I closed my eyes and went with it, imagining how it would feel to be totally encased by this man. His lips and tongue teased mine almost playfully, but slowly and sensually, as if he were tasting me, centimeter by centimeter.
I raised my arms up and wrapped them around his neck, relishing in the warmth that I could feel with his closeness. Our kiss deepened, and I opened myself up to him, pulling his weight down upon me.
His lips moved slowly to my cheek, planting soft kisses there, his tongue gently lapped at my earlobe. He released a warm sigh against my ear that sent a shiver through me. His tongue traced the outside of my ear, and gently flicked at the edges, as his hands were now framing my rib cage, and moving towards my breasts.
He kneaded my breasts through the double layer of clothing, which still did nothing to repel the heat of his hands on me. His mouth moved to the very sensitive area of my neck, right below my ear, causing me to shiver yet again.
I could tell that he loved making me shiver, and he was an expert at finding other sensitive areas on my neck and throat, taking his time and making soft moans escape from my lips, as his lips and tongue found new ways of pleasuring my skin.
Something in me was responding to him in a way that I'd never done with any other man. For that moment, I didn't care about anything else but melting into him.
My legs struggled beneath him until he raised himself up a bit, so that I could free them up in order to wrap them tightly around his hips.
I pressed myself into him, my legs as strong as a vise in pulling him into me.
I could feel his hardness against my groin as his lips now returned to my mouth, where he found new ways of positioning his lips and tongue, sucking gently on mine as a soft moan now escaped from him.
He thrust his hips gently against me, and mine instinctively rose up to do the same.
Shit…I haven't dry-fucked since eleventh grade.
Cain made no attempt to get underneath my clothing, which was good, because I actually think that no matter how good this felt, I would've stopped him from doing anything skin to skin below my neck.
We struck up a rhythm on the couch. I felt his hardness pressing and grinding against my clit, and that was quickly bringing me to a much-needed orgasm.
Our mouths were melded together, tongues swirling, breathing in one another's breaths. My skin felt flushed with the passionate heat that roiled between us like flames from a fire.
I couldn't stop now. I pressed myself up against him harder, as his hips swiveled against me; his hard cock beneath his jeans rubbed just the right spot, bringing my sweet orgasm to fruition.
I moaned against his lips as I came, trembling from the release that I hadn't had for such a long time, and loving the fact that it was Cain who had given it to me.
In that moment, I didn't feel as if it were wrong. I didn't stop to analyze it, or to even feel guilty about it, because it had nothing to do with anyone other than Cain and me.
Once my orgasm had subsided, I wasn't sure what to do.
I mean, it was kind of a conundrum. I'd gotten mine; he hadn't gotten his and to be honest, there wasn't anything further I was prepared to do to resolve that because of…Eli.
Finally, a bit of shame had sunk in. I moved out from underneath him, not really wanting to talk about it, or anything.
"I need to get to bed, Cain," I said, not really looking at him. I started to get up from the sofa, but he hauled me back down.
"You knew that this was bound to happen, didn't you?"
I was confused. I mean, I'd never planned on this happening, and since it had, I was now feeling like it was definitely kind of…wrong.
"I never meant for it to," I murmured like a repentant adolescent. "I don't want anything to come between you and Eli."
"It doesn't have to," he replied, taking a lock of my hair, and putting it behind my ear. "It can be about all of us."
"What?" I asked; the confusion very evident on my face.
"We have a unique situation," he commented, "But it's not insurmountable, babe. And it's not all that uncommon, given the right circumstances," he finished.
"Are you suggesting…uh," I stammered, looking for the right words.
"A threesome?" he offered.
I nodded my head.
"A threesome is an event," he replied. "I'm looking for much more than that, Paige."
"I can't think about any of this now, Cain. It doesn't…feel right to me."
"You go on to bed, and we'll talk about this another time, once you've had a chance to examine your feelings about me…and about Eli."
Eli? Eli couldn't possibly…
"Goodnight," I replied, not wanting to look back at him as I rose from the couch and hurried off to my room.
Much later, I was still lying awake in my room, thoughts and pieces of uncertainty and confusion taking up residence in my brain so that sleep wasn't an option.
From down the hall, I could hear the sounds from their room. I'd heard them before, but tonight it was much more pronounced as the headboard on their bed was rhythmically and loudly banging against the wall of their room.
I guess Cain was getting his after all.
chapter 13
It was Christmas Eve afternoon and I was trying to get presents wrapped before Cain and Eli arrived home.
They had gone over to Darcy and Easton's for lunch, and I had made an excuse because I knew Trace and Lindsey would be there, and I wasn't all that comfortable being around them. I occasionally ran into Trace in Quantico and it was still strained between us.
I didn't want to think about it. If my brother wanted to blow me off the way that he had, then it was on him, not me.
… And then there was my knitting.
I seriously had turned into some sort of a "knitting Rambo" over the past several weeks, and I really didn’t want to blame it on my sexual frustration, because personal denial had actually become one of my strong suits recently - or at least it had until the night after my last dating disaster. Ever since that incident on the couch with Cain, it was like sexual thoughts were coming out of the friggin’ woodwork!
I had done my best to avoid being alone with Cain, which wasn't easy because I could feel his brooding eyes on me from the other room.
It was this sexual vibe that had connected us ever since that night that didn't want to be denied. And it was starting to royally piss me off, because Eli had even commented that my knitting creations looked more and more like some sort of phallic symbols.
Pffft!!
They happened to be Christmas stockings for the three of us.
Phallic my ass!
Mine was white with a candy cane embroidered on it, Cain's was red with a gingerbread man on it, and Eli's was green with a snowman on it. I was damn proud of my workmanship. I think my roomies were a bit…puzzled by my newfound domesticity.
They teased me when I baked—six dozen Christmas cookies and a pan of fudge, packing the goodies up in decorative tins to give out to our mail carrier, newspaper delivery person, and our neighbors on either side of us.
Then, between the two of them, they had scarfed down the remaining two dozen cookies, along with the rest of the fudge in a day and a half. After that, Eli practically wouldn’t even let me have the T.V. remote because his pants fit tighter two days later.
I had to smile, because I couldn't remember feeling this content or secure, well…ever, I guess.
I no longer missed my random sexcapades, not that those had ever been that fulfilling to begin with. I had even stopped my search for an appropriate boyfriend. I mean who cares if I sat home alone on New Year's Eve? It was seriously over-rated anyway.