I stand on the edge of the cliff, poised — this is the moment where I either listen to Mom and lie to the police, or I tell the truth.
I only hesitate for a moment before I decide to jump into the chasm. Because despite the fact I’m fifteen years old, and I’m supposed to be learning how to become my own person, when have I not done what my mom tells me?
“No,” I say, but I can’t help the slight tremor in my voice. “Never heard of him.”
“Are you sure?” the detective asks, looking me straight in the eye.
I know if I look away, he’ll think I’m lying, so as much as it’s wigging me out to maintain eye contact, I do.
“Totally sure,” I say.
I am going to burn for eternity for this. But I obeyed my mother, and honoring my mother is one of the Ten Commandments, so does that give me points for something?
Even though it’s not that hot in the living room, I feel myself start to sweat in the brief, awkward silence that follows. I surreptitiously rub my hands against the side of my jeans, but don’t break eye contact, determined to win the game of blink.
“Well, that’s interesting,” Officer Timm says. He takes a folded-up piece of paper out of his pocket and opens it up. Then he walks over and holds it out in front of me. “Because you were friends with him on Facebook.”
It’s a printout of Christian’s friend list. And there, among them, with a big red circle around it, is my profile picture.
But I deleted his profile! He’s not there anymore. How did they get that? And now what do I do?
I stare up at Officer Timm, tongue-tied with panic.
My mother doesn’t miss a beat.
“You know how these kids are,” she says, her voice as calm and smooth as a lake on a still summer’s day. “They all friend people they don’t know. I’ve warned Bree and Liam about it more times than I can count, but they still do it.”
Mom looks at me sternly.
“I’m sure Bree didn’t even remember she’d friended him. She has so many friends on that site. I’ll have to go through them with her and make sure she cuts back.” She smiles at the policemen, shaking her head. “You can’t be too careful these days, can you?”
Wow. I take it back when I said Mom was a good liar. She’s a FREAKING EPIC LIAR. Like, Super Liar of the Universe.
Just then, her cell phone rings. She looks at the number.
“Excuse me, I have to answer. These clients are about to make an offer on a big property. Let me see if I can call them back.”
She answers with her “Everything I touch turns to sold” voice.
“Mary Jo Connors. Yes, hi, Ralph — any chance I can call you back? I’m in the middle of something … Oh. I see … Okay, hold on a minute.”
Mom presses Mute and says, “I have to take this now. I’ll be out in the hall. It won’t take long.”
On her way out, she purses her lips, reminding me to zip it.
And then I’m left there, alone with the two policemen, scared that I’m going to say the wrong thing.
“So here’s the thing, Breanna,” the detective says. “We’re pretty sure the person who created the Christian DeWitt profile lives in this house.”
I can’t stop the panicked look that crosses my face before I realize what I’ve done and try to arrange my features into what I hope is an “I have no idea what you’re talking about, Detective” expression.
“How?”
“Do you know what an IP address is?” Officer Timm asks.
“It’s something to do with the Internet,” I say, twisting the silver-and-onyx ring I’m wearing on my right hand. Now that I think about it, Lara gave it to me for my birthday in middle school.
“It’s the numerical label assigned to computers on a network,” Officer Timm explains.
I stare at him blankly. I have no idea what that means.
Detective Souther must see the look on my face because he says, “We know from an IP search that the person who contacted Lara lives in this neighborhood.”
I swallow hard.
“We had to get a warrant to find out from the Internet service provider exactly which house it was,” he continues. “And I’m going to make a bet that when we get that information, it’s going to show that it’s yours. If you tell us it was you, it’ll go a lot easier for you than if you deny it and we find out anyway.”
I hear Mom’s voice in the hallway, talking to her client about their bid. She tells them they should go in slightly under asking, but not so far that they’ll think it’s insulting.
I don’t know what to do. Mom wants me to lie. But it feels wrong to lie to the police. And what’s the point of lying if they’re going to find out it was me anyway?
My head is throbbing, and I feel sick to my stomach.
“Just because it was someone in this neighborhood, doesn’t mean it was me,” I say, picking at a cuticle on my thumb.
“You posted a picture of Lara being taken out of the house on a stretcher on your Facebook profile,” Officer Timm says. “Why would you do that to someone who was your friend?”
He sounds just like Liam, but he’s not my younger brother, someone I can ignore. He’s a policeman, wearing a uniform, with a gun in his holster and handcuffs attached to his belt. This is real life. This is serious business. I never thought about any of this when I posted that picture.
I never thought, period.
And now I’m terrified.
“How do you k-know that? I d-deleted that picture!” I stammer.
“Ever hear of something called a screenshot?” Detective Souther says with no small amount of snark. “Lara’s father took a whole bunch of them the night Lara tried to kill herself. He wasn’t a happy man when he saw what people were doing to his daughter. Can’t say I blame him.”
“I … don’t know why I did it …,” I say. “I thought it would … you know, get a lot of likes.”
I see the looks on their faces. They hate me. They think I’m a really awful person.
Officer Timm mutters something under his breath, shaking his head.
“You might as well tell us, Breanna,” the detective says. “We know it was you.”
Mom! Get off the phone and get back in here! What should I do? THEY ALREADY KNOW!
But my mother is still out in the hallway, arguing with her clients over a five-thousand-dollar increment in their bid. Doesn’t she realize my whole life is at stake here? For once, I’d just like to feel more important to my mother than the next deal.
“It will go much better for you if you’re honest with us, Breanna,” Detective Souther says. “No matter what anyone might have told you.”
I feel tears well up, even though I’m trying to will them back because I know they’ll make me look guilty.
“If you tell us the truth, we can work with you,” the detective continues.
He’s the good guy. The police are the good guys. I’m not a bad guy. I’m a good person. If I keep lying to him, I’ll be the bad guy. It’s better if I tell the truth.
My face feels like it’s five-hundred-degrees hot. The first tear boils over and trickles down my cheek.
Mom’s commiserating with her clients about how long it’s taking the city council to not pass the tax incentives. At least she doesn’t mention Mrs. Kelley by name.
“You can be honest with us, Breanna,” Officer Timm says, and he doesn’t sound like he hates me now. He sounds nicer, more friendly, like he’s trying to help me do the right thing. “It’s okay.”
More tears fall, and I taste salt on the corner of my mouth. I wipe the tear away with the back of my hand, and despite Mom telling me to zip it, to tell them nothing, nada, zilch, I say quietly, “It was me.”
And even though I’m scared about the trouble I know I’m going to get into, about the punishment I know I’m going to face, it feels better than continuing to lie when they already know the truth.