“And what did you notice about her?”
“The snot in her nostril,” Steadman said.
As though he had spoken the truth, Ava became defensive. “She’s beautiful. She’s strong. She really knows him. It’s a real team.”
But another glance in the direction of the first lady told Steadman that there was almost nothing there except a chill between the husband and wife. She was much poorer at pretending than he was.
“She’s his prisoner,” Steadman said.
He walked outside, down the stone steps to the lawn. Many of the guests had gone out to enjoy the fragrance of the evening. They were drinking, laughing gently, reminding each other of what a lovely summer it was. “We’ve been on the island since July Fourth,” Wolfbein was saying. Through the slender scrub oaks the Sound was glowing in the last of the sunset.
In the luminous half-dark of dusk on the lawn, a little apart from the other guests, he felt euphoric, seeing everything clearly while unseen and unknown himself. He was reminded of how, in this euphoria, he resembled the celebrated novelist he wished to become, a narrator among his characters. He was convinced of the purposeful insight of his blindness, his apparent blindness, and that at last his novel would be the book he had longed to write.
Sensing someone behind him, Steadman tilted his head to listen. He was touched on the hand by soft, damp, imploring fingers, and his arm groped too, each touch an appeal, a plea, an invitation, the clutching of slender bones. The people who had touched him at the party believed they were unseen, unknown — and they were, except by Steadman, who saw each one, the big bold woman, the sidling blonde, the dark foxfaced woman with searching hands who had crept over and stroked him, announcing herself when he had arrived. She was small — smaller than Ava — and she had touched him without Ava’s knowing. And she was back, on the lawn, grazing him again with her hand, her heart beating like mad as she moved quickly away.
Sunset had come fast, a deepening shadow in the sky, a dampness of light dew gathering on the grass. Being touched, in his memory, was like being brushed by the low boughs of leaning trees, by the leaves of bushes next to the path, tumbled thickets and groves growing at the edge of the bluff, its sea grass and sand still holding the dry hum of the day’s heat.
And with the darkness, the smoke-stink of flares and torches was more apparent — orangy flames, flat and ragged, on head-high bamboo poles jammed into the ground.
“Down this way!” Wolfbein called out. Looking like a cop in traffic, one arm raised, he directed the guests toward the narrow stony path where, in the flapping light of the kerosene torches, handsome young men in white shirts, employees of the catering company, as orderly and solemn as soldiers, escorted people along the path to the lip of the bluff, where a flight of steps led down to the beach.
“I’m all right,” Steadman said when one of the young men reached for him.
Steadman tapped his stick on the wooden treads and looked down, deliberately holding up the other guests, who paused and watched the blind man’s slow descent, talking as he stepped slowly.
“Nobska lighthouse,” he said, waving his stick at the flickering light across the Sound. Then he looked down. “Checkered tablecloths. Lots of tables. Lanterns. Crimson lobsters stacked on seaweed. A washtub of steamed clams. Buckets of corn. A tureen of chowder. A basin of chopped salad greens. More torches. And the water lapping the table legs.”
“That’s amazing,” someone said, hearing him, and there were supporting murmurs.
“I was at this clambake a few years ago,” Steadman said.
“It’s still amazing. I hadn’t recognized all that stuff until you started describing it.”
“Memory is vision,” Steadman said, still descending the stairs, and as he spoke he heard Ava groan.
At the bottom of the stairs, Ava said in a low scolding tone, “Why are you calling attention to yourself?”
“That’s why I came.”
“How can you be so fucking pompous? ‘Memory is vision.’ Jesus!”
But he was smiling, feeling his way forward. He brushed the piece of paper Ava held in her hand.
“What are you reading?”
“The seating plan.”
“Where am I sitting?” he asked.
“You tell me,” she said, challenging him. “You can see in the dark, right?”
All this in whispers.
He knew Wolfbein as a friend who would have assured him a good seat — and everyone was extra-nice to the blind. He said, “I’m sitting with the president.”
Containing her fury, Ava’s body convulsed: he had guessed right. And then he heard her shoes treading the stones on the foreshore as she stalked off to her own table.
And a woman’s hand rested on his lower back, a woman unseen by Ava.
Steadman said, “Who are you?”
The woman touching him turned quickly and stumbled slightly on the shingly beach, leaving a wisp of fragrance at the level of his head.
He was the first to sit, and so when the others joined him they spoke to Steadman, positioning themselves in front of his face to address him. Although they were friends, and he knew them as soon as they spoke, they said their names, as though he were feeble — Walter and Betsy Cronkite, Olga Hirshhorn, Bill Styron, Millie Wolfbein, and finally the president, who was finishing a conversation with Vernon Jordan.
“You’re going to be fine, man,” Vernon said, looming over Steadman, bestowing his blessing before walking on.
“Hello, girl,” the president said to Millie, and gave her a hug. Then he said, “Slade’s doing good. I think he sees more than we do.”
It was true, and he knew it. The president was uncomfortable, Steadman could tell, which was another reason he wanted to possess the blind man and disarm him. He feared the blank stare behind the dark glasses, he feared Steadman guessing his secret. Steadman did not know the details of the secret, only that it was a woman, and because it was sexual the president was both embarrassed and eager. He was happy, he was pink with confusion, rendered younger and more readable — all the grinning traits of being smitten.
So when the drinks were served and the talk turned to movies, the president reminisced about himself as a boy — the interrupted conversation he had begun earlier in the house, about The Barefoot Contessa.
Styron said, “I went to high school with Ava Gardner. She was a lovely simple girl, just a farm girl. Came over the state line to Newport News from North Carolina. We called her a Tar Heel.”
Steadman said, “You could have taken her to the prom.”
“Well, she was a year behind me. But, yes, I could have,” Styron said, and he stroked his face as he did when he was self-conscious, and gave his deep appreciative laugh.
The president said, “In that scene where she drops her dress and it just falls. Oh, my.”
Everyone at the table was watching the president with pleasure.
He said, “I couldn’t breathe!”
The laughter exploded as soon as he spoke, but Steadman saw the truth of the revelation. It was distinctly confessional, and it was also a dream of yearning and power in a crowded movie theater in Hot Springs. Steadman saw a boy in a seat, wide-eyed and with his mouth open, wanting the world.
As the clambake progressed and the food was distributed, the waiters bringing plates piled with corn and lobster and steamers, a group of young men lined up, a dozen or more in identical red shirts. They paid their respects to the president and greeted the diners. One of them, announcing that they were the Tiger Tones from Princeton, took out a pitch pipe and blew a note, and they began to sing. They sang one song after another, old tunes, “Chattanooga Choo Choo” and “Hey, There” and “What’ll I Do?”