I turned. "Yeah?"
They were approaching fast but cautiously. The fat one had a hand in his pocket.
"Mr. Rawlins, I'm Miller and this is my partner Mason." They both held out badges.
"Yeah?"
"We want you to come with us."
"Where?"
"You'll see," fat Mason said as he took me by the arm.
"Are you arresting me?"
"You'll see," Mason said again. He was pulling me toward the gate.
"I've got the right to know why you're taking me."
"You got a right to fall down and break your face, nigger. You got a right to die," he said. Then he hit me in the diaphragm. When I doubled over he slipped the handcuffs on behind my back and together they dragged me to the car. They tossed me in the back seat where I lay gagging.
"You vomit on my carpet and I'll feed it to ya," Mason called back.
They drove me to the Seventy-seventh Street station and carried me in the front door.
"You got'im, huh, Miller?" somebody said. They were holding me by my arms and I was sagging with my head down. I had recovered from the punch but I didn't want them to know it.
"Yeah, we got him coming home. Nothing on'im."
They opened the door to a small room that smelled faintly of urine. The walls were unpainted plaster and there was only a bare wooden chair for furniture. They didn't offer me the chair though, they just dropped me on my knees and walked out, closing the door behind them.
The door had a tiny peephole in it.
I pushed my shoulder against the wall until I was standing. The room didn't look any better. There were a few bare pipes along the ceiling that dripped now and then. The edge of the linoleum floor was corroded and chalky from the moisture. There was only one window. It didn't have glass but only a crisscross of two two-inch bars down and two bars across. Very little light came in through the window due to the branches and leaves that had pushed their way in. It was a small room, maybe twelve by twenty, and I had some fear that it was to be the last room I ever inhabited.
I was worried because they didn't follow the routine. I had played the game of "cops and nigger" before. The cops pick you up, take your name and fingerprints, then they throw you into a holding tank with other "suspects" and drunks. After you were sick from the vomit and foul language they'd take you to another room and ask why you robbed that liquor store or what did you do with the money?
I would try to look innocent while I denied what they said. It's hard acting innocent when you are but the cops know that you aren't. They figure that you did something because that's just the way cops think, and you telling them that you're innocent just proves to them that you have something to hide. But that wasn't the game that we were playing that day. They knew my name and they didn't need to scare me with any holding tank; they didn't need to take my fingerprints. I didn't know why they had me, but I did know that it didn't matter as long as they thought they were right.
I sat down in the chair and looked up at the leaves coming in through the window. I counted thirty-two bright green oleander leaves. Also coming in through the window was a line of black ants that ran down the side of the wall and around to the other side of the room where the tiny corpse of a mouse was crushed into a corner. I speculated that another prisoner had killed the mouse by stamping it. He probably had tried in the middle of the floor at first but the quick rodent had swerved away two, maybe even three times. But finally the mouse made the deadly mistake of looking for a crevice in the wall and the inmate was able to block off his escape by using both feet. The mouse looked papery and dry so I supposed that the death had occurred at the beginning of the week; about the time I was getting fired.
While I was thinking about the mouse the door opened again and the officers stepped in. I was angry at myself because I hadn't tried to see if the door was locked. Those cops had me where they wanted me.
"Ezekiel Rawlins," Miller said.
"Yes, sir."
"We have a few questions to ask. We can take off those cuffs if you want to start cooperating."
"I am cooperating."
"Told ya, Bill," fat Mason said. "He's a smart nigger."
"Take off the cuffs, Charlie," Miller said and the fat man obliged.
"Where were you yesterday morning at about 5 a.m.?"
"What morning is that?" I stalled.
"He means," fat Mason said as he planted his foot in my chest and pushed me over backwards, "Thursday morning."
"Get up," Miller said.
I got to my feet and righted the chair.
"That's hard to say." I sat down again. "I was out drinking and then I helped carry a drunk friend home. I could'a been on my way home or maybe I was already in bed. I didn't look at a clock."
"What friend is that?"
"Pete. My friend Pete."
"Pete, huh?" Mason chuckled. He wandered over to my left and before I could turn toward him I felt the hard knot of his fist explode against the side of my head. I was on the ground again.
"Get up," Miller said.
I got up again.
"So where was you and your peter drinkin'?" Mason sneered.
"Down at a friend's on Eighty-nine."
Mason moved again but this time I turned. He just looked at me with an innocent face and his palms turned upward.
"Would that be an illegal nightclub called John's?" Miller asked.
I was quiet.
"You got bigger problems than busting your friend's bar, Ezekiel. You got bigger troubles than that."
"What kinds troubles?"
"Big troubles."
"What's that mean?"
"Means we can take your black ass out behind the station and put a bullet in your head," Mason said.
"Where were you at five o'clock on Thursday morning, Mr. Rawlins?" Miller asked.
"I don't know exactly."
Mason had taken off his shoe and started swatting the heel against his fat palm.
"Five o'clock," Miller said.
We played that game a little while longer. Finally I said, "Look, you don't have to beat up your hand on my account; I'm happy to tell you what you wanna know."
"You ready to cooperate?" Miller asked.
"Yes, sir."
"Where did you go when you left Coretta James' house on Thursday morning?"
"I went home."
Mason tried to kick the chair out from under me but I was on my feet before he could.
"I had enough'a this shit, man!" I yelled, but neither cop seemed very impressed. "I told you I went home, and that's all."
"Have a seat, Mr. Rawlins," Miller said calmly.
"Why'm I gonna sit and you keep tryin' to knock me down?" I cried. But I sat down anyway.
"I told ya he was crazy, Bill," Mason said. "I told ya this was a section eight."
"Mr. Rawlins," Miller said. "Where did you go after you left Miss James' house?"
"I went home."
No one hit me that time; no one tried to kick the chair.
"Did you see Miss James later that day?"
"No, sir."
"Did you have an altercation with Mr. Bouchard?"
I understood him but I said, "Huh?"
"Did you and Dupree Bouchard have words over Miss James?"
"You know," Mason chimed in. "Pete."
"That's what I call him sometimes," I said.
"Did you," Miller repeated, "have an altercation with Mr. Bouchard?"
"I didn't have nuthin' with Dupree. He was asleep."
"So where did you go on Thursday?"
"I went home with a hangover. I stayed there all day and night and then I went to work today. Well"—I wanted to keep them talking so that Mason wouldn't lose his temper with the furniture again—"not to work really because I got fired Monday. But I went to get my job back."
"Where did you go on Thursday?"
"I went home with a hangover …"
"Nigger!" Mason tore into me with his fists. He knocked me to the floor but I grabbed onto his wrists. I swung around and twisted so that I was straddling his back, sitting on his fat ass. I could have killed him the way I'd killed other white men in uniforms, but I could feel Miller behind me so I stood straight up and moved to the corner.