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After they’d had their spumoni Mr. Barrow ordered himself brandy and she drank the bitter black coffee and they sat in the stuffy noisy restaurant smelly of garlic and sour wine and tomatosauce and sawdust and forgot the time and talked. She said she’d taken up socialservice work to be in touch with something real but now she was beginning to feel coopedup and so institutional that she often wondered if she wouldn’t have done better to join the Red Cross overseas or the Friends Reconstruction Unit as so many of the girls had but she so hated war that she didn’t want to do anything to help even in the most peaceful way. If she’d been a man she would have been a C.O., she knew that.

Mr. Barrow frowned and cleared his throat: “Of course I suppose they were sincere, but they were very much mistaken and probably deserved what they got.” “Do you still think so?” “Yes, dear girl, I do… Now we can ask for anything; nobody can refuse us, wages, the closed shop, the eighthour day. But it was hard differing with oldfriends… my attitude was much misunderstood in certain quarters…”

“But you can’t think it’s right to give them these dreadful jail sentences.”

“That’s just to scare the others… You’ll see they’ll be getting out as soon as the excitement quiets down… Debs’s pardon is expected any day.”

“I should hope so,” said Mary.

“Poor Debs,” said Mr. Barrow, “one mistake has destroyed the work of a lifetime, but he has a great heart, the greatest heart in the world.” Then he went on to tell her about how he’d been a railroadman himself in the old days, a freightagent in South Chicago; they’d made him the businessagent of his local and he had worked for the Brotherhood, he’d had a hard time getting an education and suddenly he’d waked up when he was more than thirty, in New York City writing a set of articles for the Evening Globe, to the fact that there was no woman in his life and that he knew nothing of the art of life and the sort of thing that seemed to come natural to them over there and to the Mexicans now. He’d married unwisely and gotten into trouble with a chorusgirl, and a woman had made his life a hell for five years but now that he’d broken away from all that, he found himself lonely getting old wanting something more substantial than the little pickups a man traveling on missions to Mexico and Italy and France and England, little international incidents, he called them with a thinlipped grin, that were nice affairs enough at the time but were just dust and ashes. Of course he didn’t believe in bourgeois morality but he wanted understanding and passionate friendship in a woman.

When he talked he showed the tip of his tongue sometimes through the broad gap in the middle of his upper teeth. She could see in his eyes how much he had suffered. “Of course I don’t believe in conventional marriage either,” said Mary. Then Mr. Barrow broke out that she was so fresh so young so eager so lovely so what he needed in his life and his speech began to get a little thick and she guessed it was time she was getting back to Hull House because she had to get up so early. When he took her home in a taxi she sat in the furthest corner of the seat but he was very gentlemanly although he did seem to stagger a little when they said goodnight.

After that supper the work at Hull House got to be more and more of a chore, particularly as George Barrow, who was making a lecturetour all over the country in defense of the President’s policies, wrote her several times a week. She wrote him funny letters back, kidding about the oldmaids at Hull House and saying that she felt it in her bones that she was going to graduate from there soon, the way she had from Vassar. Her friends at Hull House began to say how pretty she was getting to look now that she was curling her hair.

For her vacation that June Mary French had been planning to go up to Michigan with the Cohns, but when the time came she decided she really must make a break; so instead she took the Northland around to Cleveland and got herself a job as countergirl in the Eureka Cafeteria on Lakeside Avenue near the depot.

It was pretty tough. The manager was a fat Greek who pinched the girls’ bottoms when he passed behind them along the counter. The girls used rouge and lipstick and were mean to Mary, giggling in corners about their dates or making dirty jokes with the busboys. At night she had shooting pains in her insteps from being so long on her feet and her head spun from the faces the asking mouths the probing eyes jerking along in the rush hours in front of her like beads on a string. Back in the rattly brass bed in the big yellowbrick roominghouse, a girl she talked to on her boat had sent her to, she couldn’t sleep or get the smell of cold grease and dishwashing out of her nose; she lay there scared and lonely listening to the other room ers stirring behind the thin partitions, tramping to the bathroom, slamming doors in the hall.

After she’d worked two weeks at the cafeteria she decided she couldn’t stand it another minute, so she gave up the job and went and got herself a room at the uptown Y.W.C.A. where they were very nice to her when they heard she’d come from Hull House and showed her a list of socialservice jobs she might want to try for, but she said No, she had to do real work in industry for once, and took the train to Pittsburgh where she knew a girl who was an assistant librarian at Carnegie Institute.

She got into Pittsburgh late on a summer afternoon. Crossing the bridge she had a glimpse of the level sunlight blooming pink and orange on a confusion of metalcolored smokes that jetted from a wilderness of chimneys ranked about the huge corrugated iron and girderwork structures along the riverbank. Then right away she was getting out of the daycoach into the brownish dark gloom of the station with her suitcase cutting into her hand. She called up her friend from a dirty phonebooth that smelled of cigarsmoke. “Mary French, how lovely!” came Lois Speyer’s comical burbling voice. “I’ll get you a room right here at Mrs. Gansemeyer’s, come on out to supper. It’s a boardinghouse. Just wait till you see it… But I just can’t imagine anybody coming to Pittsburgh for their vacation.” Mary found herself getting red and nervous right there in the phonebooth. “I wanted to see something different from the socialworker angle.”

“Well, it’s so nice the idea of having somebody to talk to that I hope it doesn’t mean you’ve lost your mind… you know they don’t employ Vassar graduates in the openhearth furnaces.”

“I’m not a Vassar graduate,” Mary French shouted into the receiver, feeling the near tears stinging her eyes. “I’m just like any other workinggirl… You ought to have seen me working in that cafeteria in Cleveland.” “Well, come on out, Mary darling, I’ll save some supper for you.” It was a long ride out on the streetcar. Pittsburgh was grim all right.

Next day she went around to the employment offices of several of the steelcompanies. When she said she’d been a socialworker they looked at her awful funny. Nothing doing; not taking on clerical or secretarial workers now. She spent days with the newspapers answering helpwanted ads.

Lois Speyer certainly laughed in that longfaced sarcastic way she had when Mary had to take a reporting job that Lois had gotten her because Lois knew the girl who wrote the society column on the Times-Sentinel.

As the Pittsburgh summer dragged into August, hot and choky with coalgas and the strangling fumes from blastfurnaces, blooming-mills, rollingmills that clogged the smoky Y where the narrow rivervalleys came together, there began to be talk around the office about how red agitators had gotten into the mills. A certain Mr. Gorman said to be one of the head operatives for the Sherman Service was often seen smoking a cigar in the managingeditor’s office. The paper began to fill up with news of alien riots and Russian Bolshevists and the nationalization of women and the defeat of Lenin and Trotzky.