
“Because I told him we’re divorced.”
West sighed. “Do you think it’s a good thing that you’re here, and he thinks you’re still his wife?”
“What can it hurt?”
“You, for one.”
“I said I’m fine. Now leave it alone, West.”
He took a step back, reeling at her tone. He felt five years old again, being chastised for breaking the Tiffany lamp that she’d inherited from her grandmother.
“Mom, tell me the truth. Why are you putting up with all this?”
West started helping her wind up the garden hose, but she stopped and looked at him, her expression grimmer than ever.
“You’ll understand someday, when you look back over your life and see that you’ve been married to someone most of your adult years.”
“You’re not married to him anymore.”
She sighed and took the wound up hose from him, then carried it to the edge of the house and hung it where it belonged. When she returned, she placed a hand on his arm. “This must be confusing for you, me here with your father.”
“This isn’t about me.”
But maybe it was, a little bit. He couldn’t deny that it felt weird, having his mother and father together again.
“You’re right, it isn’t, and I hope you’ll understand that I feel I need to help your father.”
“He’s getting worse, Mom. Can’t you see that?”
She frowned, and he knew she’d seen it, too. “I can’t let your father be cared for by strangers,” she said, her voice growing unsteady. “And if you were the kind of man your father and I raised you to be, you wouldn’t, either.”
His mother rarely lost her temper, and she insulted people even less frequently. Her words stung him like a slap.
Before he could respond, she turned on her heel and marched into the house.
He stared after her, weighing his options. In the end, he went inside because he had to make sure his father wasn’t hurling things at her or hitting her. And really, he didn’t have anywhere else to go.
THE NEXT DAY, West was relieved to get away from his parents’ weird dynamic and set off to the farm again. He went about the morning chores with even more relish than usual, and when he was done, he had breakfast with Soleil. Then the two of them rode together to the nursing home on the far edge of Promise.
“Are your siblings willing to help at all with your dad’s care?” Soleil asked as they passed the sign for the home.
“Both of my brothers are refusing to deal with the situation. They think things are okay as they are, with Dad chasing away his caregivers. And now that Mom has stepped in, I don’t see how I can convince them that they should be anything but complacent.”
“Does your mom like to being the martyr?”
West had never thought of it that way. There wasn’t any other way to explain her actions now. Loyalty should only go so far.
He turned the car into the nursing home parking lot and found a spot near the door. No, not a nursing home, the sign on the front of the building reminded him. A residential-care facility. Could they make it any more sterile sounding?
He sighed. “This is supposed to be the best place in the area,” he said, sounding even less enthusiastic than he felt.
“I did an internship that involved visiting nursing homes while I was working toward my master’s in social work. I know a few things to look for, to see if they’re a good facility, I mean.”
West sighed, his stomach twisting up at the thought of putting his dad in this place.
This was not a fitting setting for the last years of a great man’s life, or at least it didn’t look like it judging by the squat stucco structure. The building seemed nice enough, spread out before them like a ranch house on steroids. The lawn and trees were carefully groomed, dotted with benches where residents could sit and enjoy the scenery. Except no one was outdoors, and everything was eerily still, as if death hovered nearby, waiting to claim its next victim.
“Come on,” Soleil said, placing a hand on his thigh to shake him out of his stupor. “We’re here. We may as well get out of the car and see what it’s like in there.”
West blinked, looked down at her hand, then up at her. She gave him an encouraging smile.
“If we sit here much longer,” she said, “we’re the ones who’re going to be spending our golden years here, not your dad.”
He was suddenly overcome with gratitude that she’d agreed to come with him. It had been a long time since he’d had someone in his life he could rely on in tough times, and he’d never felt about one of those people how he felt about Soleil, the woman who was carrying his child.
Okay, this wasn’t exactly the time to let his thoughts go off in that direction.
He got out. When they entered the building, a scent of air freshener mingled with urine and cafeteria food assaulted them, and West had to force himself not to turn and walk out the door. To the right was a reception desk, where a blond woman had her head bent over some work, and to the left was a lobby and sitting area, where a television squawked, its volume up a little too high, to accommodate the hard of hearing, presumably.
Elderly residents in various phases of immobility were scattered about, arranged either facing the TV or facing the large picture window that looked out on the parking lot. A few people, not in wheelchairs, had clearly gotten to the lobby by their own means or with the assistance of walkers. These would be his dad’s peers.
West approached the reception desk, but Soleil spoke for him.
“Hi,” she said. “We’re here to take a tour of the facility.”
West looked around as she continued talking to the receptionist. His gaze landed on a man sitting with his back to the rest of the people in the room. He was the only person not looking at the TV or out the window. Instead, he was staring somewhat vacantly at West, as if he recognized him but couldn’t quite place him.
“Hi,” West said, taking a few tentative steps closer. “Do I know you?”
“You’re Michael,” the man said. “My great-grandson, right?”
This man was probably twenty years older than West’s father, at least. In fact, most of the people here looked ancient compared to the General. It was some kind of cruel joke that his mind was failing him so early, while his body was still relatively strong and healthy.
West sat next to the man. He still had a bit of something white and crusty on his lower lip and chin, probably from breakfast, and up close, he smelled as if he could use a bath.