“I love him.”
Dad sits down and turns everything over in his mind for at least ten minutes. I wait patiently for his next question, his next challenge. He turns in his chair and looks out the window into the back garden. It’s my mother’s pride and joy, even though she does none of the gardening herself. Rather she hires a team of gardeners and sits on a chair and yells at them. Like a queen with her subjects.
“I don’t know what to say, Saige.”
“I know. I’m sorry.” There’s nothing else I can say, really.
“I thought you told me everything,” he whispers, and I see that he’s crying again, but the tears fall silently down his face and onto his shirt.
“I didn’t mean to hurt you,” I say, wiping away my own tears. This has been quite a day for revelations. “I hated lying to you. It made me sick.”
He shakes his head slowly and then wipes his eyes with both hands.
“I never should have had you take that job. This is my fault.” That’s definitely not true.
“We would have met anyway,” I say. “Because of Lizzy.”
He nods, as if he’d forgotten about that particular connection.
“I just wish it hadn’t happened this way.”
Now that is something we can agree on.
“I think that thought every single day. But I don’t regret it did. Because I love him and I love my sister. I always wanted a family. One who loved me back.” Besides him.
“I love you,” he says. “I thought that would be enough.” I get up and give him another hug.
“It is enough. You’ve always been enough. But I’m a woman now. I need other kinds of love in my life.” He stares into my eyes and smiles, just a little bit.
He runs his hands through my hair.
“I still see you as a little girl sometimes. Running around and making your mother mad for getting dirt on your dress.”
“But I’m not that little girl anymore.” He sighs.
“I know, I know.”
My phone rings and I pull it out of my back pocket. It’s Cash.
“Who is it?” Dad asks.
“Um, Lo. I’m just going to go to my room to talk to her,” I say, heading toward the door. It’s another lie, but a little one.
Dad lets me leave and I shut the door to his office behind me. I pick up the call before it flips over to voicemail.
“Hello?” I say.
“Hello, Saige Beaumont,” he says and his tone is the same. As if he’s laughing at a joke someone just told him.
“What can I do for you?” I ask as I walk up the stairs.
“Well, now, why would I need something? Maybe I’m just calling to chat,” he says and I roll my eyes as I walk into my bedroom and lock the door behind me.
“Yeah, okay,” I say, my voice dripping with sarcasm.
“Fine, fine. I was wondering if you had seen Sylas today.”
“Why?” I ask. That makes him laugh.
“I don’t have ulterior motives, I promise. I was just waiting to hear from him about something and I thought I would cover all my bases and go ahead and ask you.” I’m still suspicious. Something doesn’t feel right.
“What are you waiting to hear from him about?” I ask, sitting on the edge of my bed. I really hate this room. One of these days I’m going to pay a crew to redecorate it and give my mother a heart attack.
“Nice try.”
“It was worth a shot.” There’s a beat of silence and I wait for him to say goodbye and hang up. But he doesn’t.
“Anything else?” I ask.
“No, nothing, nothing.”
“Okayyyyy,” I say, but he still doesn’t hang up. “This is fun, but I have things to do so unless you have something else you want to talk to me about…”
“No, no. Just if you see him, tell him to call me.” Oh, there’s definitely more to it than that.
“I will,” I say.
“Goodbye, Saige Beaumont.”
“Bye, Cash,” I say, hanging up and wondering what the hell that was.
I go back downstairs and Dad isn’t in the office. I search around and see him in the garden. The French doors that lead outside from the kitchen are wide open, the muggy summer air seeping into the house and battling for dominance with the air conditioner.
He’s walking through the rows of rosebushes, his hands clasped behind his back.
“Hey,” I say, getting his attention. He turns and gives me a tight smile.
“Everything okay with Lo?” he asks.
“Yup,” I say, nodding. It would be way too complicated to explain the Cash situation to him right now. I’ve got another bomb to drop on him. I sit back down in the chair.
“I’m going to tell Sylas. He has a right to know,” I say and Dad’s fist clench. I take a breath. “You can’t stop me from telling him.”
“Saige.”
“No. I love you, Dad, but this isn’t right.” This is one thing that I couldn’t keep from Sylas, even if I wanted to. This is a lie that can’t be kept. “This man ruined his life and he needs to know. Put yourself in his place.” His mouth turns into a tight line and his jaw clenches so hard I wonder if he’s going to damage his teeth.
“I want to be the one to take his life. I was so disappointed when I heard that he was killed in prison. I had dreams about it. Still do sometimes.” That shocks me a little. I’ve never imagined my dad as a violent man. Or at least not like that.
“I think I should go,” I say. I want to get to Sylas. It’s going to be horrific to be the one to tell him, but I’m okay with that.
“Don’t hurt him, Saige. This news will only hurt him,” he says.
“That’s not for you to decide. I promised him total honesty and I’m not going to go back on that,” I say, getting up and heading toward the door. I expect him to try to stop me, but he doesn’t.
I’m shaking a bit as I get into my car.
I have to tell him.
The BMW isn’t anywhere near my apartment. I park my car and head upstairs. It’s dark and empty. No Sylas to greet me at the door. I pull out my phone and call him.
He doesn’t pick up. I leave a message.
“Sylas, please call me back when you get this. Or come to my apartment. I have to tell you something.” I end the message and start pacing. That only lasts a few minutes. I feed Leo, who is pissed at me for not playing with him, but then I’m out the door and driving to his place.
He’s not here. I break in just to make sure, but the place is Sylas free. I chew on my lip and walk around. It’s been a while since I’ve been here. I wonder why he uses this crappy apartment when he could have something so much better. Just another part of the mystery that is Sylas.
I wait for a while, but he doesn’t come back. Sighing, I go back to my car and drive back home.
It’s two in the morning when I finally go to bed. I’ve been up and waiting for Sylas for hours. I’ve called him dozens of times and heard nothing.
I’m definitely scared. I think about calling Cash, but something tells me I shouldn’t. Call it intuition. I sleep fitfully and wake up at eight. Sylas still isn’t back and I’m officially freaked out.
I call him one more time, but it goes straight to voicemail, which means his phone is off.
At a loss with what to do, I call Cash.
“Hello, Saige Beaumont, what can I do for you?” He’s making a joke of what I said last time, but I’m in no mood for it.
“Sylas is gone. He didn’t come back last night and he won’t answer any of my calls.” He’s silent for a second.
“Did you have a fight?” I want to scream at him. This isn’t some boyfriend/girlfriend drama. He has to take this seriously.
“No. We spent the day together and now he’s gone. I just want to know that he’s okay,” I say. I know he can track Sylas’ phone in seconds.