Sometimes, when I was trying to report in one or another passage in my fiction the connection between one or another fictional personage and one or another fictional landscape, I would suppose that one or another of my readers might later have overlooked the passage that I was trying to write in the same way that I had overlooked the foreground and the middle-ground and even the background of the painting mentioned not long before in this piece of fiction and might have seemed to see behind my fiction, as it were, a semblance of the Midlands of Tasmania or of the Canterbury Plains of New Zealand.
But to speak plainly, an imagination would surely be of benefit to a writer.
A famous writer in the United States of America wrote during my lifetime a bulky book of fiction set, as the expression goes, in ancient Egypt. To speak plainly, the author must have exercised his imagination strenuously while he wrote. I felt no more urged to read his book than I have felt urged to read any of the many books of fiction written by contemporaries of mine in this country and set in earlier times. If ever I had been curious about the daily doings of the ancient Egyptians or about the contents of their minds, I would much rather have done my own speculating here in this suburb of Melbourne than trust the speculations of someone in New York City. Likewise, on the few occasions when I have found myself daydreaming about some or another Australian bushranger or so-called historical figure, I have never felt urged to check the details of my musings against the imaginings, to speak plainly, of some or another present-day novelist.
Surely I have paused at least once during a lifetime of reading and have admired the passage in front of me as a product of the writer’s excellent imagination.
I can recall clearly my having paused often during my first reading of the book of fiction Wuthering Heights, which reading took place in the autumn of 1956. I can recall equally clearly my having paused often during my first reading of the book of fiction Tess of the D’Urbervilles, which reading took place in the winter of 1959. I doubt that I paused in order to feel gratitude or admiration towards any authorial personage. (The only picture I had seen of Thomas Hardy had reminded me of my father’s father, whom I had met several times when he was an old man with a drooping moustache and whom I always remembered as one of the least likeable of persons. The only picture I had seen of Emily Brontë had reminded me of the youngest of my father’s four unmarried sisters, whose company I could never enjoy — not because she was an unlikeable person but because I felt always obliged to avoid mentioning in her presence anything even remotely connected with sexuality.) I think it more likely that I paused in order to contemplate my own achievements as a reader; in order to feel grateful for my seeming to possess a certain mental adroitness or in order merely to savour my astonishment at the unexpected appearance of certain perspectives in far parts of the place that I call my mind.
I would first have paused during my first reading of Wuthering Heights in order to dwell on the strange-seeming circumstance that I had given to the character of Catherine Earnshaw in my mind the appearance of the young woman, hardly more than a girl, who had become not long before my steady girlfriend, to use an expression from the 1950s.
I should remind the reader that every sentence hereabouts is part of a work of fiction. I should remind him or her also that I have hardly ever during the past thirty years given a name to any character in any work of fiction of mine. Even so, I feel urged to give to the fictional young woman, hardly more than a girl, who was first mentioned in the previous paragraph, the name “Christine.” I feel so urged because although I suspect that the elderly woman who was once my steady girlfriend is not a reader of fiction and may not be aware that her first steady boyfriend became, many years after she had last seen him, a writer of fiction, still I suspect that one at least of the elderly woman’s friends or acquaintances may be a reader of fiction and may, perhaps, read these sentences of fiction hereabouts while the elderly woman is still alive.
I would have later paused in order to dwell on the strange-seeming circumstance that the fictional character Catherine Earnshaw had turned away from the friend of her girlhood, the fictional character Heathcliff, in somewhat the same way that I was expecting Christine to turn away from me soon, as she did in fact turn away. The motives of the fictional character might have been variously interpreted, but Christine’s motives would have been clear to me. She was going to turn away from me because I seemed hardly interested in her own concerns, ambitions, daydreams. I knew that I should have been thus interested. I had read sometimes, in magazines intended for women, passages recommending that young persons should express an interest in one another’s concerns. Even so, I seldom remembered, while I was with Christine, to ask about her concerns. Instead, I spent much of my time with her in explaining how one or another poem or work of fiction that I had read recently had affected me or had influenced me to want to write in future a sort of poetry or a sort of fiction different from the sort that I had previously wanted to write. If the thought had once occurred to me that I was talking too much about my own concerns, then I might have reassured myself with the thought that Christine would surely consider herself amply compensated when she read in the future some or another published piece of poetry or fiction alluding to a personage of her appearance or with her concerns; or else I took it as inevitable that we would separate but hoped my subsequent solitariness might be helpful to me as a writer.
I would have paused during my first reading of Tess of the D’Urbervilles in order to dwell on the strange circumstance that I had seemed to give to the character of Tess Durbeyfield in my mind the appearance of a certain young woman of about my own age who was at that time a classmate of mine in the teacher-training college where I was then studying. I hereby remind the reader of all that I reminded him or her at the beginning of the paragraph preceding the previous paragraph. I now report that I feel urged to give to the fictional young woman who was first mentioned in the sentence before the previous sentence the name “Nancy.” I feel so urged because I suspect that the elderly woman who was once a classmate of mine may have been throughout her life a reader of fiction.
I would later have paused during my reading of Tess of the D’Urbervilles in order to dwell on the strange circumstance that the fictional character Angel Clare had, at a certain point in the narrative, turned away from the character Tess Durbeyfield in somewhat the way that I had turned away several times from Nancy during the months before I began to read Tess of the D’Urbervilles.
I first met Nancy in the late summer of 1959, when she and I became classmates in the training-college for primary-school teachers. When I met her, I had been without a girlfriend for nearly three years. My only previous girlfriend had been Christine, who was mentioned earlier in this piece of fiction, but who had turned away from me. During my three solitary years, so to call them, I followed the policy of approaching only those young women who seemed likely to be readers of books of fiction or of poetry and who might therefore be supposed to take kindly to hearing me talk about the fiction and the poetry that I intended to write. During my three solitary years I approached, in fact, no young women.