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“Don’t,” I said, raising my hand. “It’s not true. Let’s not discuss it.” I made no attempt to hide my irritation—not that I could have anyway. Mercifully, the next stop was mine, and I gave Pavlov a quick hug goodbye.

* * *

The next morning, I woke up to an in-box of e-mails from Pavlov. They were full of links and attachments to articles written about him in the 1990s—including, oddly, my own article about him that had been published in 1996 in the Moscow Times. I spent a long time in my hotel room, reading, watching clips, and trying to figure out what to do next. Pavlov still felt like an enigma, and I wasn’t sure that meeting again would provide clarity. But I wanted to try.

I’d hoped to see him perform—either as a DJ, or a drummer, or a rapper—but he didn’t have anything lined up for the week I was in Moscow. So we made a plan instead to go to a concert: his old Zvuki Mu bandmate Pyotr Mamonov was putting on a comeback show, with a new group called Otzvuki Mu.[6] I asked Pavlov if we could also get together before the concert, since it was a few days away, but he told me he was busy with meetings.

So now I had a couple of days on my own to further explore Moscow. I took the metro out to VDNKh, the site of the Soviet Union’s once-proud Exhibitions of the Achievements of the National Economy. I remembered coming here in 1988, expecting to see a proud monument to Soviet production, and being surprised at how run-down and sad the place felt then. My most vivid memory was of a claw machine, a glass box with a mechanical claw you could manipulate to pick up a prize; the most coveted treasure, as far as I could tell from watching Soviets playing the game, was a dusty, capless tube of toothpaste.

As I wandered around the pavilions of VDNKh now, the place was gleaming. I watched tourists take selfies in front of the Lenin statue and skateboarders whiz by in the late autumn sun, and I snacked on a ponchik—a deep-fried, thoroughly addictive Russian donut—and coffee. Later, I popped into the nearby Memorial Museum of Cosmonautics to see Belka and Strelka, the first two dogs to go into orbit and return alive; the dogs, who became folk heroes in Russia, have been stuffed and put on display next to the capsule that took them into space. Hours later, I finally made my way to the metro, and as I boarded a train to head back into the city center, I happened to pick a car that was set up as an art exhibition, with sketches and drawings from the Russian Geographical Society hanging on the wall across from a bench of passengers, many of whom were staring at their phones, taking advantage of the free metro-wide Wi-Fi. Moscow just kept surprising me.

On my last night in the city, Pavlov came to meet me at the hotel. Once again, he brought me a flower—a giant bird-of-paradise, a wildly exotic bloom for November in Russia. I stashed it up in my room, and we headed to the concert, which was in a hall at the House of Artists, not far from the towering Roman-toga statue of Peter the Great. We filed into the auditorium with hundreds of other fans, and for about an hour, we watched and listened as bald, gravelly voiced Pyotr Mamonov thrilled the crowd with his poetic songs, computer-generated backup music, and minimalist guitar in a show that was equal parts performance art and music. Pavlov knew a few other people there, and it was good to see him in his element, talking about music and reminiscing about his Zvuki Mu days.

I left for St. Petersburg the next morning, so that concert was the last time I saw him. And in the end, I wasn’t completely sure what to make of MC Pavlov, circa 2015. I could never figure out how much performing he did, or whether the loss of his Funky Time radio show had been as big a financial blow as I feared. I felt a little obsessed with these questions, though it appeared I might never get an answer to them.

Not long after I returned to Los Angeles, Pavlov sent me an invitation to connect on LinkedIn, of all things. I had to laugh; it was as if he’d looked into my soul and seen my existential angst over his professional life. On his page, he was listed as the founder of Pav-Love Muzik and an instructor at the Rainbow Music Agency, though it wasn’t clear whether he made a living from either of them. Then, a few months after that, he sent me a link to a four-minute video of himself playing and rapping with a keyboardist named Pavel Hotin. And that cleared everything up. Because as I watched Pavlov jamming at a tiny synthesizer, dressed in a bright yellow shirt and pink newsboy cap, bobbing his head joyfully to the beat, I realized I was being ridiculous to worry. Whatever happened, MC Pavlov was still making great music. He was still teaching the people.

TWELVE

St. Petersburg: Five Generations

On November 4, 2015, I arrived in St. Petersburg—the place where, 20 years earlier, this whole adventure had begun with a random e-mail from Gary Matoso. Back then, I was a desperate young would-be writer, unsure if I’d ever find my way into print. Now, fittingly, I was returning to my favorite city in the world, ready to write a book about the experiences that began and were ending here.

St. Petersburg always felt like home. I’d lived here for two and a half years in the mid-nineties, and despite epic winter cold and darkness, the city’s magic had captured me. With its meandering canals, Italianate architecture, and Tsarist-era splendor, there was beauty wherever one’s gaze happened to fall. The city’s tragic history during World War II, when German troops surrounded the city for 872 days, choking off food supplies and starving more than a million people, infused it with a steely survivor’s mentality. St. Petersburg felt heroic, strong, enduring. And one of the things I loved most about it was the sense that history lurked around every corner.

At the end of our 1995 trip, Gary and I decided to try to capture some of that history. A Russian friend of mine named Boris had offered to introduce us to his great-grandmother Maria Mikhailovna, a tiny but sturdy woman of 98 who had vivid memories of growing up in tsarist times. This was an amazing, vanishingly rare opportunity to hear firsthand about pre-Revolutionary Russia, and we jumped at the chance.

We spoke with Maria Mikhailovna, then interviewed her 72-year-old daughter Lia, who’d served in Leningrad during World War II; then Lia’s daughter-in-law Nina, who’d grown up during the space race era; Nina’s son Boris, who’d come of age during the collapse of the Soviet Union; and finally, Maria Mikhailovna’s great-great-grandson from another branch of the family tree, Vanya. At the age of six, little Vanya was poised at the edge of a new century, just as Maria Mikhailovna had been as a child nearly 100 years earlier.

To understand Russia today, one must look at what its people lived through in the twentieth century. This was our attempt to tell the story of that century, through the eyes of one family.

* * *

Maria Mikhailovna Gurevich was born on December 25, 1896, to Russian Jewish parents in the Black Sea town of Feodosiya. “My father was in the working class,” she told me, “and my mother stayed home to take care of the children. We had a big family, but we never went hungry, even though we didn’t have very much money. Mama knew how to take care of us.” Her mother eventually bore seven children; Maria Mikhailovna was the eldest.

Five generations of a Leningrad/St. Petersburg family: 98-year-old Maria Mikhailovna, WWII veteran Lia, physician Nina, psychology student Boris, and 6-year-old Vanya, 1995 (PHOTO BY GARY MATOSO)
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Literally, “From Zvuki Mu.” Not to be confused with “The Brand New Zvuki Mu,” which is another offshoot of the original Zvuki Mu band.