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citizen, and possibly, if there had been more like him,

our present society would have been better for it.

--"Our history has been one of weeding out all personalities

that did not fit easily into our drugged society. Today there

are so few left that I have handled only one hundred and

thirty-six in my entire career. . . ."

Major Grey saw that Helen Walden was tensing in her

chair. He realized suddenly that she sensed better than he the

effect he was having on the other men.

"We should not forget that each time we erase one of

these personalities," he pressed on relentlessly, "society loses

irrevocably a certain capacity for change. If we eliminate

all personalities who do not fit, we may find ourselves without

any minds capable of meeting future change. Our direct an-

cestors were largely the inmates of mental hospitals. . . we

are fortunate they were not erased. Conrad Manz," he asked

abruptly, "what is your opinion on the case of Bill Walden?"

Helen Walden started, but Conrad Manz shrugged his mus-

cular shoulders. "Oh, hospitalize the three-headed monster!"

Major Grey snapped his eyes directly past Colonel Hart

and fastened them on the Medicorps captain. "Your opinion,

Captain?"

But Helen Walden was too quick. Before he could rap the

table for order, she had her thin words hanging in the echo-

ing room. "Having been Mr. Walden's wife for fifteen years,

my sentiments naturally incline me to ask for hospitalization.

That is why I may safely say, if Major Grey will pardon me,

that the logic of the drugs does not entirely fail us in this

situation."

Helen waited while all present got the idea that Major

Grey had accused them of being illogical. "Bill's aberration

has led to our daughter's illness. And think how quickly it

contaminated Clara Manz! I cannot ask that society any

longer expose itself, even to the extent of keeping Bill in

the isolation of the hospital, for my purely sentimental rea-

sons.

"As for Major Grey's closing remarks, I cannot see how it is

fair to bring my husband to trial as a threat to society, if

some future change is expected, in which a man of his behav-

iour would benefit society. Surely such a change could only be

one that would ruin our present world, or Bill would hardly

fit it. I would not want to save Bill or anyone else for such

a future."

She did not have to say anything further. Both of the other

Medicorps officers were now fully roused to their duty. Colo-

nel Hart, of course, "humphed" at the opinions of a woman

and cast his with Major Grey. But the fate of Bill Walden

was sealed.

Major Grey sat, weary 'and uneasy, as the creeping little

doubts began. In the end, he would be left with the one big

stone-heavy doubt. . . could he have gone through with thistf -

he had not been drugged, and how would the logic of the trial

look without drugs?

He became aware of the restiveness in the room. They were

waiting for him, now that the decision was irrevocable. With-

out the drugs, he reflected, they might be feelingwhat was

the ancient word, guilt? No, that was what the criminal felt.

Remorse? That would be what they should be feeling. Major

Grey wished Helen Walden could be forced to witness the

erasure. People did not realize what it was like.

What was it Bill had said? "You should see how foolish

these communication codes look when you are undrugged.

This stupid hide-and-seek of shifting. . . ."

Well, wasn't that a charge to be inspected seriously, if you

were taking it seriously enough to kill the man for it? As soon

as this case was completed, he would have .to return to his

city and blot himself out so that his own hyperalter, Ralph

Singer, a painter of bad pictures and a useless fool, could

waste five more days. To that man he lost half his possible

living days. What earthly good was Singer?

Major Grey roused himself and motioned the orderly to in-

ject Conrad Manz, so that Bill Walden would be forced back

into shift.

"As soon as I have advised the patient' of our decision,

you will all be dismissed. Naturally, I anticipated this decision

and have arranged for immediate erasure. After the erasure,

Mr. Manz, you will be instructed to appear regularly for

suspended animation."

For some reason, the first thing Bill Walden did when he

became conscious of his surroundings was to look out the

great window for the flock of birds. But they were gone.

Bill looked at Major Grey and said, "What are you going

to do?"

The officer ran his hand back through his whitening hair,

but he looked at Bill without wavering. "You will be erased."

Bill began to shake his head. "There is something wrong,"

he said.

"Bill . . ." the major began.

"There is something wrong," Bill repeated hopelessly.

"Why must we be split so there is always something missing

na-each of us? Why must we be stupefied with drugs that

keep us from knowing what we should feel? I was trying to

live a better life. I did not want to hurt anyone."

"But you did hurt others," Major Grey said bluntly. "You

would do so again if allowed to function in your own way in

this society. Yet it would be insufferable to you to be hospi-

talized. You would be shut off forever from searching for

another Clara Manz. Andthere is no one else for you, is

there?"

Bill looked up, his eyes cringing 'as though they stared at

death. "No one else?" he asked vacantly. "No one?"

The two orderlies lifted him up by his arms, almost carry-

ing him into the operating room. His feet dragged helplessly.

He made no resistance as they lifted him on to the operating

table and strapped him down.

Beside him was the great panel of the mnemonic eraser

with its thousand unblinking eyes. The helmet-like prober

cabled to this calculator was fastened about his skull, and he

could no longer see the professor who was lecturing in the

amphitheatre above. But along his body he could see the

group of medical students. They were looking at him with

great interest, too young not to let the human drama interfere

with their technical education.

The professor, however, droned in a purely objective voice.

"The mnemonic eraser can selectively shunt from the brain

any identifiable category of memory, and erase the synaptic

patterns associated with its translation into action. Circulating

memory is disregarded. The machine only locates and shunts

out those energies present as permanent memory. These are

there in part as permanently echoing frequencies in closed

cytoplasmic systems. These systems are in contact with the rest

of the nervous system only during the phenomenon of remem-

brance. Remembrance occurs when, at all the synapses in a

given network 'y', the permanently echoing frequencies are

duplicated as transient circulating frequencies.

"The objective in a total operation of the sort before us

is to distinguish all the stored permanent frequencies, typical

of the personality you wish to extinguish, from the frequen-

cies typical of the other personality present in the brain."

Major Grey's face, very tired, but still wearing a mask of

adamant reassurance, came into Bill's vision. "There will be a

few moments of drug-induced terror, Bill. That is necessary

for the operation. I hope knowing it beforehand will help you