“No one is perfect.” I reach up and place a light kiss on his lips. “Be my scars and flaws, Tuck, be mine.”
Something unleashes inside of Tuck as he forces himself into me without any warning, and I scream.
“Shhh…you want me, so here it is.”
I know we are being loud in the small house and shouldn’t be, but neither of us can control our yelps and growls of pleasure. His skin rubs up and down mine as he works himself in and out of me. I hike my heels up and over his lower back, allowing him to drive harder and deeper. Tuck handles me like a ragdoll as he rolls me over to my belly and enters me again.
His palm covers the back of my head as he presses my face harder down into his mattress. He’s being aggressive and controlling, but the only important part is…he’s letting me feel and see him for the first time. The pain from my side nearly threatens to knock my ass out, but the overwhelming pleasure keeps me from surrendering to it. Tuck slides his hand down to the nape of my neck, squeezing it even harder, and I spiral out of control. Ripping my head away, I bury my face and let the pillows drown out my screams.
Tuck doesn’t stop as he continues to relentlessly drive in and out of me, and I feel that pleasure begin to build and bury my face again to muffle the sounds. The lack of oxygen threatens to knock me out, but when I feel him grow harder inside me, I explode and feel the earth move then scream out in pleasure. Let everything out that’s been building for months.
Tuck’s quick to cover my mouth with his hand as he finishes up with his own release. His warmth spreads inside of me with each thrust of his hips, and it’s something I’ve never felt before. He rolls over, taking me with him, my naked back pressed against his sweaty chest. I run my hands up and down his sides, following the scar on his side all the way down his hip as far as I can reach. It doesn’t take long before he’s tensed up again with my touch.
“Tuck.”
I only get a light growl from him.
“Was that the first time, like, ever?”
“Yeah.” His hands cover the backs of mine, stopping them from running up and down his skin.
“You did good.” I’m thankful he can’t see the stupid smile on my face right now.
“I don’t like your skin on mine.”
I try to roll off of him to look at his face.
“No, Blue. I don’t want to look at you.”
“What the fuck?”
“You have to have some patience here, Blue. You’re flawless, laying on my burns and touching me, and I don’t know how to react.”
“Do you like it?” I ask, clenching my eyes shut.
“I more than like it, and that fucking scares me, but it also makes my skin crawl with the thought of you seeing me.”
Sitting straight up, I go for the lights and turn them off. Then I make my way straight back to Tuck. Starting at mid-calf where his burns begin, I caress every part of them and then trail kisses along them. Slowly I work my way up his thighs and then glide my tongue across his delicious hips, stopping to appreciate his v-muscle.
“Blue.”
His heart is thundering in his chest, and I know his anxiety has to be sky high.
“Tuck, I’m not looking at you. I’m just trying to love you.” I push up into a sitting position and straddle him. “Are you going to let me do that?”
“Fuck, I hate this,” he growls and slams his fists into the mattress.
“Hate what?” I push him harder.
“That I’m this and you’re that.” I feel his hands wave around in the air, but don’t see them.
“I don’t see your scars, Tuck.” I trail my finger down his chest, letting it bump and glide over him. “I see the man I want so bad. I see the man who has dark eyes and the most gorgeous face I’ve ever seen. I see you.”
My need for him to give in or break grows stronger as I bend down and gently place kisses all over his chest and then trail slowly up his neck. From burnt skin to perfect skin, my tongue licks across him, and I moan in pleasure, soaking up everything Tuck. I just have no idea how to show this man I want all of him.
My lips rest on his as I mumble into them. “It’s your choice, Tuck. I’m begging to be with you, and if you can’t believe that, then we need to stop this now.”
“I want you and love you, but, Blue, you’re going to have to be patient with me.”
His lips attack mine without warning as he kisses the ever loving shit out of me. Tuck’s words are not convincing at all, but the passion he pours into kissing me is my guarantee he’s in this to try. I kiss him back, and it shocks him to life, and his hands begin exploring my body. His hands grip my ass, squeezing to a near point of pain, and making me yelp in his mouth.
He pulls back with a devilish grin on his face. “I think you’ve created a monster in this beast. I’m never going to get enough of you, Blue.”
Something very large and extremely hard pokes between us, and I squirm against it.
“My turn, Tuck.”
My hips easily find him, and he has me so ready I slip down on him with ease. I splay my palms out over his chest and push myself up into a sitting position and begin to rock back and forth. My fingers dig into his skin as my pleasure builds. The electrifying sensation feels so amazing I try to slow it down to feel all of it before I burst, but I don’t have the chance before Tucks grips my hips and forces me. He controls the speed with his deathly grip pounding me up and down on him.
He growls, and then I feel him harden and it’s all over for me as I tumble into ecstasy with him and go limp on his chest. He tenses right back up after his sensations wear off, but I refuse to move.
“This is the most comfortable I’ve been in a long time, Tuck.”
He brushes my hair from my face while his other hand rubs up and down my back. He never quits playing with my hair, which eventually lulls me to sleep.
Chapter 23
I feel his hand on my shoulder again and turn, expecting to see Tuck, but it’s not him. All the feelings flood back, and I scramble to safety, but am being held down by a stronger power. Panic sets in and I fight harder and try to scream, but my voice is stuck in my throat.
“Blue.”
My shoulders begin to shake, then I hear my name being called again.
“I have you. It was a dream.”
I pull my face from Tuck’s chest and look into his eyes and immediately relax into him.
“Oh fuck,” I gasp.
“It’s okay, baby.”
His hands are on me again, rubbing everywhere.
“I need a drink.”
“Okay, let me get up.”
He tries to gently set me on the bed next to him, but I yelp and he freezes.
“Let me, Tuck.”
“Fuck, are you in that much pain? We shouldn’t have.”
I grip his face with both hands and force him to look up at me. I can barely make out his features in the dimly lit room. I kiss him softly.
“We should do that every night of our life. Just give me a sec. I’m a little stiff.”
I wince as I roll off him and realize it probably wasn’t the smartest idea to sleep on the brick wall known as Tuck in my condition.
“Where are you going?” I ask as he gets up from the bed and throws on his boxers.
“To start a bath.”
“You’ll wake the whole house. No.”
“Fine.” He grabs the doorknob. “I’ll get the hot tub ready and find your pills.”
Somehow I have to fight through my pain and sore muscles, because there’s no way I’ll let him know how badly I’m hurting. I wouldn’t change last night for anything. I brush my feet on the dark hardwood floor, remembering everything that went down, and pray that Tuck won’t scare. He’s the most beautiful man I’ve ever seen, been with, and touched. I just have to make him feel the way I see him.
Creaks and squeaks from the hall fill the silent room and I know he’s on his way back in. I do my best to stand and move around the room, slowly gaining my bearings. One of Tuck’s large shirts lays on the ground, and I snag it and pull it over my head.