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its monolithic base. The bird's piping doubled and then choked

off as it veered frantically from Bill. After a while, far off

through the park, it released a fading protest of song.

Above Bill, the towering statue of the great Alfred Mor-

ris blackened against the sunset. The hollowed granite eyes

bore down on him out of an undecipherable dark... the

ancient, implacable face of the Medicorps. As if to pro-

nounce a sentence on his present crimes by a magical dis-

closure of the weight of centuries, a pool of sulphurous light

and leaf shadows danced on the painted plaque at the base

of the statue:

On this spot in' the Gregorian year 1996, Alfred Morris

announced to an assembly of war survivors the hypothal-

amic block. His stirring words were, "The new drug se-

lectively halts at the thalamic brain the upward flow of

unconscious stimuli and the downward flow of unconscious

motivations. It acts as a screen between the cerebrum and

the psychosomatic discharge system. Using hypothalamic

block, we will not act emotively, we will initiate acts only

from the logical demands of situations."

This announcement and the subsequent wholehearted ac-

tion of the war-weary people made the taking of hypothal-

amic block obligatory. This put an end to the powerful

play of unconscious mind in the public and private af-

fairs of the ancient world. It ended the great paranoid

wars and saved mankind.

In the strange evening light, the letters seemed alive, a cen-

turies-old condemnation of any who might try to go back to

the ancient pre-pharmacy days. Of course, it was not really

possible to go back. Without drugs, everybody and all society

would fall apart.

The ancients had first learned to keep endocrine deviates

such as the diabetic alive with drugs. Later they learned with

other drugs to "cure" the far more prevalent disease, schizoph-

renia, that was jamming their hospitals. This big change

came when the ancients used these same drugs on everyone to

control the private and public irrationality of their time and

stop the wars.

In this new, drugged world, the schizophrene thrived better

than any, and the world became patterned on him. But, just

as the diabetic was still diabetic, the schizophrene was still

himself, plus the drugs. Meanwhile, everyone had forgotten

what it was the drugs did to youthat the emotions experi-

enced were blurred emotions, that insight was at an isolated

level of rationality because the drugs kept true feelings

from ever emerging.

How inconceivable it would be to Helen and the other

people of this world to live on as little drug as possible . . . to

experience the conflicting emotions, the interplay of passion

and logic that almost tore you apart! Sober, the ancients

called it, and they lived that way most of the time, with

only the occasional crude and club-like effects of alcohol or

narcotics to relieve their chronic anxiety.

By taking as little hypothalamic block as possible, he and

Clara were able to desire their fantastic attachment, to delight

in an absolutely illogical situation unheard of in their society. .

But the society would judge their refusal to take hypothalamic

block in only one sense. The weight of this judgment stood

before him in the smouldering words, "It ended the great

paranoid wars and saved mankind."

When Clara did appear, she was searching myopically in

the wrong vicinity of the statue. He did not call to her at

once, letting the sight of her smooth out the tensions in him,

convert all the conflicts into this one intense longing to be

with her.

Her halting search for him was deeply touching, like that of

a tragic little puppet in a darkening dumbshow. He saw sud-

denly how like puppets the two of them were. They were

moved by the strengthening wires of a new life of feeling to

batter clumsily at an implacable stage setting that would

finally leave them as bits of wood and paper.

Then suddenly in his arms Clara was at the same time

hungrily moving and tense with fear of discovery. Little

sounds of love and fear choked each other in her throat. Her

blonde head pressed tightly into his shoulder and she clung

to him with desperation.

She said, "Conrad was disturbed by my tension this morn-

ing and made me take a sleeping compound. I've just awak-

ened."

They walked to her home in silence and even in the dark-

ened apartment they used only the primitive monosyllables of

apprehensive need. Beyond these mere sounds of compas-

sion, they had long ago said all that could be said.

Because Bill was the hyperalter, he had no fear that Con-

rad could force a shift on him. When later they lay in dark-

ness, he allowed himself to drift into a brief slumber. Without

the sleeping compound, distorted events came and went

without reason. Dreaming, the ancients had called it. It was

one of the most frightening things that bad begun to happen

when he first cut down on the drugs. Now, in the few sec-

onds that he dozed, a thousand fragments of incidental knowl-

edge, historical reading and emotional need melded and, in a

strange contrast to their present tranquillity, he was dream-

ing a frightful moment in the 20th Century. These are the

great paranoid wars, he thought. And it was so because he

had thought it.

He searched frantically through the glove compartment of

an ancient car. "Wait," he pleaded. "I tell you we have sul-

phonamide-14. We've been taking it regularly as directed. We

took a double dose back in Paterson because there were

soft-bombs all through that part of Jersey and we didn't

know what would be declared Plague Area next."

Now Bill threw things out of his satchel on to the floor

and seat of the car, fumbling deeper by the flashlight Clara

held. His heart beat thickly with terror. Then he remem-

bered his pharmacase. Oh, why hadn't they remembered sooner

about their pharmacases. Bill tore at the belt about his waist.

The Medicorps captain stepped back from the door of their

car. He jerked his head at the dark form of the corporal

standing in the roadway. "Shoot them. Run the car off the

embankment before you burn it."

Bill screamed metallically through the speaker of his radia-

tion mask. "Wait. I've found it." He thrust the pharmacase

out the door of the car. "This is a pharmacase," he ex-

plained. "We keep our drugs in one of these and it's belted

to our waist so we are never without them."

The captain of the Medicorps came back. He inspected the

pharmacase and the drugs and returned it. "From now on,

keep your drugs handy. Take them without fail according to

radio instructions. Do you understand?"

Clara's head pressed heavily against Bill's shoulder, and

he could hear the tinny sound of her sobbing through the

speaker of her mask.

The captain stepped into the road again. "Well have to

bum your car. You passed through a Plague Area and it

can't be sterilized on this route. About a mile up this

road you'll come to a sterlization unit. Stop and have your

person and belongings rayed. After that, keep walking, but

stick to the road. You'll be shot if you're caught off it."

The road was crowded with fleeing people. Their way was