“Sorry, do you know the site’s name?”
“This is embarrassing.” She said pursing her lips into a heart shape and looking down. In her flower print day dress she looked like an innocent college student. “I don’t know how Betty got into this, she was always a bit wild but after her mom died she just went crazy. It’s tearing Uncle Travis up.”
“I’m sorry.”
“I just want to help him. The site is called, um,” she stammered, ashamed to say it out loud, she whispered, “Hot-horny-strippers.com.”
The clerk looked down at the keyboard and typed in the address. He paused for a moment, embarrassed by the picture in front of him. Cass studied the floor. “Damn, she could be your twin, except the hair, yours is, you know…”
“Blonde,” Cass said eyes still downcast. “Please turn it off.”
“Sorry, I, um, just, you know, need the address.” He tore his eyes from the naked picture and quickly wrote down a series of numbers, then clicked out of the site. “Every IP address has five numbers, they give the country, region, municipality, city block and real world address.” He was relieved to be back on a subject he was strong in. Cass rewarded his returning confidence with another brilliant smile. “The phone company keeps records of all the addresses. Their firewalls are some of the weakest on the net, I wrote a program to hack them.”
“You’re amazing. Where did you learn all this?” Cass said with admiration.
“I’ve been messing with computers since before I could walk,” he said proudly. He slipped in a disk and typed in several commands. Numbers and letters flashed across the screen in rapid succession. “This is going to take a couple of minutes, you want another latte?”
“That would be nice.” As they moved to the counter, Cass moved close beside him, giving him a comfortable sense of familiarity. He was a small boy, I don’t think he was ever chosen first for stick ball, but next to Cass’ petite body, he looked almost full size. Looking down at her, he beamed with pride. I’m sure at that moment he wished someone he knew would come in and see just how cool he was.
I couldn’t hear what they said but they seemed to chat happily. Watching them was like seeing an alternate path Cass could have taken. A nice girl on a date with a nice boy her own age. He could walk her home to a house where a good mother and father waited. Maybe he’d take her to the movies and get up the courage to slip an arm onto her shoulder. I knew it was all an act, but if I was her Uncle Travis, it’s the life I would want for her.
Back at the computer, she sipped a fresh latte while they watched the blinking screen. “And we are in,” the clerk said proudly. He typed in the IP address and then scribbled something down. “It’s down in Palo Alto, not one of the big servers, may even be a private home,” he said handing her the paper.
“You are fantastic.” She kissed him on the cheek. We left him glowing, at least for a moment he was somebody cool. On the street, her happy smile dropped instantly and she transformed back into her twenty going on forty year old self.
“Nice kid,” I said.
“I guess, if you like nice.” She gave me a look that told me she didn’t, she liked bad men like me.
“Come on, he seemed like a good kid.” We were walking down the steep street, leaning back for balance.
“A real saint. Did you see the way he was drooling over Kelly’s picture? He was easy to play, I liked that about him.” We walked on in silence. At the bottom of the hill she turned to me, suddenly serious. “I did good right?”
“Yeah you did swell.”
“And you couldn’t have done it without me?”
“Not without spilling some of that kid’s coffee and or blood. And I hate to waste good coffee. Who’s Uncle Travis? He the one?”
“He’s from that movie, you know, the old time one about the guy who drives the taxi?” she said searching for the title.
“Taxi Driver?”
“Yeah, that’s the one, sometimes you remind me of him.” For her it was a compliment. And oddly enough that’s how I took it.
“With or without the mohawk?” I said with a grin.
“With, most definitely. You’re whacko, straight up crazy. But in a good way,” she said as we climbed into the Crown Vic. The address was down the bay in Palo Alto, in the heart of Silicon Valley. We took the 101 out of the city, out of the fog and out past Candlestick Park, or at least that’s what it was called for forever until some corporate bandits bought the rights to name it after their crap. Everything is for sale in America, you just have to know the price. It was a forty minute drive, traffic was light, the sun was on the bay, seagulls circled in the air and everything was right with the world except for all the parts that were fucked up. Like mob assassins trying to whack you for no good reason, and little girls posing naked on their hands and knees when they should be going to junior college and dating Biff the track star. I wondered what else I would have to find out about Kelly. With every step I took, I knew her less and less. Or maybe I knew her better. But she wasn’t the girl I had cared so deeply for. She had been an actress playing a part that should have been her life. That guileless country girl I shared Chinese food with, the girl who loved her puppy and went to the dog park, that’s who she should have been. Who she could have been if the world had kept its hands to itself and let her grow up.
“Was it your father?” I asked Cass.
“Was who my father?” she said, looking out the window.
“Who put the scars on you two. Was it your father?”
“Oh you think you have it all figured out, do you? You think you know me? Forget it,” she said, her voice turning cold. “Keep your mind on who killed Kelly, ok?”
“What ever you say.” I let it lay. I didn’t really need the details, the names changed but the facts remained. Girls of the sex trade all came from the same mold, shaped by a world that sexualized them at a young age. They all yearned for the good daddy, but looked for him in bad men. They searched to master what they couldn’t control as children. I had spent my adult life in their world and only seen a handful make it out. The rest put scars on scar tissue and kept moving on, getting colder and colder. In the end cynicism replaced hope and they lived their lives in rigid resignation.
We got off the freeway at University Avenue. It was a broad street canopied by deep-rooted trees. The homes were large yet still cozy, with eight mile long unfenced front lawns stretching to the curb. Palo Alto was a rich man’s small town USA. Kids played on lawns with a Frisbee, others rode bikes and skateboards. If Dennis the Menace ran out chased by Mr. Wilson, I wouldn’t have been surprised one bit. It was just that freaking quaint a town and it made my palms sweat just to be there.
The address we had turned out to be a two-story Tudor on Hamilton Avenue, a quiet residential neighborhood that stunk of both old money and new dot com cash. It was early evening so I cruised past the house, in the driveway was a late model Volvo station wagon and a BMW sedan five series. With something like ninety plus grand in rolling stock, and a mil plus house, whoever lived there was doing ok, I kept going.
On University, I found a fifties style diner. The place looked about a week old but everything had been pre-aged so it had the feeling of a real greasy spoon, in a creepy Disney-land sort of way. This was a town that had real history, which they tore out and replaced with fake history, just because they could. As we walked in, four Stanford boys craned their necks to watch Cass walk by. They looked at me and I could hear the laughter at some joke being told. I moved us to the counter with our backs to the boys, I knew if I had to look at them it would get ugly and that wasn’t why I was here. If Cass noticed any of it she didn’t say, it seemed she’d become immune years ago to the bullshit her looks brought out in men, unless she was using it for a purpose, then she knew how to turn it on like a light switch. We ordered and Cass powered down two double burgers and an order of chili fries. I still had no idea where she put it, but watching her eat I forgot about the college boys and beating the crap out of them and I laughed.