"I'm aware of that."
"So we can't let this escalate. Not without at least some evidence."
His eyes shine yellow-white in the backscatter from his headlamp. "If you're serious about evidence, you could always collect some yourself."
"How?"
He taps the left side of his chest. Where the implants are.
She goes cold. "No."
"If Seger's hiding anything, you'd know it."
"She could be hiding lots of things from lots of people. It wouldn't prove what she was hiding."
"You'd know what Nolan was feeling too, since you seem so concerned with her motives."
"I know what her motives are. I don't need to fuck with my brain chemistry to confirm it."
"The medical risks are minimal," he points out.
"That's not the point. It wouldn't prove anything. You know you can't read specific thoughts, Ken."
"You wouldn't have to. Reading guilt would be suffic—"
"I said no."
"Then I don't know what to tell you." He turns away again. His headlamp transforms the reservoir's plumbing into a tiny, high-contrast cityscape tilted on edge. Clarke watches him work—tracking pathways, tapping pipes, making small changes to tabletop architecture. A pinpoint sun flares hissing at his fingertips, blinding her for an instant. By the time her caps have adjusted the light has settled on the skin of the tank. The water shimmers prismatically around it like a heat mirage on a hot day; at lesser depths it would explode into steam on the spot.
"There's another way," she buzzes. Lubin shuts off the spot-welder.
"There is." He turns to face her. "But I wouldn't get my hopes up."
Back when the trailer park was just getting set up, someone had the clever idea of turning a hab into a mess halclass="underline" a row of cyclers, a couple of prep surfaces for the daring, and a handful of foldaway tables scattered with studied randomness around the dry deck. The effect was intended to suggest a café patio. The cramped reality is more like the backstage shed where the furniture gets stored for winter.
One thing that has caught on, though, is the garden. By now it covers half the wet deck, a tangle of creeping greenery lit by solar-spectrum sticks planted among its leaves like bioluminescent bamboo. It isn't even hydroponic. The little jungle erupts from boxes of rich dark earth—diatomaceous ooze, actually, beefed up with organic supplements—that were once discrete but which have since now disappeared under an overflow of compost, spilling messily across the plating.
It's the best-smelling bubble of atmosphere on the whole Ridge. Clarke swings the airlock hatch open onto that tableau and takes a deep breath, only half of appreciation. The other half is resolve: Grace Nolan looks up from the far side of the oasis, tying off the vines of something that might have been snow peas back before the patents landed on them.
But Nolan smiles beneath translucent eyes as Clarke steps onto the deck. "Hey, Lenie!"
"Hi Grace. I thought we could maybe have a talk."
Nolan pops a pod into her mouth, a slick black amphibian feeding in the lush greenery of some long-extinct wetland. She chews, for longer than is probably necessary. "About…"
"About Atlantis. Your blood work." Clarke takes a breath. "About whatever problem you have with me."
"God no," Nolan says. "I've got no problem with you, Len. People fight sometimes. No big deal. Don't take it so seriously."
"Okay then. Let's talk about Gene."
"Sure." Nolan straightens, grabs a chair off the bulkhead and folds it down. "And while we're at it, let's talk about Sal and Lije and Lanie."
Lanie too, now? "You think the corpses are behind it."
Nolan shrugs. "It's no big secret."
"And you base that on what, exactly? Anything show up in the bloods?"
"We're still collecting samples. Lizbeth's set up in the med hab, by the way, if you want to contribute. I think you should."
"What if you don't find anything?" Clarke wonders.
"I don't think we will. Seger's smart enough to cover her tracks. But you never know."
"You know it's possible that the corpses have nothing to do with this."
Nolan leans back in her chair and stretches. "Sweetie, I can't tell you how surprised I am to hear you say that."
"So show me some evidence."
Nolan smiles, shaking her head. "Here's a bit of an exercise for you. Say you're swimming through shark-infested waters. Big sickle-finned stumpfucks all over the place, and they're looking you up and down and you know the only reason they're not tearing into you right now is because you've got your billy out, and they've seen what that billy can do to fishies like them. So they keep their distance, but that makes 'em hate you even more, right? Because you've already killed some of 'em. These are really smart sharks. They hold grudges.
"So you swim along for a little while, all these cold dead pissed-off eyes and teeth always just out of range, and you come across—oh, say Ken. Or what's left of him. A bit of entrail, half a face, ID patch just floating around amongst all those sharks. What do you do, Len? Do you decide there isn't any evidence? Do you say Hey, I can't prove anything, I didn't see this go down? Do you say, Let's not jump to any conclusions…"
"That's a really shitty analogy," Clarke says softly.
"I think it's a great fucking analogy."
"So what are you going to do?"
"I can tell you what I'm not going to do," Nolan assures her. "I'm not going to sit back and have faith in the goodness of corpse spirit while all my friends turn to sockeye."
"Is anyone asking you to do that?"
"Not yet. Any time now, I figure."
Clarke sighs. "Grace, I'm only saying, for the good of all of us—"
"Fuck you," Nolan snarls suddenly. "Fuck you. You don't give a shit about us."
It's as if someone flipped a switch. Clarke stares, astonished.
Nolan glares eyelessly back, her body trembling with sudden rage. "You really want to know my problem with you? You sold us out. We were this close to pulling the plug on those stumpfucks. We could've forced their own goddamn entrails down their throats, and you stopped us,you fucker."
"Grace," she tries, "I know how you fe—"
"Horseshit! You don't have a fucking cluehow I feel!"
What did they do to you, Clarke wonders, to turn you into this?
"They did things to me too," she says softly.
"Sure they did. And you got yours back, didn't you? And correct me if I'm wrong but didn't you end up fucking over a whole lot of innocent people in the mix? You never gave a shit about them. And maybe it was too much trouble to work it through but a fair number of us fish-heads lost people to your grand crusade along with everyone else. You didn't give a shit about them either, as long as you got your kick at the cat. Fine. You got it. But the rest of us are still waiting, aren't we? We don't even want to mow down millions of innocent people, we just want to get at the assholes who actually fucked us over—and you of all people come crawling over here on Patricia Rowan's leash to tell me I don't have the right?" Nolan shakes her head in disgust. "I don't believe we let you stop us before, and I sure as shit don't believe you're going to stop us now."
Her hatred radiates through the compartment like infrared. Clarke is distantly amazed that the vines beside her don't blacken and burst into flame.
"I came to you because I thought we could work something out," she says.