Beckwith looked at the girl and then to Walker.
"Lou," he said. "You're about the most resourceful man I know, even when you're sick."
The girl had gone to her father and now she looked at him with frightened surprise. "You told him!"
"I had to. I don't want him saying we're running away."
"What do you call it?" Beckwith said.
"I'm getting too old to play soldierboy," Risdon said.
"You think you can just walk away?"
"He's not in the army," Walker said now. "He can leave any time he feels like it!"
"With all he knows about us?" Beckwith asked.
"God, if you can't trust him, who can you!"
"Lou, I wonder about that more and more every day."
"Cut out the foolishness!"
"Were you going, too?"
"No."
"Just take your word for it?" Beckwith's thin face was expressionless. "Lou," he said, "I'm not play actin'. You know what they do to deserters."
"What's he deserting from?"
"Me," Beckwith said quietly. He added, then, "Lou, I'll have to take your word about you not going but get over on the bed out of the way." Walker hesitated and Beckwith turned the pistol on him threateningly. "I can include you as easily as not."
Walker backed against the bed and eased down, keeping his right leg stiffly in front of him. As he sank to the bed, something hard dug against his thigh. His hand moved to the side of his leg, then stopped. It was his pistol.
Risdon was watching his daughter and now he was about to speak: it was on his face.
"Keep it to yourself," Beckwith said to him. "I don't want to hear any more."
"What are you going to do?" Walker asked him quietly. His hand was on the pistol butt now, close under his leg.
"What I have to," Beckwith said. "We can't take chances on either of them."
"Here?"
"Out somewhere."
Walker's fingers closed around the pistol grip. He hesitated, because he wanted to do this the right way, and he wasn't sure what that was. He heard Risdon say, "Beckwith " and saw the agent's head turn toward Risdon. At that moment, Walker raised the pistol and cocked it.
Beckwith heard the click and his head swung back. He looked at Walker as if what he saw could not be possible.
Walker held the pistol dead on the agent's chest.
"I'm not going to try to convince you of anything," he said. "Just let go of the gun."
The surprise passed and Beckwith's drawn face scowled. "You're making the biggest mistake of your life."
"If you don't think I'd shoot, hold on to that gun for three more seconds."
Beckwith's pistol was pointed midway between Risdon and Walker. His eyes held on Walker's face, trying to read something there. Then, slowly, his arm lowered and when his hand reached his side, the fingers opened and the pistol dropped to the floor.
Risdon stooped, picked it up and glanced at Beckwith as he rose.
"You just lost yourself a job."
"You've got to take him with you," Walker said now. "Drop him at maybe Cuchillo by the time he finds help you'll have all the distance you'd need."
Risdon frowned. "You're coming now, aren't you?"
Walker shook his head.
The girl looked at him in disbelief. "Lou, why would you stay now?"
"The same reason as before."
"But it's different now!"
"Why is it? I'm still a soldier. I haven't been serving under a private flag of Beckwith's."
The girl continued to look at him with the plea in her eyes, but now there was nothing she could say.
Risdon shrugged. "Well, you can't fight that."
Walker pulled on his boots, then lifted the shoulder holster from the bedpost and slipped his arm through it and inserted the handgun. He picked up his coat and moved to the girl.
"If you don't understand," he said quietly, "then I don't know what I can say."
She looked up into his face, but without smiling, and then she kissed him.
Risdon said, "She's tryin'." His eyes followed Walker moving to the door. "Lou," he said. "We thought we'd follow the Rio Grande to Cuchillo then bear west toward Santa Rita."
Unexpectedly, Walker smiled, but he said nothing going out the door.
At Yellow Tavern he had killed a Union soldier.
Perhaps he had killed others, but the one at Yellow Tavern was the only one he was sure of. It had been at close range, firing down into the soldier's face as the Yankee's bayonet thrust caught in his horse's mane. He fired and the blue uniform disappeared. That simple. What he was about to do no longer seemed a part of war, because the man had a name and was not just a blue uniform.
He rode out from Valverde to the cavalry station at a walk, moving the borrowed mount unhurriedly, his right leg hanging out of the stirrup. Nearing the adobes a trooper rode by and shouted, but the sound of his running mount covered the words.
The sunlight on the gray adobe was cold, because there was no one about and there were no sounds. Over the row of bare houses, far to the north, reaching into the clouds, was the whiteness of Sangre de Cristo. This, too, caused the cavalry station to seem drab. Walker knew a patrol was out. Perhaps McGrail had taken it. For a moment he felt relief, but knew that would solve nothing.
He went through a doorway above which a wooden shingle read: headquarters valverde station 9th us cavalry .
At the desk a sergeant looked up and momentarily there was recognition on his face. But he said nothing, he only listened to the name that was given him, then stepped into the next room and closed the door behind him.
He reappeared almost immediately. "The major will see you," and stepped aside to let Walker pass.
McGrail's back was turned. He stood at the window behind his desk, looking out at the sand and glare.
He did not turn, but when the door closed, he said, "I've been expecting you."
Walker hesitated. "Why?"
McGrail turned then. He was holding a revolving pistol in his right hand, and with the other he was wiping a cloth along the barrel.
"To return the horse you borrowed," he said.
"Why else?"
Walker was silent. The surprise was on his face for a brief moment. It passed, and still he did not say anything.
"How's the leg?"
"Stiff."
"I suppose it would be."
McGrail moved the cloth slowly, steadily along the pistol barrel. Abruptly he said, "You wouldn't know the whereabouts of a man named Beckwith, would you?"
Walker was startled. "Should I?"
"You're not one for answering questions, are you?"
Walker unbuttoned his coat and drew tobacco from his shirt. He made a cigarette and replaced the tobacco, leaving his coat open.
"I could never wear a shoulder holster," McGrail said. "Would always feel bound."
Walker exhaled cigarette smoke. "You get used to anything."
"I thought you might have heard of this Beckwith," McGrail said. "I'm rather anxious to meet him, myself you see, he's a Confederate agent."
"Why are you telling me that?"
McGrail shrugged. "Just conversation. Thought you might be interested. You see, this Beckwith thinks he's been putting something over on us, but there are as many people in Valverde giving information to me as there are to him." McGrail was relaxed. His eyes were not tired now, and his full red beard had been combed and trimmed. "People like waiters and bartenders?" Walker said.
"All kinds of people, doing their bit." McGrail smiled.
Walker dropped his cigarette to the plank flooring and stepped on it and saw the major frown. "If you have something to say, say it."
McGrail hesitated, watching Walker closely. He had been leaning against the front of his desk. Now he moved around it and, next to the window, unrolled a wall map by pulling a short cord. He beckoned to Walker with the handgun.