And in the time it took me to wonder, I understood Walter’s question: how many charges? It made all the difference in the world. That’s why Walter shook his head when he looked up the chock. It was dolomite, dense and massive, and Hap wasn’t going to blow it up. He’d have to pry it open. And he’d need a shitload of charges and a focal place to set them. That’s why the box was down in the fissure.
He was going to pry open the chockstone at the fissure.
I was a learner in explosives but I sure knew rock. A fissure is a weak point and a blast would direct its force along that plane of weakness, widening it. And the place Hap needed to pry open was down below, to let out the water. The only way that works is if the fissure runs at an angle, exposing itself down below in a surface crack.
So he feeds the wired charges down the fissure from up here, then goes down below and grabs the charges and sticks them along the exposed crack. Then waits for the big storms to fill the pool. I recalled the smooth back head of the chockstone above the pool. That surface crack was underwater now.
But still, someone could dive under and find those charges.
Was that right? I hoped so. I was about to wager on being right.
Walter found breath enough to bellow again. “Move.”
I checked Hap’s watch. I had time to climb down the chock and up to the sheep trail. I had time to do more than that. Once I’d understood, I could not pretend I hadn’t. I called to Walter, “I’m coming.” I moved to the far side of the crown, descending enough to be out of Walter’s view. He’d assume I was getting down off this thing in the most efficient way possible. I was. I sat and took off my boots.
The water looked deep down below but to be on the safe side I took Hap’s flashlight from my pocket and turned it on and tossed it in and watched the light dim as it sank. Okay. I scooted as far down the rock as I could, and then stood and sprang off.
I’m falling, and then just before impact my vision jumps to the place where the chockstone intersects the pool decking. Hap’s there, propped against the rock. I’m thinking, startled, he hasn’t climbed out yet. And then I see why. He’s wrapping the parachute pants around his leg. He came down to the deck to get the pants. He needs more bandaging. And now, seeing me jump into the pool, he’s surprised into action. He lets go of his wounded leg and reaches for the deck.
I hit the water and my legs buckled and my arms whipped up and as I arrowed down deep the gun sling slipped off like someone had snatched away my coat.
Oh Jesus cold. I gasped, cramping in the cold. Fighting my cramped self to kick for the surface. I came up and spat ice water. Where was he? I flailed, fighting the current, rotating myself, and saw him surface deeper in the pool. He looked in shock too, hanging by his chin on the surface of the water.
The current took us both toward the wall of the chockstone.
He fanned his arms, backstroking, going with the flow, pale limbs trailing.
He knows, I thought numbly, why I jumped in. He knows I figured out where the charges are.
I could ride this unrelenting current all the way to the stone but he’d be there first, waiting for me. I jackknifed and dove. Kicking my way blindly through the silt, hoping to avoid him.
I bumped against his leg.
He grabbed for me but I kicked away.
When I surfaced I had no more fight.
The current finished it, plastering us both against the chockstone. We were a couple yards apart. He could have reached me with a lunge. He didn’t move. He laid his cheek against the rock, wheezing. I mirrored him. My second wind had died. I waited for a third.
I needed to go back under. When I’d kicked free of him, my foot had grazed a crack in the chockstone.
I thought I heard Walter call. I could see, beyond Hap, a portion of the canyon wall but the chockstone’s bulge blocked most of my view. I thought by now Walter must have reached the wide spot in the ledge and collapsed just where I’d collapsed, the place where your limbs go to butter and your mind goes to mush. But he’ll catch his third wind and keep coming. In the water sought his daughter, now he’s with his Clementine.
“Buttercup.”
I took in a sweet breath, filling my lungs. I fixed my attention on Hap’s blue-eyed gaze. The whites were reddened from too much sun. I was close enough to see that.
He whispered, “You’re swimming in the SFP.”
Oh no Hap, I’m not.
I dove. It was a world of silt, sparkling in the sun rays. It was so cold my eyeballs ached. As I wall-crawled along I found the crack that my foot had grazed. My rock sense told me where it came from. This was the fissure I’d wagered upon. Before my air ran out I glimpsed a shadow in the crack and it put me in mind of snorkeling in Maui, glimpsing eel snout in a reef crevice. But this was not the ocean. And this was not the spent-fuel pool.
Hap didn’t follow me down. He waited until I surfaced and gulped a lungful of air and then he lunged.
He knew what I’d found.
He wrapped himself around me, clinging like the limpets I’d seen clinging to the reef in Maui where the eel lived. My hands were free and I pounded his back but I could not get him off. He held onto me as if for life. Our legs entangled, trying to tread water. I used my hands to help keep us afloat. We spun lazily in the current, bumping gently against the chock. His head was pressed to mine. We were cheek to cheek, like lovers.
I looked past his red hair frizzing in the heat, up to the sheep trail, watching for Walter.
My thigh pressed against Hap’s and I felt the pinch of the knife in my pocket. If I could just get to it. And then dive to find the wire that was going to electrify that eel — only of course there’s a colony of eels all the way down that crack because it takes a shitload of charges to rip open this rock — and so if I can find one wire I can cut them all and do the job I’d jumped in here to do in the first place. But first I needed my knife.
I arched, trying to throw us off balance.
He snuggled in tighter. Shivering. I shivered, too. We shivered in synch. His shivers were blows, his knees knocking mine, his fists digging into the small of my back. His skull rattled mine — the two of us reduced to essence like the skull on the bighorn trail. He put his mouth to my ear. Lips of ice. “Want to live?” Breath so hot it warmed my ear. I nodded. Want to live. Want my knife. The skin of my thigh prickled, every nerve focusing on that pinch of knife in pocket, and then the prickling spread to include the feel of his thigh against mine. The bulk of his bandage. I saw no blood in the water and I guessed the cold had stopped the bleeding but he could surely feel pain. I pressed hard against him. He recoiled. A sliver of space between our legs now. I brought up my knee and jammed it into his bandaged thigh. He cried out and shrank away and I thought now I’m free and made to dive but he’d got me by the webbed belt that wove through my waistband. We were arms-length, now, attached at my belt. His face went livid. I hated him for showing pain, and for the way my knee had felt grinding his wound, and for goddamn choosing to shoot him in the first place — for my ownership of his pain. I fumbled at my belt, trying to unhook it. Cursing him. He opened his mouth to answer but no words came. He convulsed and emitted a gutful of yellow liquid and it lay intact like oil on water and then the current broke its surface tension and washed it away. I stared at the receding plume, understanding. It wasn’t me. It was the gents. He wasn’t faking it now. The gents got him. He turned them loose and they got him. He lifted his head and his face showed panic. Not my problem, not my doing, I wallowed in my innocence but he would not let me be. He was crying. I could not believe that Hap and I have the same feelings but we must because we’re both crying now. He put his face into the water, back humping up, and I felt his convulsions by the jerking of his hand in my belt. I went for my knife. He pulled himself close and wrapped around me and vomited hot stuff down my back.