He stood wordless for so long that the Captains grew restless. I wondered if he had forgotten what he meant to say and if I should pluck his sleeve to remind him to sit down. But he spoke at last.
“I will take no other wife and therefore will have no son. So my brother is my heir. It is I this time who name him Prince in Waiting, not the Spirits. I bid you drink to that.”
• • •
When we were alone I said: “There was no need of it.”
“Need enough. It is wise to say these things plainly.”
“And too early to talk of having no second wife. Your mind is still unsettled by grief.”
“I think not. Luke, your time may come sooner than you guess.”
I looked at him. He was thinner but otherwise well enough. And I could not believe he would seek to take his life: the time when it might have happened was surely past. He said:
“If I should become a Christian I must give up the sword, and no Prince can rule without it.”
“You would not do that!”
“I do not know.” He shook his head. “Maybe it would please her spirit.”
• • •
Martin came to me in the palace that night. To bid good-by, I thought, but there was more to it: he brought a message from Ezzard. I listened and said:
“The answer is the same as before. I am determined to go.”
He said earnestly: “It is different now that you have been named Prince in Waiting again. And there are rumors. . . .”
“I can guess what they are. So people listen to the gossip of Christians now? But maybe the Christians boast too soon. Sorrow mends, and his mind will mend with it.”
“Ezzard knows more of these things. And you know what rests on your success.”
I had assumed he had been told enough to understand the true significance of the Seers and Sanctuary, but we had never discussed it. We had older bonds and I preferred them to this. I said:
“There are limits to Ezzard’s wisdom. Has he asked himself what the Captains would think of someone who proposed himself for such a thing, and then withdrew? I think they would sooner have a swordless Prince than a coward.”
“It need not seem like that. Illness could prevent your going.”
“And what name will Kermit give the illness: heartsickness?”
“It would be a true fever. Kermit and his assistants have been deceived before.”
That was so; it had been an appearance of illness, contrived by Ezzard in one of the four named as Young Captains, that had given me my chance in the Contest. From which so much had come. I said:
“I will have no more to do with Ezzard’s tricks than is necessary. And I will go with the others tomorrow. Tell Ezzard not to try to stop me.”
Martin shook his head. “He will not do that.” He paused. “I envy you and Edmund.”
I put my hand on his black-clothed arm and squeezed it. “I wish we could have you with us. But it would look strange, an Acolyte riding with a troop of horse. And Ezzard has need of you here, I imagine.”
“You are not the only one who tires of Ezzard’s needs.”
He had always been frail of body compared with me. He had grown taller and matched me in height but seemed to have put on scarcely any weight. His chest was narrow, his brown eyes very big in a face peaked and white and given to frowning. It was to be expected from sitting indoors all day, hunched over books. I said:
“You could come with us. If you put off that black dress and leave the Seers.”
“How is it possible? I am bound by vows.”
“From which Ezzard can dispense you.”
“But would not.”
“If I demand it, he must. I share the secrets of the craft, remember. He will release you to me.”
For a moment he looked half hopeful, then shook his head.
“It is not possible, Luke.”
I shrugged. “It is true there is little time before tomorrow. And tongues might wag. But we will talk of it again when I return.”
He said, speaking more to himself than to me: “It was knowledge I sought. Knowledge which is clean and pure, far above the cheating and deceiving in which most men spend their lives.”
“And do you not find it,” I asked, “this knowledge which you prize?”
“In part,” he said. “I find others things, too. Things I do not desire but must accept. There is still cheating and deceiving.”
I nodded. “And I am not surprised that you tire of it. I would not care to spend so much time playing tricks in the dark on sweating commoners. But you cannot be kept to it.”
“I am bound.”
The frown was more a look of pain. I pressed his arm again.
“Bonds can be loosened. When I come back.”
• • •
We rode north in good weather with fitful sunshine breaking through the clouds. We were twenty-three in number: Greene with his groom, a Sergeant called Bristow, sixteen troopers, Edmund, Hans and myself. And the peddler. He had exchanged his pack horse for one of my brother’s chargers. He called this a favor, praising the mount he had left behind, but I guessed he reckoned to do well out of the trade. I had looked at his old horse and not thought much of it; and he had already admitted that the land of the Wilsh could not match ours in beasts.
The thaw had continued. Snow still lay in a few sheltered patches but for the most part the grass was fast growing and hawthorn bushes beginning to be green. In places shepherds had brought out their flocks. A boy near the limit of Winchester territory left his sheep on the hillside and raced down to stand on a piece of broken stone wall and watch our passing. He stared after us for a long time; until the curve of the hill came between us. I guessed he would go back to his beasts with a heart heavy with longing, and my own felt lighter for the assurance that we were on our way—that strange and wonderful things lay ahead, and gloom and sorrow and misery fell farther behind with every step our horses trod.
It was some fifty miles from Winchester to the edge of the Burning Lands as a bird flies. But our way, of course, was less direct and Greene was in no hurry. He was a tall man, alert in bearing, given to noisy mirth in drink but with a cool mind in action. He put wax on his mustache and had a trick of rolling the ends into small tight spears. As he said, we should need their best from our horses later so there was no sense in flogging them at the start. And they had been in the city stables all winter and needed to get used to the fields.
We spent the first night in Andover lands, at a village where they looked at us with fear and suspicion until Greene produced silver for our lodging. After that they swarmed about us and poured ale. We took a pot each for politeness’ sake but though they pressed us would have no more. We were on service and under discipline, as Greene told them. Though even the heavy ale-drinkers among the men found this small hardship: the ale was thin, ill-tasting stuff. The food was not much better and the straw thick with fleas. We woke before first light, the men scratching and cursing.
From there we rode across the hills and came down in the afternoon to Marlborough, which lies as Salisbury does in a valley, but a deeper one. The town stood under Oxford sovereignty but was so far distant—more than thirty miles of hilly country—that it could almost be said to be independent. They acknowledged Oxford’s Prince but their own Captain General lived in princely style and they paid only a token tax.
They struck me as dour, unfriendly people. The commoners watched our passage through their streets in silence, whereas in Winchester the sight of any troop of horse would have raised a cheer. The soldiers were as sullen and Stokes, the Captain General, was a glowering, taciturn man. He listened with evident disapproval to Greene’s account of our mission. Even if the thing were possible, which he doubted, he saw no sense in it.