I walk half a mile down the beach until I find a flat, sunny patch against the cliffs, somewhat protected from the biting wind, and I stretch out my blanket.
The rhythmic collapse of the breaking waves calms me down and helps me concentrate, and I need all the help I can get. It’s been months since I got back from Paris, but it feels like yesterday, and I still don’t have a clue about what I’m going to do to start up my life again.
An exhausted Wingo curls up beside me, and I take out my radio and tune in to the end of the Miami Heat-Boston Celtics game. After winning a special lottery at the end of the summer, the Celtics signed Dante to a twelve-million-dollar, three-year rookie contract, and he rewards them with twenty-two points, eleven rebounds, and four blocked shots. For his all-around performance this afternoon, Dante is interviewed live at courtside, and even Wingo’s ears prick up as Dante’s excited voice comes out of my tinny little transistor.
“I just want to give a shout-out to my grandmom Marie,” says Dante. “And to my homegirl, lawyer, and agent, Kate Costello. I love you both, and I’ll see you soon.”
“You hear that, Wingo? I just got my first shout-out from the FleetCenter,” I say, and then I nuzzle my sweet, faithful dog.
In the distance, a couple steps onto the sand and starts to walk toward us along the tide line. They move slowly, leaning into the wind, and when they get closer, I see it’s Macklin and Marie.
Wingo and I get up to welcome them, but something’s wrong and Marie’s face is streaked with tears.
“What’s wrong?” I ask before they even get up to me.
“Tom’s dead,” she says. “He was murdered in jail this morning, Kate. Mack doesn’t understand why I’m crying, but maybe you will.”
I’m not sure I understand it either, but suddenly I’m crying too, hard, as if someone threw a switch, and as Marie and I cling to each other, Macklin looks at the sea and stamps the sand uncomfortably.
“What’s with you two? The guy was a lying, drug-dealing piece of scum, and a cold-blooded killer. He had it coming ten times over.”
“I know that,” says Marie, staring straight into my own crying eyes and dabbing at my tears with her handkerchief. “But still. He helped Dante. He did one good thing.”
“Right, after he framed him,” says Mack, but no one’s listening.
Marie invites me to her place, but I need to be alone. Despite my tears, a heavy weight is suddenly gone, and for the first time in months, I can think clearly about the future.
Wingo and I sit back down on the blanket in the sun, and by the time we get up and trudge back to the car, I think I know what I’m going to do.
I’m going to move to Portland or Seattle, where no one knows or cares who I am. I’m going to buy a little house with a porch in front, and maybe a stream running through the backyard, and I’m going to put a satellite dish on the roof so I can watch all of Dante’s games.
And then, when Wingo and I are settled into our new neighborhood and I have the place set up just like I want it, everything warm and cozy, I’m going to get my name on a list to adopt a baby. I don’t care if it’s white, black, brown, or yellow, or if it’s from Albania, Chile, Korea, or Los Angeles, but there’s going to be one stipulation that’s not negotiable. The baby has to be a girl. Because even though I know that Tom Dunleavy wasn’t an example of anything other than his own twisted self, Wingo and I have about had it with human men.
“Isn’t that right, Wingo?”
JAMES PATTERSON is one of the best-known and bestselling writers of all time. He is the author of the two top-selling new detective series of the past decade: the Alex Cross novels, including Mary, Mary; London Bridges; Kiss the Girls; and Along Came a Spider, and the Women’s Murder Club series, including 1st to Die, 2nd Chance, 3rd Degree, 4th of July, and The 5th Horseman. He has written many other #1 bestsellers, including Suzanne’s Diary for Nicholas, Lifeguard, and the International Thriller of 2005, Honeymoon. He lives in Florida.
PETER DE JONGE was the coauthor for the #1 bestseller The Beach House and for Miracle on the 17th Green.
