“This was your idea.”
Twenty minutes later I was sitting beside Eden in the crowded cinema. We had barely said two words to each other since I arrived and now being in this close proximity I was overcome by the familiarity of her perfume. I slammed my eyes shut and my head fell back against the red velvet of the seat as I took a moment with my thoughts. The lights faded above and the four of us settled back in as the movie began. My eyes kept drifting to the side to take in Eden. She was transfixed on the movie playing before us, but I honestly couldn’t give a shit what was playing.
I shifted in my seat and leaned over until my mouth hovered over her ear. “You look great tonight.”
The light from the large screen allowed me to work out her face in the shadows of the cinema when she turned to face me. Her eyes gleamed at me and she pulled her bottom lip between her teeth as shyness invaded her.
“Thank you,” she whispered after she leaned into me and the moment her breath skidded over my ear I felt the swelling in my pants. “I like your shirt.”
I gave a tight smile and removed my eyes from her and turned back toward the movie. If anyone asked me what it was about, the answer would be the girl beside me because that was the only thing I was concentrating on. The moment she grabbed my forearm during a suspense scene, I thought it was pretty certain that I wouldn’t handle the full movie. Skin to skin contact was fucking dangerous. Her hand stayed on my bare arm, continuing to send a burning sensation through my already on edge body and every so often she would squeeze it just to remind me. I wasn’t actually sure she knew what she was doing.
Josh’s chuckle from beside me drew my attention, and I narrowed my eyes in on him.
“You look a bit tense there brother?” he taunted quietly.
I simply flipped him off.
The moment the credits rolled at the end of the movie, we all rose from our seats and walked back into the main foyer. Ashlyn and Eden started talking about how hot the lead actor was as Josh and I stood by.
“What are you up to tomorrow?” Josh asked.
“I’ve got some work to do so will either head into the office or just work at home.”
“You seeing Eden?”
“Not sure,” I replied honestly. “She might be working or something.”
He nodded and gave me a knowing look.
Ashlyn and Eden eventually stopped swooning, her words not mine, and they both turned to Josh and me expectedly.
“I could completely destroy a piece of pie right now,” Ashlyn announced and excitedly looked between us.
My eyes fell to Eden and for a split second she tensed up but then put on a façade of comfort. She nodded in silent response after Josh loudly agreed. We all took off with the coffee house on the corner in our sights; Eden and I fell into silent step beside each other. One thing I had noticed was that the longer the night went on, the quieter she got and the more anxious she appeared.
“Are you okay?” I asked, dropping my voice so only she heard.
She eventually twisted her body toward me and nodded in silent response.
I felt myself tense. “Are you really okay? Don’t just say yes.”
“I’m just a little tired. It’s been a huge day.” She finally admitted.
“I can take you back to the hotel if you want. You don’t have to come.”
“I want cake,” she replied with a smile. “Although I’m not sure if it could live up to the cake you bought me for my birthday. That was the best cake I’ve ever eaten.”
“I’ll be sure to tell Aunt Carole next time I see her.” I chuckled lightly.
The warmth of the coffee house provided comfort as the four of us walked through the doors. I felt my body start to thaw after the assault of winter chill. Ashlyn grabbed Eden’s hand and took her to a vacant table while Josh and I were on coffee ordering duty.
The moment it was our turn to order, Josh stepped into male slut mode and started trying to get in the barista’s pants after he gave her our order. I shook my head at my brother's moves and turned back toward the main area of the coffee house and took a deep breath.
My nerves were shot; my emotions were all over the place, and I couldn’t decipher whether it was due to lack of sleep, stress at work, or the girl who was unraveling me at a ridiculously fast rate. I glanced toward the table where Ashlyn and Eden sat, and I instantly met Eden’s gaze. She didn’t hesitate this time. Her wide alert eyes met mine with such strong intensity that it was like she was reading me, deciphering every thought I was having. Fuck I really hoped she couldn’t read me too well. She didn’t need to know who I was. I didn’t think she could handle knowing me. She had caught me off guard; I wasn’t expecting her to be watching me so intently. I shifted and turned back toward the counter breaking the connection. Knowing I was under her gaze made my usual confident front crumble.
The sanctuary of my hotel room provided me with ultimate relief. The second I closed the door behind me, I burst into a flood of tears. Pretending that everything was fine all day and continuing my charade into the night left me both physically and emotionally exhausted and I knew that it was just a matter of time before I crumbled. And crumbling was something I didn’t want to do in front of Ky.
After sitting in the rustic coffee house that was swallowed by the intense scent of coffee beans for an hour and enjoying hot coffee and cake, Ky had offered to drive me back to the hotel. The trip was a quiet affair and my thoughts were filled with memories of the day. My hand still tingled at the sensation of his huge hand holding mine, and my heart ached at the simplicity and perfection of the day, but it was my mind that was a pit of confusion that I couldn’t sort through. There was little to no fear, but I felt like I was pretending from the moment he picked me up till the moment he drove off. I didn’t know any other way to survive situations like that, and I had to make the decision whether pretending was what I wanted to do or whether it was time to try and find who Eden Rivers was and whether Ky Crawford was the right person to witness everything that I uncovered.
Tears rolled over my cheeks, and I felt my chest tighten under panic. I rubbed my open palm over my chest in desperation for relief. I knew it was a huge mistake coming back here.
I pulled my phone from my bag and placed it on the bed as I fished through my suitcase to find a clean pair of sweats and hoodie. The thought of falling into bed and sleeping away my exhaustion was welcomed. My phone vibrated on the floral comforter with a new text. It was nearing one a.m. so immediately I thought it would be Tori.
It wasn’t.
Unknown: Still in town I see and still looking as beautiful as ever, shame about the company you’re keeping.
Who the hell was this? If I ignored it, it had to go away. Right? All day I didn’t feel an ounce of fear; when I held Ky’s hand, I felt nothing but exhilaration. All it took was a few words to cause my fear to roar to life. I needed to ignore this. No one knew I was here, no one knew why I was here. Another five weeks and then I was gone.
I just needed to get through the next five weeks and then I could go back to my life in San Francisco and forget it all.
Sunday came and went without any contact from Ky. Did I expect him to contact me? Yep. Was I a little disheartened when he didn’t? Confusingly yes. I spent the day lazing in bed, eating room service food, and scrolling eBay for things I didn’t need. I should have been prepping for the shoots I had booked and researching the bands, but all I wanted was laziness. I didn’t receive any further messages so I desperately crammed the memory of last night’s text into the pits of my brain. By the time I crawled into bed that night I had spent two hundred dollars on boots, ate way too much candy, and hadn’t stopped thinking about the guy with the honey-colored eyes.