“It’s Nance,” she said.
“Trant’s?” he answered. “To do with these valves?”
“No, Nance,” she said. “Is it convenient to speak?”
“I say, I’m sorry. Go ahead.”
“I know you’re very busy,” she began, “but I’m so worried. The fact is, I’ve had bad news from Redham.”
“Redham?” he enquired.
“Don’t tell me you’ve put us all away out of mind. My dad of course. Mr Grant. Art, you remember Arthur Middlewitch, now, don’t you, he’s heard somewhere my dad is very ill.”
“Sorry to learn that,” he said.
“Then it’s news to you, is it? But you see I can’t very well go down there myself as things are between dad and me. I was wondering if you’d mind dropping in on them some time. Just to set my nerves at rest.”
“Why sure,” he said. “What’s happened?”
“I’m not certain. From all I can make out conditions are properly topsy turvy with them at the moment. I’d be so grateful, Charley. And they’d appreciate a visit from you.”
“Glad to go,” he replied. “How are you keeping?”
“I thought you’d forgotten about me.”
“I have not. Tell you what. I’ll call in there, then I’ll come round and give you a report.”
“That’s very sweet,” she gravely said. “Drop in for a cup of tea.” She rang off. He lingered over the last phrase, whether she wasn’t having him on perhaps. But she sounded really worried. So next Sunday he took a train out to Redham.
When he rang the door bell Mrs Grant answered.
“Why Charley,” she said. She kissed him. She looked just the same.
“Come into the front garden a minute,” she went on. “You’ll excuse the fallen leaves, but now father’s laid up of course he can’t see to them.”
Charley was dumbfounded. So he kept silent. Mrs Grant at once began to cry, softly.
“So you’re back safe,” she said between her tears. “It makes me think of my darling Rose.” At this Charley’s eyes immediately smarted, mostly from self pity. For this was the first time he’d had a real welcome back.
“My darling Rose,” she repeated, quite naturally. “You mustn’t mind. It brings the old days home to me,” she said.
He did not know if he should mention his more recent visits. He thought better not, and once more took refuge in silence. But he kept hold of her hand, as though it was they who had been lovers.
“I thought I’d never get over it,” Mrs Grant began again. “Oh, and it must have hurt you, too,” she said. “It’s made me selfish.
“I couldn’t go to the funeral,” she went on, “no, I wasn’t well enough. I haven’t been well since it happened. Now father’s very bad. Oh dear. Yes, I’ll tell you about that in a minute. But I haven’t asked after you yet, have I? I don’t know what you’ll think of me. Well, you’re back now aren’t you, Charley Barley?”
This calling him by his old name was almost too much for the man. He had a lump in his throat and had to swallow several times, so that he could not answer.
She gave his hand a squeeze. “Was it very bad?” she asked in just the voice his mother had used, dead these many years, and whom he never thought of, after the doctor put those stitches in his cut. This was much worse. He had to turn away. Yet he kept control of himself. Perhaps she noticed, for she continued,
“Don’t you pay attention. But it is kind to come and visit us old folks. The dreadful part is that father’s so ill just now. He’s had a stroke. He’s paralysed all down his right side, I’m afraid. He’s quite conscious, which is the terrible thing, because he’s lost the power of speech.”
“That’s bad,” Charley said, recovering.
“I’m afraid he’s done,” Mrs Grant said, and silently cried some more. “Sometimes I thank providence Rose is not here to see him.”
“She never liked illness,” Mr Summers tried to comfort her.
“Oh this would have been different,” Mrs Grant softly objected. “She would be sitting up all night with her father if she was anywhere she could get to him. She’d never allow to have it mentioned about strangers, could she? But you were different. You remember when you had mumps so bad just before she married. Why, we had to have the doctor in to tell her it wasn’t as serious as all that.”
“I never knew,” Charley muttered, examining in himself what he still felt for Rose, and finding nothing much.
“I often wish she had married you after all,” she said, squeezing his hand again.
“There it is,” Charley said. He had to be careful not to show he no longer cared about Rose. There was a silence.
“And how have you been?” he asked, because it frightened him that she should not remember his previous visit.
“Oh I’ve not been at all well,” she replied. “But now this has happened to father, of course I’ve no time for my small bothers, have I? Charley, could I ask you something?”
“Why, go ahead.”
“I’ve a little matter nagging me. There’s a person should learn about Gerald. It’s very awkward but I can’t get in touch with them direct. They’re a sort of relative. They should come down really.”
“Who’s that?” Charley asked, knowing full well, but anxious, for Rose’s sake, to hear it from the old lady herself. Dreadfully anxious, he realized he was.
“A Mrs Phil. White,” she replied. “Now, mind, father doesn’t know I know about her, as a matter of fact,” Mrs Grant went on. “But I’ve been in touch on and off with her mother all these years. It’s one of those little misunderstandings that occur in family life,” she explained, while Charley felt surge all over him an exquisite relief. He felt this was the final confirmation that Rose was truly dead, that Nance was a real person.
“She isn’t Rose,” he brought out in a low voice, forgetting himself.
“Then you’ve known all along,” Mrs Grant said gently, missing what he had said.
“Only just recently,” he answered, still quite vague, still at cross purposes.
“There’s nothing to it,” she said, to soften his embarrassment, as she thought. “It was just one of those things. I’ll tell you. I wasn’t at all in good health soon after we married, and he met this Mrs Whitmore with someone I hope you’ll never come across, for she’s a wicked woman, Mrs Frazier the name is. Then they had this girl. Oh now I see.” As, at last, she had done. “You noticed the resemblance?”
He could find nothing to say. He just looked at her, and blushed.
“Oh Charley,” she gently said.
He stood there.
“Why, they were not at all alike, really,” she went on. From her voice he could tell that she was not blaming him.
“But how terrible for you to come back to that,” she wondered aloud. “Whoever put you on to her?”
“It was Mr Grant,” he blurted, to excuse himself.
“That was cruel,” she agreed. “Yet you mustn’t lay blame, Charley. You know, poor dear, she lost her husband? Father was ever so worried. Oh, he thought I was in ignorance, but you can’t live all those years with a man without you learn. And I didn’t say anything to let on. Now he’s so ill, the doctor thinks he can never get better, and there’s the question of the little allowance he used to give. Then she should say goodbye, as well.” Her tears began to come faster.
“She’d never take money from me,” he objected, hardly knowing what he was saying.
“Whoever asked her to?” she explained. “Her coming down here is what should be arranged. She should. That’s the only right thing, before it’s too late. It’s settled then. I knew I could rely on you, Charley. Now perhaps you’d like to see him.” She began to dab a handkerchief at her round face. “Remember, he’ll be able to hear every bit we speak,” she warned, as she led the way into the house, and up the stairs.