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paint:

the recumbent Frida — deep incisions in her back

the seated Frida holding court and corset and scorn.

Their criticisms, gossip, recriminations

in the demeaning, in the mean-spirited

“Unregenerate junkie,” apply layers of disdain, “nymphomaniac, suicidal, alcoholic, self-dramatizing, narcissist” Easy for you to say

And she is dying posthumously one more time in their scorn … martyr bordered, la misericorda.

Papa!

holding the yellow flower that the Aztecs associated with death and that decorate graves all over Mexico.

Her magic numbers, talismans — to ward off any more

the internal lyrical motives that impelled her

All the things she loved

her characteristic small slow affectionate strokes

Diego

She paints on the smoothness of metal — touch, touch and gently with her meticulous brush

the skin of the fruit, tree, rock, stream

I feel you

all is alive I feel you

the miracle of her touch with paint

her pain in paint

Heart, uterus, breasts, spine

longing, longing, she paints

intestines — the valves up close

blood through

trembling

smallest of brushes like eyelashes on skin

she trembles

every hair stands up

painting fur

the tenderness of her touch

a parrot, a small dog

skin of water, fruit, birds

softness — the velvet curtain

the folds of dress

one foot in oblivion—

love me a little

and she feels with her eyes the water all over her

and she paints, the flatness of rock, the texture of feather and tree

the exposed heart

roots, veins

If you could feel what I feel.

Drops of mother’s milk, drops of blood, the weeping fruit

She feels in her the motion

And I am painting the skin of my body—

my pain

with a small brush

something so dear

with reverence.

a touch like no other

There is no artist in Mexico that can compare with her, he says.

The blood pumping of the heart, the severed valves, hurt, love. Your blood flows up into the distant mountains and down into the sea, chasm, the red delta, red river, fluid, brutal poetry of blood and broken

green: warm and good light

cobalt blue: electricity and purity. Love

she feels in her the joy, the yellow pulsing mystery madness

She feels in her the music, voices, pictures, sings.

drawn to the swirling

vibrant, magnetic, Diego, the way color

pulses—

the way—

color comes and goes

She feels in her the alegría

She would become happy in front of any beautiful thing.

the way color keeps

the way color has always kept

drawn to the swirling

the way the line redeems

consoles sometimes.

the way — broken

impassive, furious, anguished—

the torso split paint

without flinching

steel corset

breaking apart

Diego why?

ionic column

answer me.

a pair of legs severed from their body and between them a pair of lips.

a blood red ribbon circling her neck now Diego don’t go.

Diego

Love me a little I adore you

the way the ribbon connects—

blood of Mexico

— transcends

because I loved you, wanted you.

promiscuous one,

a monkey tail encircles her neck

and lust is just another adornment (thorn necklace,

hummingbird)

a way of getting there

The monkey Frida naked, laughing. Fulang Chang! she cries, she paints.

Votive: devotion

egg, pagan, emblem of creation she paints

you are rejuvenation, you are spring and resurrection, sanctity of blood, beating wings as your teeth

As your teeth sink into him and you swear yourself once more into being.

turbulence of earth, puberty and you are back once more at the Preparatoria before, before …

Accident:

ferocious child of light

the broken eggs, maimed dolls, the figure blindfolded, the torn bridal canopy

And she smiles and she utters unearthly things and she utters not in any known language, in stars and pain, pulque she says I am devouring time and the earth

put it in my eyes now

votive: vision

ACCIDENT

I am not sick. I am broken.

I am happy as long as I can paint.

Survivor

Between the Curtains (Self-Portrait Dedicated to Trotsky)

Fulang Chang and Myself

The Square Is Theirs (Four Inhabitants of Mexico)

I With My Nurse

They Ask for Planes and Only Get Straw Wings

I Belong to My Owner

My Family (My Grandparents, My Parents and I)

The Heart (Memory)

My Dress Hangs There

What the Water Gave Me

Ixcuintle Dog with Me

Pitahayas

Tunas

Food From the Earth

Remembrance of an Open Wound

The Lost Desire (Henry Ford Hospital)

Birth

Dressed Up for Paradise

She Plays Alone

Passionately in Love

Burbank — American Fruit Maker

Xochitl

The Frame

Eye

Survivor

ACCIDENT

I have a cat’s luck since I do not

die so easily and that’s always something.

Accident

Written by Dr. Henriette Begun in 1946

1926: Accident causes fracture of third and fourth lumbar vertebrae, three fractures of pelvis, eleven fractures of right foot, dislocation of left elbow, penetrating abdominal wound caused by iron handrail entering left hip, exiting through vagina and tearing left lip. Acute peritonitis. Cystitis with catheterization for many days. Three months bed rest at Red Cross hospital. Spinal fracture not recognized by doctors until Dr. Ortiz Tirado ordered immobilization with plaster corset for nine months. After three or four months of corset patient suddenly felt entire right side “as if asleep” for hour or more, this phenomenon giving way with injections and massage; symptoms not repeated. At removal of corset patient resumed “normal” life, but from then on has had sensation of constant fatigue and at times pain in backbone and right leg, which now never leave her.

1929: Marriage. Normal sex life. Pregnancy in first year of marriage. Abortion because of malformed pelvis. Wasserman and Kahn (W&K) tests negative. Constant fatigue and weight loss.

1931: In San Francisco, California, examined by Dr. Leo Eloesser. Given several tests, W&K among them, these resulting slightly positive. Two months treatment without a cure. No analysis of spinal fluid. In these days pain in right foot worse, atrophy up to thigh in right leg increases considerably, tendons of 2 toes in right foot retracted, making normal walking extremely difficult. Dr. Eloesser diagnoses congenital deformity of the backbone. X-rays show considerable scoliosis and apparent fusion of third and fourth lumbar vertebrae with disappearance of invertebrate meniscus. Small trophic ulcer appears on right foot.