“What was it like?”
“Scary, mostly. I became an Agent when my mom died. I was trying to feed myself and not lose the house. That’s not the kind of information you can share with a potential boyfriend, or even a friend. I had to keep so much of my life a secret that I was never able to do normal teenage things, like go to the mall or sneak into R-rated movies or get trashed at parties. I never went on a date, never went to the prom. I never made out in the front seat of a car or got in a fight with my mom over a too-short skirt. One day I was a relatively normal kid and the next day I was responsible for the souls of the dead.”
“We are not so different. I did not have a ‘normal’ childhood, either,” Gabriel said.
I twisted to look at him and he stopped brushing. “What was it like, growing up with Azazel?”
Gabriel’s eyes grew distant. “Difficult. There was never a time when I was not reminded of my status. Many of the Grigori disagreed with Lord Azazel’s decision to raise me. I was often forced to battle creatures from other courts to prove my worth.”
“What, like gladiatorial combat?”
Gabriel nodded.
“How old were you?”
Gabriel shrugged. “Eight, I believe, on the first occasion. It has been many years. I cannot remember exactly.”
Eight. He’d been made to fight for his life when I was riding my bike up and down the street and reading Judy Blume books. I guess my childhood wasn’t so bad after all.
“How old are you, Gabriel?” I asked. I couldn’t believe I’d never thought to ask this question before.
He smiled briefly. “I am not certain it is wise to answer that question.”
“Why not?”
“I believe you are already feeling self-conscious and the answer will make you more so.”
“Don’t you think your wife ought to know the answer?”
He sighed. “One thousand and twenty.”
The light in the room flickered, or it just might have been black spots flickering before my eyes.
“One…thousand. With three zeros.”
“Yes,” he said. “But I do not wish for you to, as you say, make a big deal out of this.”
I laughed. “Right, why would it be a big deal that you’re nine hundred and eighty-eight years older than me?”
“Age does not matter,” Gabriel said, his fingers under my chin. “Like you, I am not…experienced.”
I hadn’t thought about that. I’d been so wrapped up in my own worries that I’d forgotten that Gabriel had been forbidden from birth to have sex with anyone. The Grigori would not risk another child of the nephilim’s line being born. And I’d thought I was the last virgin over the age of thirty in the U.S.
“So, I guess neither of us really knows what we’re doing, huh?”
“Madeline,” Gabriel said, and this time there was an undercurrent of implication when he said my name. “I believe we can figure out what to do.”
“Gabriel,” I said, with one last vestige of panic clinging to my voice. “The last time I was on a bed with a guy he tried to rape me.”
He stroked his fingers over my cheek, and I closed my eyes. There was so much gentleness in him. I was amazed that Azazel had never been able to beat it out of him.
“I will never harm you,” he said, and he kissed me again.
He leaned forward, wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me backward on top of him. He was deliciously hot, and in this position all of our relevant parts were rubbing in all the right places.
But he didn’t pull my robe off my shoulders, or attempt to remove his own pants. He just kept kissing me, until I grew soft and warm and pliant, until my breath was short and my hands were roaming.
Only then did he untie the already loosened belt of my bathrobe and toss it away. Only then did his hands go everywhere that ached for his touch, and his mouth followed.
I unbuttoned his pants, slid my fingers inside, heard him gasp. I was suddenly aware of a power I had never really comprehended before—my power as a woman, the power I had to make a strong man weak—and I smiled.
He smiled back, and I felt my whole being suffused with joy. This was where I was supposed to be—with this man, with this love—and I saw that love reflected back in his face.
When, finally, we came together as one, the room was lit up like a solar flare. Magic exploded in my blood and in my eyes, and in Gabriel’s. That magic mingled until the air was drenched with it, until it soaked our skin, until there was one tremendous explosion, a blazing burst of fireworks in the night sky.
The next morning I woke up with sunshine blazing through the windows. There was the smell of something good wafting from the kitchen. I groggily picked my head up and glanced at the clock. It was already midday.
I rolled over to my back. The sheets smelled like Gabriel, and I closed my eyes, remembering the night before.
Then I got up and pulled on my discarded robe, and went to look for my husband.
He was making pancakes, and whistling. I’d never heard him whistle before.
I leaned in the doorway, content to just watch him for a while. But he must have sensed me standing there, because he turned and smiled.
“Good morning,” he said. I hadn’t realized before how fraught with implication a “good morning” could be.
I crossed the kitchen to him and kissed him, because I could. Because I loved him, and there was no one to tell us not to.
Gabriel dropped the spatula on the counter so he could put his hands to better use. Things were just starting to get interesting again when someone cleared his throat behind me.
“The pancakes are burning,” Beezle said.
I leaned my forehead against Gabriel’s and rolled my eyes. “Why did I think you would give us a little privacy?”
“You had privacy. Yesterday. Now there are pancakes,” Beezle said, flying to the cabinet and pulling out his favorite plate. It was a plastic child’s plate with a cartoon of an owl and the word “night” above it.
He handed the plate to Gabriel, who shook his head at Beezle.
“I don’t want any of those burned ones.”
Gabriel obligingly loaded Beezle’s plate with unburned pancakes. The gargoyle flew to the table and sat down next to his plate.
“Where’s the syrup?” he asked, looking up at me expectantly.
I gave him an evil look, and he made a “pfft” noise at me. “What, did you think you were going to get some kind of honeymoon? You’ve got loads of stuff to do today. Does it really matter if I’m here right now?”
There was a tentative knock at the back door and Samiel stuck his head in hopefully.
I gave him a resigned wave. “Come on in. If you want pancakes, you’d better get them before Beezle eats them all.”
An hour later Gabriel and I landed on the roof of the Agency. Since Beezle and Samiel had seen fit to break up our morning after, I decided it was best to just get on with my regularly scheduled business day. And that meant finding out what J.B. had wanted to show me the day before.
We entered through the rooftop door after a biometric scan of my face and fingerprints. Security at the Agency had been considerably increased since Ramuell’s break-in a couple of months before.
As soon as we exited the stairwell we were all sent through a scanner. This scanner looked and acted a lot like a metal detector, except that it detected magical weapons and methods of concealment. A lot of Agents had worked overtime developing it, and it was now being duplicated at Agencies across the country. No one wanted to risk another massacre.