So, really, this wasn’t as bad as he’d been thinking, and now all he had to do was fix this whole baby issue Carmen was burdening him with. He wasn’t sure how he would get her to see that she just couldn’t keep it, but he would. Somehow, some way, he would get her to do the right thing. He would pressure her to do what was best for him, the same as always.
Chapter 34
Rita had been gone for two days now, and yesterday, Alicia had gone with Carmen to meet with the funeral home representative. Thankfully, Rita had owned more than enough life insurance and had already purchased her burial site, so the only thing left for them to do was order flowers and buy her a new suit. Carmen had mentioned how her mom had a number of very stylish outfits but that she still wanted to buy her this one last thing. She wanted to do something very special for the woman who had loved and supported her to the fullest from day one.
Now, though, they were having lunch at a charming little eatery not far from downtown, which was only partially full.
Carmen ate one of her waffle fries. “You know, I just can’t believe my mom is really gone and that her service is only three days away.”
“Neither can I.”
“She was such a wonderful person. Always had a kind word to say to everyone and always treated people with the utmost respect.”
Alicia nodded in agreement. “She really was a very caring lady, and I don’t ever remember her being any different. Not even when we were children.”
“She’s always been the same. Even when my idiot father left her for some woman he worked with, she never acted as though she hated him. She would speak to him, and it was as if she had nothing against him.”
Alicia sipped some raspberry lemonade. “Some people try to see the good in everyone, no matter how much they may have hurt them, and I admire that.”
“She was definitely one of the most forgiving women I ever met,” Carmen said, leaning back in her chair. “Because I could never forgive my husband for messing around on me. That is, if I had one.”
Alicia thought about JT but didn’t comment.
“Although, I guess it’s easy to say what you would or wouldn’t do if you’ve never been in a certain situation.”
“This is true.”
Carmen scanned the restaurant, saw what appeared to be a mother and her adult daughter laughing about something, and then looked back at Alicia. Seconds later, tears streamed down her face.
Alicia reached across the table and grabbed her hand. “I’m so sorry, Carmen. I’m so sorry that this has happened to you.”
Carmen sniffled and then pulled a tissue from her purse. “It’s just that it hurts so badly.”
Alicia remembered how devastated Phillip had been when he’d lost his father, and it made her think about her own parents. She tried imagining how she would feel if she ever lost either of them, but the pain became so real in her mind, she was glad Carmen changed the conversation.
“But regardless of what’s going on, I have to be strong for me and my baby.”
“That’s right,” Alicia said.
“Mom would have been so excited for me.”
Alicia wondered how, when Carmen didn’t even have a husband, but pretended to agree. “I’m sure she would have.”
“She would have been just as thrilled as I am, and, girl, just as soon as the baby’s father and I are married, I’ll be as happy as you are right now.”
“So, have you told him yet?”
“Yes, but now he has to get a divorce.”
Alicia had already suspected this the day Carmen had first told her but tried sounding surprised. “He’s married?”
“Yes, but not for long.”
“So, has he already filed?”
“No, but it’s only a matter of time before he gets rid of that uppity little whore once and for all.”
“Have you met her?”
“Yeah, I’ve been around her on a number of occasions, and it’s pretty obvious why he prefers being with me over her.”
Alicia listened but wasn’t sure what to say.
“Anyway, she’s practically history,” Carmen continued. “And there isn’t a thing she can do about it.”
Alicia looked away but suddenly thought about that Donna woman again and how she had to have some sort of connection to JT. He’d denied it to no end, but Alicia wasn’t as naïve as he may have thought and knew what men were capable of.
“Alicia?” she heard Carmen say, and then returned to reality.
“Yes?”
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing. Why do you ask?”
“Because I called your name three different times.”
“Oh, girl, I’m sorry. I guess I was in another world.”
“Why? Is everything okay?”
Alicia hesitated, but for some reason, she needed to confide her problems to someone. Melanie was her best friend, but she just couldn’t tell her about all these accusations against JT. She couldn’t tell her or any of her family members, but again, she felt compelled to tell someone. Not just anyone, of course, but someone like Carmen, whom she could trust. So she divulged everything that had been going on. She told her about the women at the luncheon and all the horrible things one of them had said about JT and also what the nice one had confirmed about his past reputation with women. Then she told her about that Donna person and how she’d even claimed that JT planned his wife’s death.
Carmen widened her eyes. “Do you think any of that is true?”
“At first, I didn’t, but now I’ve heard so much, I don’t know what to think.”
“Well, what does he say?”
“That it’s not true, and that he would never do anything like that.”
“Then why would anyone make such terrible claims?”
“I don’t know. I don’t understand any of this, and on top of that, my dad never wanted me to marry him in the first place.”
“What? Your dad doesn’t like him?”
“No.”
“Girl, that’s pretty deep.”
“Yeah, tell me about it.”
“So, what are you going to do?”
“I don’t know that either, but I do know that I’m not going to just ignore all of this or act as though it couldn’t be possible.”
“I don’t blame you. I mean, I really like JT and all, but unfortunately, men are going to be men. They are who they are, and you never know what they might be up to.”
Alicia thought about the man Carmen was messing around with, whomever he was, and how he was proof of that very thing. She also thought about how wrong Carmen was for being involved with him.
“You’re right,” Alicia finally said.
“Sadly, I am, and that’s why I can’t sit back and sugarcoat my opinion. I don’t want to be negative or say anything bad about JT, but I also don’t want to see you getting cheated on or staying with a man who might be dangerous.”
Alicia heard what she was saying and was glad she had someone to talk to about this. “I appreciate your honesty, girl, and thank you so much for listening. Especially since you have your own worries right now.”
“I do, but you can talk to me about anything, anytime.”
“I know, but still.”
“But still nothing. You and I are friends for life, and you can count on me no matter what. You can depend on me the same as if I were your blood sister.”
Alicia smiled at Carmen and knew she meant every single word.