He took her entirely by surprise. Not only did he present himself at an unusually early hour, but when Mitton admitted that he rather thought Miss Abigail was at home he said that there was no need to announce him, and ran up the stairs, leaving Mitton in possession of his hat and malacca cane, and torn between romantic speculation and disapproval of such informal behaviour.
Abby was alone, and engaged on the task of fashioning a collar out of a length of broad lace. The table in the drawing-room was covered with pins, patterns, and sheets of parchment, and Abby had just picked up a pair of shaping scissors when Mr Calverleigh walked into the room. She glanced up; something between a gasp and a shriek escaped her; the scissors fell with a clatter; and she started forward involuntarily, with her hands held out. “You’ve come back! Oh, you have come back!” she cried.
The unwisdom, and, indeed, the impropriety of this unguarded betrayal of her sentiments occurred to her too late, and did not seem to occur to Mr Calverleigh at all. Before she could recover herself she was in his arms, being kissed with considerable violence. “My bright, particular star!” uttered Mr Calverleigh, into her ear.
Mr Calverleigh had very strong arms, and a shoulder most conveniently placed for the use of a tall lady. Abby, gasping for breath, gratefully leaned her cheek against it, feeling, for a fewbrief moments, that she had come safely to harbour after a stormy passage—She said, clinging to him: “Miles! Oh, my dear, I’ve missed you so dreadfully!” But hardly had she uttered these words than all the difficulties of her situation rushed in upon her, with the recollection of the decision she had so painfully reached, and she said, trying to wrench herself free: “No! Oh, I can’t think what made me—! I can’t, Miles, I can’t!”
Mr Calverleigh, that successful man of affairs, was not one to be easily rocked off his balance. “What can’t you, my heart’s dearest?” he enquired.
Abby quivered. “Marry you! Oh, Miles, don’t!”
She broke from him, and turned away, groping blindly for her handkerchief, and trying very hard not to let her emotion get the better of her.
“Well!” said Mr Calverleigh, in stunned accents. “This is beyond everything! After what has just passed between us! I wonder you dare look me in the face!”
Abby, was not, in fact, daring to look him in the face: she was occupied in drying her wet cheeks.
“Has no one ever told you that it is the height of impropriety to kiss any gentleman, unless you have the intention of accompanying him immediately to the altar?” demanded the outraged Mr Calverleigh. “It will not do, ma’am! Such conduct—”
He broke off abruptly, as she looked up, between tears and laughter, and said, in quite another voice: “Now, what’s this? Let me look at you!”
As he took her face between his hands as he spoke, and turned it up, she was obliged to let him. She dared not meet his eyes, however, and very nearly broke down again when he said, after a moment’s scrutiny: “ My loved one, I left you in a high state of preservation! What has been happening here?”
She moved away, saying: “Do I look hagged? I am—I am rather tired. Fanny has been ill. And there have been other things.” She smiled, with an effort, and made a gesture towards a chair—“Won’t you sit down? I must tell you—explain to you—why I can’t marry you.”
“Yes, I think you must do that,” he said, drawing her to the sofa. “I can think of only one reason: that you find you don’t love me enough.”
She allowed him, though reluctantly, to push her gently down on to the sofa, and sat there, primly upright, with her hands tightly folded in her lap. “I meant to tell you that that was it, ” she said, keeping her eyes lowered. “I—thought it would be best to say just that. I never, never meant to—” She stopped, as a thought occurred to her, and looked up, a sparkle of indignation in her eyes. “I should like to know what Mitton was about to let you walk in on me, without coming first to ask me if I was at home to visitors, and not even announcing you!” she said, with a strong suggestion of ill-usage in her voice.
He had taken his place at the other end of the sofa, seated sideways, with one arm lying along the back of it: a position which enabled him to keep his eyes on her profile. He seemed to be quite at his ease; and there was nothing in his demeanour to suggest that he was suffering from any of the chagrin natural to a gentleman whose suit had been rejected. He said: “Oh, you mustn’t blame the poor fellow! I told him I would announce myself.”
“You had no business to do so!” scolded Abby. “If you hadn’t startled me—if I had had a moment’s warning—I shouldn’t have—it wouldn’t have happened!”
“Well, you might not have kissed me, but I had every intention of kissing you, so it’s just as well he didn’t announce me,” said Mr Calverleigh. “Do you always kiss gentlemen who walk in unannounced? I’ll take good care none is allowed to do so when we are married!”
A smile trembled on her lips, and she blushed faintly, but also she shook her head, saying: “We are not going to be married.’
“I was forgetting that,” he apologized. “Why are we not going to be married?”
“That is what I feel I must explain to you. I didn’t mean to, but after behaving so very improperly it wouldn’t be any use to tell you that I don’t love you, would it?”
“No, none at all,” he agreed.
“No. Well—you must try to understand, Miles! I know you don’t enter into my feelings on this subject, so it is very difficult to explain it to you. I have thought and thought—argued with myself until my head aches—but in the end I’ve realized that I cannot marry you—ought not to do so!”
“What brought you to this conclusion?” he asked conversationally.
She began carefully to pleat her damp handkerchief. “I suppose you might say it was Mrs Ruscombe. She is Cornelia’s bosom-bow—James’s wife, you know—and she makes it her business to spy on us, and to send a record of all our doings to Cornelia.” She raised her eyes to his for an instant, smiling wryly. “I am afraid we were not very discreet, Miles, for she told Cornelia that I was encouraging your advances, and that brought James down upon us, as you may imagine. Of course we came to points—we always do—but even though I was in the most shocking pelter I couldn’t keep from laughing. You never heard such pompous fustian in your life! I found myself wishing you could have been there to enjoy it!”
“I rather wish that too,” acknowledged Mr Calverleigh. “Did he forbid the banns?”
“Heavens, yes! He said that if I married you I should be cast out of the family, and he would have divulged the Awful Truth about you and Celia if I hadn’t told him that I knew it already, and that shocked him so much that he said he began to think we—you and I—were well matched!”
“You know, he’s not such a bad fellow after all!” remarked Miles.
“He is a toad. It wasn’t anything he said which made me realize how impossible it is. Nothing he said to me. But he said it all over again to Selina, and, I daresay, a great deal more.” She fell silent, deeply troubled. At last, she sighed, and said: “I never knew how much Selina loved me. James told her she would have to choose between me and the family, and, oh, Miles, she said that she would never give me up, whatever I did! Selina! But she was dreadfully upset—she made herself ill, and she is still quite overpowered, and—and can scarcely bear to let me out of her sight. She says over and over again that she doesn’t know what she will do when I’m gone, and that—has made me realize how wrong—how heartless—it would be if I were to marry you. If you had been the sort of dull, respectable man of whom the family would have approved I think she would have grown accustomed—though sometimes I feel I ought not to leave her, no matter who asked me to marry him. You see, we have been together all my life, and for years—ever since my mother died—I’ve managed everything for her, and taken care of her. But if you had been Peter Dunston, whom she has been trying to persuade me to marry these three years, she would have been pleased, and that would have helped her to bear the loneliness she dreads. She would have known I was near at hand, and she wouldn’t have been estranged from the family, or— Oh, I can’t explain it to you! So—so many evils would result from our marriage! If you think it wouldn’t become known that I had married you against the wishes of my family, you cannot know Bath! They might seem insignificant to you; they seem so to me; but not to Selina. And then there is Fanny!”