I head for the panel, reach out for the buttons, and from behind me comes an explosion, then a crash- from the back of the house. Oh no, did I leave the stove on or something?
But I don't smell gas or anything burning, and when I turn, I see a big black space where the kitchen door was and the door's down on the floor and a guy's coming through the space, he's in the house, now, seeing me, throwing open the door to Sam's room, looking in, coming out-
Coming at me.
Dressed all in black.
Weird orange-pink skin and yellow hair.
Big.
He looks right at me. I don't know him, but he knows me!
PLYR 1!
How?
Oh God, no oh no- he's coming right at me and he's got a knife- a big pink man with a knife. I want to scream, but my mouth is frozen. I reach for the doorknob, touch only air, and he's coming faster, closer, such a big knife- I run to the left, but that just puts me in a corner, nowhere to go, bookshelves behind me. I have to do something- throw something, that worked before- books.
I start pulling them off the shelves and heaving them at him as hard as I can. A few hit him, but he keeps coming, walking slower, smiling, taking his time, holding the knife out in front of him, waving it back and forth.
I keep pulling out books and throwing them, they hit him in the face, the chest, the stomach, he laughs, pushes them away, keeps coming, the room's dark, but he can see me, he keeps coming straight at me.
I try to shove the dusty couch at him, but it's too heavy.
He laughs.
I pick up the music stand and throw it.
That surprises him. He loses his balance, and I run around him into the kitchen, toward the back door.
Suddenly I'm down on the floor.
Something around my leg.
He's pulling me by the ankle, I see his knees bend, see the bottom of his chin, his arm, the knife's coming down-
I twist around like a snake, just keep moving, moving, maybe if I move he'll miss and I can get out through the back door. He's squeezing my ankle, hurting it, I punch at him, keep twisting, get close enough to the arm that's holding my ankle and bite it, bite it hard, Billy Snake Billy Viper.
He shouts and lets go and I want to run out the back, but he's blocking the way- where where where- the only choice is fake him out, move to the left then the right, into the bathroom, next best thing get in there, lock myself in.
I jump up, run faster than I've ever run before across the kitchen he's running too breathing hard I make it into the bathroom slam the door lock it squeeze in between the toilet and the bathtub cold floor breathing fast my chest hurts so bad-
No sound.
Then he laughs again. I hear footsteps. Slow footsteps; he's relaxed. I'm trying to breathe slower, but every breath makes a squeaky sound.
Through the door I hear: “Stupid little shit. You cornered yourself.”
He's right.
The bathroom has no window.
Now he's kicking the door it shakes the wood swells like a balloon that cracks right in the middle I jump up open the medicine cabinet feel in the darkness for something sharp a razor blade scissors anything no razor blade no scissors here's something pointy a nail file I think it's not sharp but I grab it he kicks part of his leg comes through black sweats black tennis shoes I stab down at the pants the nail file hits bone but it slides off doesn't go in he yells calls me a little bastard-
Another explosion much louder.
Something comes through the door flying by me the mirror on the medicine cabinet door shatters I feel pain in the back of my head put my hand there warm and sticky needles glass needles.
A gun- he's got a gun, too.
I throw myself into the tub he shoots again now the door is full of holes splintering and now I can see part of him on the other side his legs and shoes and his pants he's still shooting I'm lying facedown in the tub as low as I can go but a bullet hits the tub and the porcelain shatters and part of the wall falls off this is it I'm trapped finished I did my best it wasn't good enough I hate you everyone- another explosion the bullet goes into something above my head stuff falls down on me dust tiles I'm getting buried.
Now there's no door just him big huge the knife in one hand the gun in another.
He turns on the light.
I've still got the nail file. He sees it and laughs.
Puts the gun in his pocket.
Oh no the knife.
I curl up don't want to see it just don't let me feel it.
He takes hold of my hair pulls me up so I'm on my knees pulls my head back.
I piss my pants and shit slides out of me running down my leg thank you God for nothing you don't exist you liar-
Another explosion.
More and moreandmoreandmore I can't stand the noise I don't get it what's he doing-
He drops me and I fall into the tub hard.
A woman's voice says, “My God!”
Then: “It's okay, honey.”
A hand touches the back of my neck.
I scream.
80
Red puffs sparked from Balch's back, neck, posterior skull. Later, Petra learned she'd shot him nine times within a two-foot diameter, each bullet lethal, a tight little circle of death.
He fell on his face next to the bathtub, stayed there, the gun at his side. She kicked the weapon across the floor. Kicked him to make sure he was dead, though maybe that wasn't the only reason. The knife had fallen to one side. Big ugly commando thing with a black hard-rubber handle. She kicked it away, too, stepped over the black-sweat-suited corpse. Bits of blood-pinkened bone gritted the tile floor. The bathroom door was a splinter of frame barely hanging from one hinge.
The boy was huddled fetally in the tub.
What was left of the tub. Ragged chunks of porcelain had been torn loose; glass shards and dust and broken tiles were everywhere. Blood had flowed over Balch's back and wormed onto the floor. The place looked as if it had been through a war- how could the idiot think he'd get away with this?
He'd come close.
She'd had trouble finding a space within eyeshot of the house, and even though she saw no sign of intrusion, something pinged in her gut and she double-parked around the corner.
She got out of the car, smelling sea air, expecting another dead end.
Then gunshots raped the silence and she pulled out her gun and ran around to the back, found the door kicked in, a dimly lit kitchen beyond the threshold, off to the left another ravaged door, black-sweatsuited bulk nearly filling the opening- an upraised knife, a child's limp legs.
“Stop!” she screamed, but it was no warning; she was already shooting.
When she got to the boy, he refused to uncurl, whimpered when she talked to him, screamed when she touched him. Such a skinny little thing! His long hair was bloodstained, porcupined with glass fragments. Twelve, but the size of a ten-year-old. A yellow pool had spread underneath him. She smelled feces, saw the stain covering the seat of his jeans.
The urge to pick him up, hold him, rock him in her arms was so strong it made her palate ache. She got down on the floor, talked to him, finally managed to stroke his hair without repulsing him.
He stopped shaking, went rigid, then limp. She cradled his head, and now he let her. She knew how to comfort. At that moment she thought, crazily, of Nick. You were wrong, you prick.
When the boy was breathing regularly, she lay him down gently in the tub and called for an ambulance and uniformed backup, Code 3. Returning, she stayed with him, picking glass out of his scalp, getting splinters in her finger- it didn't matter; it felt okay. Calling him William, using a soothing tone, not really knowing what she was saying, wanting to calm him down, but how could you comfort a kid who'd been through this?